trying something today. anytime i think about food, i'm going to edit this post and see if i can stop myself until at least 5pm. also will be a good log on when the cravings hit and how i feel.
8am: had a random spike of wanting some small food. going to finish water and try and wait until 11 for coffee.
edit: made it to 5:30PM with just a few slices of pepperoni and coffee! success. going to do this again for thursday
a month from now you can be 10lbs lighter or 10 times more miserable
My master list of motif to ⭐️ve…
For a skinny girl autumn and winter/sweater weather and spooky season vibes
To be unrecognizable and make everyone jealous of how pretty I get
To get skinny for my tattoos
To be intelligent and beautiful
No acne! (aka my biggest insecurity)
To have a sex drive/feel good during sex
To attract more attention from people/my partner/crushes
Honestly, getting drunk and high is so much more fun when you’re starving and skinny lol
To have an incredible sense of style and actually be able to wear cool outfits
To romanticize my life more
To give me a reason for existing and looking drop dead gorgeous while doing it
To beat my goal weight before I was forced into treatment; get into the mindset again
To chase the euphoria that starving and being skinny brings/the number on the scale droppjng brings
To shock everyone with how beautiful I get
Sharp cheekbones and jawline/thigh gap/slim arms/prominent and protruding collarbone/skinny fingers/thin and hour glass figure
To wear rings and nice jewelry that compliment my skinny body
I have the potential! I refuse to waste it this time
I want to look attractive for my travels across the globe this year. Meeting lifetime friends and partying in Europe will be so much more fun when skinny!
I feel so much more clean and motivated when I’m starving! I clean my space more, self care more, look better in general and do everything I need to get done!! I need this back
You dont need to eat. No one is forcing u to eat. U can eat later. Right now, just focus on gettin ur body in order. This doesnt mean that the food will disappear and u will never be able to eat it again. Come on, ure already so close to ur goal, so why give up now? Why eat something u have already tasted a million times... u already know what it tastes like, so u dont need it. You know how easy its to undo your successes, so just avoid eatin. Its not the end of the world. Tbh its disgusting that ure so obsessed with food. Think about something else for once.
i plateaued at 176.6 - so close to my goal - and then i fucked up my back yesterday. had been hurting for a while, but hosting the company events kind of screwed me over, and i tweaked it when i got home. that means no working out for a week.
so goodbye food :(
Height: 5'4"
HW: 210
SW: 200 (November 2023)
CW: 154 (April 2025)
GW1: 146 (May 2025)
GW2: 138 (June 2025)
GW3: 130 (July 2025)
UGW: 120 (August/September 2025)
**UUGW: <110**
It’s like once I eat, and that door is open it invites all the food noise back…
so your s/o can pick you up effortlessly
free piggy back rides from your friends
so you don't have to worry about being too heavy when you sit in someone's lap
so people will lend you their clothes (and they'll be too big on you)
when people buy you clothes, they'll get the smallest size (and worry that a size S might be too big)
someone from a k-beauty youtube video said "losing weight makes you 10x prettier"
to fit into petite and aesthetic clothes (eg brandy melville)
so you don't have the gross feeling of your skin touching (thighs rubbing together, stomach rolls, etc)
to look effortlessly beautiful doing anything
you'll sweat less
to look good in tight clothes
to be able to wear revealing outfits and still look cute
you'll look cute and small in oversized clothes, instead of looking bigger
so you can wear a bikini
to feel more confident
people will treat you better
if you stick to it and work hard to lose the weight, then you'll be better than everyone who has failed to do so. you're willpower and self-control will be admired and envied by your peers
people will pay more attention to you
people will worry and care about you more
for the skinny/pretty privilege
to make people jealous of you
to prove that you can
to look good wearing anything, even if it isn't a good outfit
so you won't be anxious about being weighed at the doctor's
to look prettier in pictures
so you can go clothes shopping without being insecure
no more dressing room breakdowns
so your s/o can fit their fingers around your wrists and their hands around your thighs (or so you can do it yourself)
for the thigh gap (duh)
to be small enough to use your s/o as a bed
so your s/o can easily lift you with one hand
so your sh scars (if you have any) look more "aesthetic" (idrk how to explain it, but scars always look prettier on thinner limbs
to be desirable
you'll have a higher chance of people stopping you on the street for photographs/modeling scouts/etc
to be more attractive
you'll use less products (body wash, lotion) if there's less of you (so you'll end up saving money too!)
people will take you more seriously
you'll be able to move through crowds easier
to boost your self-esteem, feel better about yourself, and be happier
you can purchase the smallest size when shopping online and you won't have to worry about it being too small
to be able to shop at cute online shops that only carry smaller sizes (brandy, yesstyle, other asian stores)
to look good while eating, instead of like a fat, greedy pig...
to finally be in control
so you don't feel jealous/sad when you see other people's bodies/thinspo, because THEY'LL be envying YOU
to have your pics/bodychecks put in a thinspo compilation
to finally feel pretty
to take up less space
to be able to wear low rise bottoms
so you can talk about your weight and not feel ashamed
if you actually stick to it and restrict, your appetite/stomach will be a lot smaller once you reach your ugw, so you'll naturally eat less!!