You need to dump Beth. She's an asshole.
Beth spends time with me. I don’t always understand her, but I think she means well…
Do you like theater? If so, what are your favorite plays and/or musicals?
I don’t dislike theater, but I struggle with the social environment around it.
It’s loud. It’s crowded. People clap too much. But I do like the mechanics of it the structure, the rhythm, the way a story has to rely on timing and restraint. I like plays that don’t talk down to their audience.
Copenhagen is a good one,it’s about physics and ethics. The Effect by Lucy Prebble was interesting too, mostly because it plays with psychology and perception in a way that felt grounded. Musicals are harder. Most are emotionally overstimulating, but I think Hadestown had merit. I like mythology. And I appreciate when something ancient gets recontextualized in a modern structure. That’s how understanding evolves.
Thought you’d be interested in this, stea. You think Keats was talking about Polaris? Can’t say I’m well versed on the subject. https://www.poetryfoundation.org/poems/44468/bright-star-would-i-were-stedfast-as-thou-art
— Nigel
Fomalhaut was the first star that came to mind. People call it the lonely one, and that feels closer to what Keats was describing—‘not in lone splendour hung aloft the night’—watching in silence like some sleepless, distant observer. Polaris is constant, sure, but Fomalhaut is solitary. It sits far apart from the other bright stars in the sky. Easy to notice. Easy to feel something about.
It makes sense to me, logistically too. Fomalhaut is visible from Earth without much effort. But more than that, it carries the weight of solitude, of being out there and unmistakably alone.
I don’t think he wanted to be the star. I think he recognized something of himself in it. When we admire things people, stars, it’s often because they mirror something we’re missing or trying to understand. Maybe he wasn’t longing for distance, but for connection. To feel less alone by seeing that loneliness reflected back.
And even if they’re separated by lifetimes of space, the star and the observer exist in that moment together. No one else might understand that connection, perhaps not even the two of them, but it’s there nonetheless.
Supermassive Star Eta Carinae ©
Hey guys!
I know this is probably terrible timing, but I did want to let y’all know I’ll be taking a small break
or at least I don’t anticipate it to be long. My mental health hasn’t been the best, and I’ve got a lot of medical stuff I gotta take care of rn. So sorry to let y’all down like this. I’m super grateful for you guys, and I’ll do my best to be back soon.
Note: Some good news is that I’ll still be continuing my AO3 story tho! Since I only really plan to posting once a week, I think it won’t be too much on me. I also haven’t posted the link for it on here yet ’cause I’m still working through some stuff in chapter one.
Anyway, love y’all and stay safe 🤍
I would really prefer if everyone spoke to me directly, instead of over or for me.
I am a functioning adult, and I don’t need to be spoken for. I understand the concern on both sides, but the aggression from either side is unnecessary and, frankly, overwhelming.
I don’t take sides in this, and I don’t appreciate being used like this, as if my life doesn’t already come with its own stresses. I just want to be completely removed from this conflict and, honestly, I’d prefer it if it stays that way going forward.
@1nvictus @deerrdarling @coke-n-dope
Adam, don’t trust Nigel, he’s a bastard. He called me a fucking liability
-Tonny aka @coke-n-dope
I feel as though I’ve been inadvertently dragged into a personal conflict.
Good to hear from you though, Tonny
[OOC] Hi!! :D I was curious where you intend Adam’s storyline to go? Or if you have any set plans at all. Will you follow some of the plot of the movie or just entirely do you own thing ?
[OOC] Hey!! 🫶 Yes, I actually do have some plans! At least regarding how I want to incorporate the plot of the movie and the HEU.
Basically, I’d like everything to be similar to the movie. Adam will get to know Beth, meet her parents at the theater, and Beth and Adam will get into an argument but make up—UP UNTIL the part where Adam finds out that Beth lied to him and actually knew her parents were coming to meet him all along.
As we all know, Adam needs a new job after he got fired. Since Adam already has to drive from NYC to Hannibal for his therapy and has now made friends with Abigail, I plan for his new job offer to be close to Baltimore. He’ll start a new life and become more involved in everything going on in Maryland, all while navigating his own life as well.
So, that’s roughly what you can expect, but we never know what might happen!!
Hey Adam! Congrats on the new job and move to Baltimore. I think a change of scenery from the noise and excitement of NYC will be a bit less chaotic.
As a reminder, I'm here for ya. I know I'm not involved, not trying to be, but I'm here. People shouldn't pity you. But they also shouldn't walk all over you. I'm proud of you for setting those boundaries.
Never compromise your wellbeing, ever.
- 🧷
Hello,
Thank you for your message.I mean that sincerely. I think you’re right about the noise. New York has been too much for me ever since my Dad died, though I got used to the overstimulation. Or I thought I did.
Baltimore will be different. Not necessarily quieter, but..slower, maybe. Which might be good for me.
I appreciate the sentiment. I understand your concern. But sometimes things appear different from the outside. I’m doing what feels manageable for me at the moment. And that has to be enough, doesn’t it?
Still—thank you, again.
This you?
That’s not me. It’s an alien plushie.
Are you genuinely curious, or is this just a joke?
Good luck with talking to Beth 🤞
If it goes south, just make sure you take care of yourself first.
- 🧷 (safetypin-non)
Thank you. It went well.
You do not understand me. You pity me.