I Will Never Allow Anyone I Care About To Own A Minivan.

When you finally overcome the helplessness just long enough to talk to a professional about how messed up things are, and they call to cancel two hours before the appointment.

Still not sure what to do with these Amazon gift cards I got for my birthday. Nice gloves for the winter, or Miyazaki movies? Hardest decision ever.

How are the meds going? How do you feel? ❤

Well, you were right about how they're supposed to work. They don't even help ease the sadness, anger. They're just supposed to give you more energy and help focus. Doesn't make sense why humans would even bother to invent such a useless medication. Medication is supposed to be coupled with therapy, but what good is that if my mind has hard-wired itself to be, well, me?I wish you could have another opportunity to try them. Maybe they would work for you. Maybe you'd run into an incredible doctor, counselor, or someone completely new, and you could start to piece back together. Medication doesn't necessarily work the same on everyone, but the right support is essential. Otherwise, it'll only make things, in a way, worse. It's only easier to focus on the dark now.Thanks for checking on me. You are an incredible person. I'm sure it's impossible to convince yourself, but there are a lot of us out there who think so about you.Hope you're having a good day/evening/night. Hope tomorrow brings at even one moment of clarity and stillness.

I wish I could get amnesia, disappear, and end up somewhere no one knows me.

Will I always be the unlucky one?

Will I always lose every game?

Will I always be the low roll?

Will I always be last?

Will I always be the one who doesn't get a second look?

Will I always be the one life decided to leave behind?

Will I only ever see everyone else succeed?

What did I do wrong to deserve a life like this?

Favorite thing to do with spammers who pop up in my chat: Try to have a regular conversation and see how long it takes for them to get pushy. So far, I only average about four exchanges before these fuckers start talking about sex.

How the dominoes fall

http://reason.com/blog/2014/12/01/chris-rock-stopped-performing-for-studen The last line, though interesting and relative to the article, whether by the author's volition or not, indicates a much more troubling fact: Americans are being taught from the earliest ages possible they should downright fear anything contrary to keeping the status quo of everyone is equal and everyone is the same; parents, teachers, religions, administrations forcing the next generation to avoid at all costs even hinting someone may not be exactly like themselves, even though another may be as akin as the Earth is to our sun. This is not merely developing the next generation(s) into overly-sensitive, wishy-washy, dull, cowering "pussies" (as the general term ascribed to such people); this grooming causes these generations to embrace an intellectual plateau no higher than the lowest-common-denominator, refuse competition in any form, expect handouts based on non-extant achievement, abhor anything that may cause their limited intellectual capacity to grow beyond what's been spoon-fed to them (via older generation, media, equally-misinformed peers, media, and media [Did I mention media?]), and absolutely, never, ever, do anything that may require more than a modicum of effort, especially when it may cause someone else stress. What this did to my generation and those following was allow the leeching older generations to maintain a foothold of their xenophobia, technophobia, and epistemophobia while ensuring they retained their comfortable lifestyles as bigots, profiteers, fear-mongers, corrupters, and saboteurs of human progress. This all for the sake of keeping their power until their otherwise parasitic lives end with them having more than everyone else because they made sure no one could upset their apple cart. Our generations (mine and following) were bred to be indecisive, afraid of change, and lost in order for older generations to perpetuate a near religious dominance over us. They are the shepherds, they know better than we do, they can lead us, they have the resources, they have the power, they know more than we ever can, and all we have to do is twist our rationale to convince ourselves we need them. We are being lied to. We've been lied to. We are not special. Of all the creatures on this planet now and that have ever been, why in the fuck would humans all be equal? This mentality has helped make our generations the most apathetic, stagnant, weak, and mindless to walk our countryside. WE are to blame for racism. WE are to blame for classism. WE are to blame rampant stupidity. WE are to blame for violent, arrogant, and ignorant interpretations of religious texts. WE are to blame for saying there's nothing we can do. WE are to blame for our country's downward spiral. We are not our parents. They didn't have what we do, and it's our job to learn to deal with that. Our grandparents and great-grandparents cursed us all by giving us wondrous contraptions that can shatter our planet. Our parents were all too happy to play off the fears of our ancestors in order to turn a quick buck, but since our parents don't want their children doing the same, they've perpetuated a system to make each generation after less like Men (not gender, actual species) and more like sheep. The fact I had to add that parenthetical addendum clarifying what I meant by "Men" is evidence enough our generation is all too eager to misunderstand, take offense, and argue mundane details amongst ourselves rather than look at the larger picture. Men are men. Women are women. Black people are black people. Yellow people are yellow people. Brown people are brown people. White people are white people. Grey people are grey people. Red people are red people. What turned these labels into slurs were not why they were used in the first place. The way our generations are receding, we'll have to stop calling planets "planets" or water "water" because someone might get offended that the planets or water might get offended. We won't have basic colors anymore because those might be racist or sexist somehow. Do you know what you people complaining about everything not catering to the least-common-denominator and faceless masses have done? You people, our generations, have caused more racism, more religious intolerance, more intellectual intolerance, more violence, less education, less cooperation, and greater poverty on a massive scale than any government administration in our country ever has. Your incessant complaints, lawsuits, and threats have backed our own Bill of Rights into a corner, and gave opportunists rule of law. WE are hanging ourselves. WE are letting our generation be the absolute worst. WE have let bias, greed, apathy, arrogance, and ignorance become our battle standards from under which we shout misinformation and hatred at each other. Are we truly this downright stupid? Are we so utterly blind? Our generations are an insult to our species. We've fed the trolls, and they did a great job making us hurt each other. It seems we enjoy getting duped.

It's not often I find something this coincidental. Loved ancient and medieval history for as long as I can remember, and I've especially liked the stories demonstrating women played a role just as important as men (whether martial, statecraft, etc). So, seeing photo sets of women actively participating in historical (authentic or creative [creative to a point; fantasy LARP crosses the line in my opinion]) reenacting is something pretty awesome. May also not be a surprise Brave is one of my favorite Pixar movies. What made this particular set stand out to me among many others was it's the first one I've seen crediting Patrick Thaden, whom I had the pleasure of meeting many years ago shortly before he moved to a bigger shop. I've since lost track of my contacts in the smithing fields, so it's incredibly awesome to see he's still working.

OMG THE WHOLE SET HAS SET MY SOUL AFLAME

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David Jetre

Shroud - Art Direction 

Custom armor for David Jetre’s debut film, the western thriller Shroud.

The armor, sword and shield (not shown) were handmade out of aluminum in order to afford Nicole a full range of movement. 

Actor: Nicole Leigh

Armor by Patrick Thaden & Ugo Serrano. Sword engraving by Holsapples Engravers, Inc. Courtesty Gayla Partridge Photography