Npd Culture Is Having To Constantly Remind Yourself That The Random People Around You Are People And

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NPD (+ bpd?) culture is loving the idea of being hated by someone only to get upset when it really happens because you're sensitive

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idk if it’s hpd/npd but i fixate on random people i think could be equals & imagine us being really close only to see them talk about someone else who’s not me and crash over it. how am i not the most important person in your life and center of your attention (we’ve never spoken)

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Reminder for people with Personality Disorders:

You can be in therapy for years to be able to cope.

You can mask the difficulties you have.

You can cope well with your disorders.

You can function in daily life.

But the day you have a bad day, the day you're so overwhelmed that the mask slips and you simply say one thing, the neurotypicals will use it against you and use it to abuse you.

Abuse is a choice. Abusers make the choice to abuse someone. Not every abuser has a personality disorder. There are plenty of abusers that are Neurotypical. Plenty of neurotypicals will abuse those with PDs due to the stigma and misinformation around them.

Quit using terms like "Narcissistic/Histrionic/Borderline/Anti-Social Abuse"

Quit using "Narcissist" and "Anti-Social" as insults.

Quit justifying abuse towards people with PDs.

Quit armchair diagnosing abusers and assholes with Personality Disorders when you don't know the lived experience of people with them.

Stop fucking appealing to Neurotypicals.

Part of my NPD is built on the "toughen up" unhealthy trauma coping mechanism - where the grandiosity is an attempt at convincing myself I'm over it and trauma hasn't affected me that much. I believe this contributes to the low empathy. Since I've basically told myself "suck it up" about severe childhood trauma, hearing someone else feeling distress about something elicit an automatic response of "Why are they so weak? I got over it, why can't they?"

(Disclaimer: The idea that I somehow "got over it" is in fact a fucking lie I tell myself and have repeatedly fallen for)

The thing about NPD is nothing is ever enough.

Yeah I’m intelligent but I’m not intelligent enough.

Yeah I’m beautiful but I’m not beautiful enough.

Yeah I’m important to them but I’m not important enough.

There’s a chronic feeling of emptiness because I think so highly of myself but I was never enough for my abuser and now I will never be enough for myself.

this is some things i have to deal with, and i’m guessing i’m not the only one, so:

- even when you feel like a bad person, you’re probably not.

- putting yourself first is not selfish.

- having lower empathy doesn’t make you bad.

- not noticing when you hurt people until they tell you isn’t your fault, what matters is your actions after you’ve been told.

- not recognising yourself during episodes/crashes is normal, and even though it might be scary it’s okay.

- anger is a good emotion, it’s there for a reason. once again, your actions while angry are what matters.

- self-isolation can be good sometimes, mostly to avoid conflict or to avoid ruining relationships (for me).

- you deserve people in your life that understand you.

AND STOP USING PEOPLE'S MENTAL DISORDERS TO CALL THEM ABUSIVE.