Azriel After The Mating Bond Finally Snaps Into Place:

I hope someday someone is as big a fan of me, as I try to be to the people I care about.

Answering this ask because my clumsy ass deleted the draft of the ans as well as the ask idek how that happened

HERE'S THE COMMENTARY ON ACOFAS CHAPTER 11: THE ONE WHERE RHYISE VISITS A SUICIDAL TAMLIN AND TELLS HIM TO ROT IN HELL 🥰

A tomb.

This place was a tomb.

How can someone be proud of doing something cruel to someone? If they are the saints they claim to be why do this to Tamlin bro? Istg i will NEVER to this understand how on earth did the editors agree to the plotline of the destruction of Spring Court?

Lucien had not come here to make amends during Solstice, I realized as Tamlin opened the door to the dark library.

Lucien had come here out of pity. Mercy.

Bruh why? why? wud he underestimate their bond like that? he speaks as if they hadnt been each others only family for centuries

Tamlin claiming an ornate cushioned chair on one side of it. The only thing he had that was close to a throne these days.

oh fck u little shit atleast tamlin doesnt OPPRESS his people!!

“If you’ve come to gloat, you can spare yourself the effort.”

Tamlin is so non-combative here and people still have the audacity to say Rhysie is the bigger male????

“Do you see any sentries around to do it?”

Even they had abandoned him. Interesting. “Feyre did her work

thoroughly, didn’t she.”

THATS NOT SOMETHING TO BE FUCKING PROUD OF RHYSIE

ISTG this asshole someone needs to kick him in the balls. HARD.

I smiled. “Oh, no. That was all her. Clever, isn’t she.”

No sir she is a dumb teenage girl who taught to destroy a court DURING WARTIME?

tbh if Spring wouldn't have fallen the war would have never gone down i said what i said.

I didn’t smile as I countered with, “I suppose you think I should be

thanking you, for stepping up to assist in reviving me.”

“I have no illusions that the day you thank me for anything, Rhysand, is the day the burning fires of hell go cold.”

my boi tamlin is so savage like??

SLAY

Tamlin deserved what he’d brought upon himself, this husk of a life.

He deserved every empty room, every snarl of thorns, every meal he had to hunt for himself.

Seriously? Tamlin, sweetheart, for the love of good kick this man and his bat dick pls.

Tamlin had burned them long ago, Feyre had told me. It made no

difference. He’d been there that day.

I really want to emphasize that Tamlin DID NOT take part in their death.

Had given his father and brothers the information on where my sister and mother would be waiting for me to meet them. And done nothing to help them as they were butchered.

BRO????

U expect a boy to go against his evil, physically abusive father? NO, strike that.

U WANT A BOY TO GO AGAINT A HIGH LORD?

No tell me? how was Tamlin supposed to fight a HIGH LORD and his brother??? Three against one??

And even if he tried to help them? we will never know? we get only rhysie's side of the story never tamlin's pov

“You brought every bit of this upon yourself,”

Yes yes lets go tell a suicidal person he brought every bit of his misery on himself

Yeh lets all applaud him

“You won,” he spat, sitting forward. “You got your mate. Is that not

enough?”

"No."

WHAT THE ACTUAL FUCK???

MANNNNNNNNNNNNNN

I WANT TO SCRATCH MY EYEBALLS RHYSIE'S EYEBALLS OUT AT THIS POINT

"You deserve everything that has befallen you. You deserve this pathetic, empty house, your ravaged lands. I don’t care if you offered that kernel of life to save me, I don’t care if you still love my mate. I don’t care that you saved her from Hybern, or a thousand enemies before that.”

THIS UNGRATEFUL LITTLE BITCH?!?!?!?!?

PLSSSSSSSSS

Why doesnt he care that tamlin has saved BOTH their lives on MULTIPLE occasions???

at this point 50% of the IC owe their life to tamlin

“I hope you live the rest of your miserable life alone here. It’s a far more satisfying end than slaughtering you.”

well he isnt even strong enough to keep his people in line and not a hair's breath away from rebellion, i doubt he'll be able to slaughter the HL who tore apart Amarantha, who fought a hundred of Hybern's monsters and soldiers in their camp ALONE, at the same time helping feyre escape AND was able to "drag" another highlord to war

*Drops mike*

But Tamlin only stared. And after a heartbeat, his eyes lowered to the

desk. “Get out.”

Ladies and Gentlemen, may I present to you the bigger male

Tamlin didn’t have shields around the house. None to prevent anyone from winnowing in, to guard against enemies appearing in his bedroom and

slitting his throat.

It was almost as if he was waiting for someone to do it.

This breaks my heart so much. No, Tamlimn doesnt deserve this. NO ONE deserves this. Imagine being OKAY with someone being suicidal?!

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random things i hear pt 6

guy 1 (after learning what ovaries are): wait... shouldn’t girls be more careful about moving too much? what if they break the eggs in their ovaries??

biology teacher, who has just about had enough of (t)his bullshit: I- you- NO, BROCK, THAT’S NOT HOW HUMAN EGGS WORK

and then to argue, after alllllll of the moments we see cassian exert power of nesta THAT NESTA is the abusive one in that dynamic?????? where? so -- nesta -- the woman who (1) repeatedly asked for cassian to leave her alone (2) who kneed him in the balls bc he was trying to lick her neck (3) who followed her home when she asked him NOT too, (4) was locked in a house and had everything down to the food she ate and the clothes she wore picked out by HIM. (5) was attracted to that beast of a man bc of a mating bond that HE ALREADY KNEW ABOUT and was then locked in a house with this man with those emotions she cannot control

THAT IS THE ABUSIVE ONE???

the woman who literally tried for months to get away from this man, going so far as to live across town and cut contact with him.

but somehow she's being abusive when she's told multiple times she not interested in him, in the fae world???? insanity.

like if u want to make those arguments abt feyre and her sisters having a bad relationship. go ahead, thats your place

but to argue this abt nesta and cassian, to even imply NESTA as the aggressor is crazy and i think yall are losing it here.

I was reading some Wolffe posts and I was thinking about my own version of Wolffe in my Multiverse.

Wolffe seems so calm most of the time, but also seems to have no chill where it concerns like, speaking his mind. Plo obviously encourages him to have his own personality, thoughts and feelings and validates his opinions.

By contrast, Cody and Rex are so much more reserved– but what really gets me is Cody is less reserved with Obi-Wan than Rex is with Anakin. It’s so weird, cause you’d assume ‘super attachment maker’ Anakin Skywalker would get so close to Rex that eventually they’d become loose around each other.

Cody will jokingly call Obi-Wan ‘boss’ and crack jokes with him in the movie and even talk candidly with him in the show. Maybe not quite to the extent that Wolffe will with Plo or his brothers– but Cody is loose and relaxed.

And I don’t think it’s just his personality. I think Obi-Wan tries to encourage his men and their individuality, but like. Massively fails.

I can only think to compare it to how my mother was in one aspect of life. She’d insist that we could talk to her about anything, but then when I tried, she’d get mad and shout at me. In Obi-Wans’ case, it would’ve been more like…

‘I want you to know that I respect your personhood, but also I’m your general and you should obey me unequivocally or you and your brothers all might end up dead out there on the battlefield, so I’m going to be genial but keep my distance’ kind of thing which has the side effect of making the men slightly more relaxed because they know where the lines are and they can work around them– but they don’t feel truly safe with Obi-wan the way Wolffe and the Wolfpack feel with Plo Koon.

Which led me to thinking about Anakins’ lines. Fives is very outspoken and opinionated, and Jesse can be if the situation calls for it.

But when they’re around Anakin, they barely joke at all. And the one time I can remember them joking with Anakin, it was about the size of his binoculars? It was a juvenile joke and Anakin seems to indulge it, but then why do they all still seem so separated from him?

I realized it’s just Fives who is that comfortable, because he refuses not to be comfortable. He makes himself comfortable, but the rest of them are not.

I’m sorry this has turned into a long character rant.

It just makes me think about them all and how their behaviors are so different from each other. Even Captain Keeli whom we see only for a short time, somehow seems more at home with his General than Rex does.

Rex is always stiff and formal with Anakin. Even discounting the whole ‘not calling him Anakin’ thing which doesn’t even really matter– it’s in the body movements and the way they talk to each other.

A lot of this is just headcanon based upon what I remember, but.

Anakin is down-to-earth, but only from a distance. He’s so detached from everything and everyone because wartime forces one not to get attached lest you lose them and get hurt. And the only people he allows himself to get attached to, are people with higher survival odds and Padme.

Obi-Wan and Ahsoka are his only two attachments outside of Padme and the Chancellor.

And I was thinking about this the other day but the only real attachment that Anakin had, was Ahsoka. Because all the rest, were obsessions.

The obsession with the idea of being in love and having someone love him. The obsession with being a good son/younger brother so that his father/older brother would acknowledge him. The Obsession with feeling special and powerful like he really mattered– which is what the Chancellor gave him.

But Ahsoka is the only one he truly loved and was simply attached to. He didn’t really get anything from Ahsoka. Sure she was a lot like him and he could relate to her, but that’s basically it. She wasn’t even like a familial surrogate or anything though you could say he viewed her like a sister.

I’d say that Ahsokas’ loss would’ve rocked Anakin more than anyone elses’. The fact that it’s Padmes’ death that sends him into despair is just weird to me when. Well you all know how I feel about Pedophile Padme marrying a teenager when she’s a full grown ass woman. But also aside from that…

Padme and Anakin only have one thing in common. The struggles they went through together. Nothing else. Even their love languages are so mismatched that Anakin ends up feeling desperate for her affection because she doesn’t show it in a way that makes him feel loved.

(Specifically citing that episode where he gives her his lightsaber to ‘prove’ his love and try to get her to prove hers back.)

But Anakin and Ahsoka have a true bond forged not only through similarities between them, but also the events they have gone through together and their reluctance to give up their attachments. They are basically mirrors of each other, though they’re more alike than they are opposite when they first meet.

Their bond grows through mutual affection.

Contrast that with Anakins’ relationship with Padme or Obi-Wan and you can clearly see that while he is desperate for Padmes’ love and Obi-Wans’ approval, he is just happy with Ahsoka.

When she left the order, I think it broke him.

But getting back to my point.

Anakin views his men as ‘people that die too easily, I’ll just lose them’ so while he might be very permissive and treat his men affectionately, it’s like…you can feel that he doesn’t really mean it.

That while he might smile at you and crack witty one-liners, but he’ll flip through a casualty report without a single flinch. Because those men were assumed casualties by him already.

Wolffe is comfortable because Plo Koon genuinely cares for his men and is attached, healthily, to them.

Cody is semi-comfortable because while Obi-Wan might have boundaries around his affection and kindness, at least that means that he knows where he stands.

And Rex is stiff with Anakin because Anakin pretends to be close to them and to care for them, but he’s really just acting out the behavior with none of the feelings behind it. It makes you uneasy. You know your creativity will be rewarded on the battlefield, but would he be okay if you called him brother and clapped him on the shoulder?

They don’t know, and that’s what makes them so stiff.

Or so I think? Not sure, I’ll have to think about it a lot more.