I feel like there's no point to anything. The only thing I do everyday, the entire day, is stay on my phone or my laptop or sleep or eat, nothing else. I feel so drained and demotivated and just so empty.
What happened with Achan how it led to self harm.
Me feeling like I don't belong anywhere, nowhere feels tight cause conflicts in both places and passively wanna die.
Me being here doesn't make any difference to anybody, life will continue as usual, I'm not important.
I'm collecting mental illnesses like people collect Pokémon 🤡
I feel lonely.
Like chasm in the chest lonely.
SOML :-
get drunk to feel stuff ➡ feel understimulayed when no company ➡ experience a low ➡ breakdown
Scenario 2
get drunk to feel stuff ➡ company equals happy happy kiddo ➡ company goes away, chronic boredom ➡ impulsive stuff is done ➡ feel nothing the next day cuz no emotions
I feel so lonely :)
when you remember that Niall wrote multiple songs about girls who like to have one night stands, who didn't want to commit or want labels, without victimising himself or slut shaming them, instead promising them unconditional acceptance, respect and non judgement, and you fall more in love with him than you already have 😌
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