God I Really Thought You People Were Lying About Laios And Kabru Just For The Sake Of Pretending Like

I'm exhausted, take them from me

this is also why i’m largely uncomfortable with the f&briz ship bc it’s like…so diminishing for me. riz’s struggles, his story, come so largely from him not having a romantic connection— it’s that fear of ‘my friends CAN and WANT and are COMFORTABLE with and in romantic relationships. i don’t. this is what sets us apart. they can’t understand me the way they all understand each other, that the world at large understands them and wants everyone to be like. our platonic connection won’t win out over their romantic ones’ and so putting him in one to me always feels so. cheap.

there’s something so much more impactful for me as someone who has tried but can’t handle romantic relationships and has the same fears as him getting to watch riz, against all the odds and amatonormativity, having just as meaningful platonic relationships without ever being in a romantic one

there’s just something so intense abt being aroace and not knowing how to rant or talk abt it properly bc ur still coming to terms with it and what it’s like for you and what’s tied to it and what isn’t and then seeing riz be the physical manifestation of all the anxieties and concerns ive felt or am currently grappling with bc im aro and knowing i can’t rant abt it to my friends bc of what those struggles stand as and are and how a lot of it isn’t anxiety but just a truth i cant deny or run from so i js get to occasionally live vicariously through him instead once every week

Ace Trappola edits!!

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and if i said the basically confirmed upcoming arc of riz losing the idea that his friends will be his friends forever CONFIRMS that baron is coming back at some point this season with how baron is Literally a manifestation of riz's fears of abandonment and being left behind, made worse by how he loves his friends so much and can't see a future without them but they likely just don't feel the same. And, relating to that, if i said aroace riz Will become explicitly canon this season. because the. the. The . The Years Will Go By And Everyone Will Find Someone That Matters More To Them Than You [I AM FORCIBLY DRAGGED OFF STAGE]

I went a little wild sketching Floyd last week lmao

need to make thousands of dollars so that when they auction off these minis i can win cunty gilear

there’s just something so intense abt being aroace and not knowing how to rant or talk abt it properly bc ur still coming to terms with it and what it’s like for you and what’s tied to it and what isn’t and then seeing riz be the physical manifestation of all the anxieties and concerns ive felt or am currently grappling with bc im aro and knowing i can’t rant abt it to my friends bc of what those struggles stand as and are and how a lot of it isn’t anxiety but just a truth i cant deny or run from so i js get to occasionally live vicariously through him instead once every week

how did i do this

okay i knew it was coming but its kind of killing me how obtuse people are being towards toshiro (im not fucking calling him shuro and honestly yall should stop with that too). should he have told laios how he really felt about him, sure, yeah, but im going to go off on a limb here and suggest maybe! maybe! he's been raised in an environment where it's actually like legitimately unheard of and taboo to be very open and straight forward about his feelings. the entire party has been calling him by a name that literally isnt even his own because he is so used to quashing down his own reactions to others. like i think other poc diaspora dunmeshi fans might agree with me here but he just reads like someone whos not bothered enough to correct every microaggression thrown his way. because that shit is exhausting. and after like five hours of laios bugging him about stories of his homeland why would he have a good opinion of him. genuinely. im not saying laios is entirely at fault but neither is toshiro. i love laios too but it is Very Weird that toshiro gets the brunt of their friendship's falling out (ill circle back to this)

also to preface this i am a farcille shipper so im. not pushing for falin/toshiro. but people acting like his affection for falin is somehow not relevant or he has no devotion to falin at all is CRAZY. immediately after being teleported out he threw himself back into that dungeon and didnt eat or sleep properly to rescue her. we literally watch him collapse from it. after multiple episodes emphasizing the importance of nutrition and caring for yourself and your take away from a man willing to toss that away is that he just. doesn't care for falin? why is he in the dungeon then? answer. quickly. granted he's not as onboard with the whole black magic thing but his concerns are literally valid and before we see falin chimera he seems to have been talked down from reporting them all for it. its the proof of his concerns of the use of black magic that he decides to go up and report them at all. his bond with falin isn't nearly as strong as marcille's bond but its also not nothing. ignoring that or minimising his own sacrifices is such a nasty bad faith disservice to his character.

speaking of bonds. toshiro doesn't hate laios. guys. his last act this episode was to give laios and the rest of the party (yes, even black magic user marcille) a way out of the hole that they'd already dug for themselves. fleeing to the east and leaving falin to the elves isnt the best case scenario but it is one that lets the majority of the party survive whatever's coming. its the realistic play. is this the act of a man who hates his former colleagues? is he wishing harm and further misfortune on them? his actions speak for themselves. you guys are being way too hard on toshiro and its really fucking telling. this goes for white viewers especially

The Story of One Night (L→R comic)

Its been 738272827 years but im finally posting something again🎉

This basically started from me wanting to draw out a scenario where someone finds Malleus being the one sleeping for once but couldn't decided if I wanted Malleyuu or the brothers for it so I decided to go best of both worlds🔥

Also wanted to make something that actually showed some other parts of Micah's character since I kept most of it to myself this whole time😭 Tho it was kinda hard to cram like 3 years of chara development into 8 pages only so yeah sorryy for the months long wait again💃