I’m Constantly Torn Between “if It’s Meant To Be, It Will Be” And “if You Want It, Go And Get

what better time to finally post my shizaya fic than @shizayasweek :D

Day 5 - Scars

summary: Five years have passed since their big fight, and Shizuo thought Izaya had disappeared for good. But when Izaya returns and says,

“I love you.”

how can Shizuo possibly believe him?

Rating: E

the prologue + chapter 1 are now up. i will update weekly (9 more chapters) and the whole fic will be about 50k words long

gods, i hope i terrify you.

the witch doesn't burn in this one, amanda lovelace, 2018

Must reads:

i’d like the sun to set with you by @chuuyasoup (T, 8.8k)

What changes is this:

Geto Suguru does not say, how arrogant. He does not say, kill me if you want, there’s meaning in that too. He does not look at Gojo Satoru with unfamiliar indifference and he does not assume that he won’t understand.

Or, Suguru extends an offer on that day in Shinjuku. Satoru accepts it.

愛のある場所; river of light (that brings me to you) by cosmichorrour (T, 66k)

A lesson in love is a lesson in swimming. Except for Suguru, it's getting dropped into the deep end with the tide licking at his neck, no kickboard or life preserver keeping him afloat.

(Or: This is how Satoru finds the ocean.)

Caesura by cielelyse (M, 85.5k)

The first time they meet, Suguru and Satoru do not like each other. Arrogant, cocky, insufferable, they think. Despite the smirks Shoko gives Suguru, or the sighs Yaga gives Satoru, they do not like each other.

Until a mission changes that.

paper cuts by HamsterQinghua (T, 36k)

“Hey,” he starts. “I think we got off on the wrong foot.” Understatement of the century. “My name’s Suguru Geto, what’s yours?” It’s a question asked purely for formalities, and he’s sure Gojo knows that, but he’s still unprepared for the other’s answer.

“Your mom,” Gojo drawls out, and Suguru realizes he’s starting to see why people want this kid dead.

or, Suguru is a contract killer. his final target is Satoru Gojo. this isn't a problem until it is.

The Traveller's Song by No_Ir (E, 23k)

When it comes, the death of summer is vapid and quiet. It tastes like stale water and smells like memories gone bad in the heat. Nothing mourns it and the air is speckled with bits of seawater that cling to the dampness on the back of his neck.

Crickets chirp throughout the night and the bed is too warm to sleep in, so he buries his face into pillows that smell like dust and salt and ignores the stabbing behind his eyes till he can feel the irritating warmth of another day on his back.

I miss the sea, he thinks, staring at the familiar outline of the window, palm resting on the friend-shaped dent on his bed. Exhaustion drapes itself over his shoulders and sweat beads like pearls at the roots of his hair.

I miss the sea like I miss my friend

Punishment For A Monster by @duckiemimi (T, 8.1k)

“Yeah! Oh, my name is Gojo Satoru, by the way.” He hides the hurt behind his teeth, his grin wide and friendly. He thought he’d only have to introduce himself once to someone he called his best friend. It’s strange to repeat words from more than a decade ago to the same person. “You can call me Satoru.” He hopes he calls him Satoru.

“I’m Geto,” he says back. You were Suguru to me, Gojo thinks. “Nice to meet you, Satoru.”

“Nice to meet you, too.” He leans against the wall beside him, tries to look nonchalant as he does. “So, do you come here often?”

Geto thinks Gojo is just a lonely guy who wants friends. Gojo just wants to know if he remembers him, even just a little bit.

bang bang, kiss kiss by bunkuto (E, 12.7k)

Suguru brings men home and Satoru wonders if, judging by the pangs in his chest and the sudden overwhelming urge to punt these hookups into the sun, he’s homophobic. They figure things out slowly.

Puppet On A String by @killjoyproductions (E, 6.8k)

Huh,” he muses. “Are you… saving yourself for marriage?”

“Nope.”

“Are you asexual?”

Satoru shakes his head. “I’m not asexual, just a virgin.”

Golden hour by damiselart (E, 38.6k)

the one in which Satoru doesn't run away at sunrise and has an existential crisis over morning sex.

love is all I ever yearned for; not this affection carved in stone by getoswrongs (juyang) (T, 15k)

“You’re a menace,” Suguru mutters.

“You do this all the time? Making clay dicks before you turn them into bowls and vases? And it took some loser dude you met at age 27 for you to realize you like dick?”

--

Suguru is a potter and Satoru is in love.

smile like brass by @chuuyasoup (T, 15k)

Upon arriving at the scene, it’s hard to say whether turning up just five minutes earlier would have made much of a difference.

As it stands, there is a lot of blood. Too much blood to be explained away, and too many strong residuals to be traced back to anyone other than Satoru.

Or, Suguru arrives at the Time Vessel Association hideout a little too late. This changes things.

@roach-works // Melissa Broder, "Problem Area" // Mary Oliver, "The Return" // @annavonsyfert // Koyoharu Gotouge, Demon Slayer // Haruki Murakami, Dance Dance Dance // David Levithan, How They Met and Other Stories // Tennessee Williams, Notebooks

Happy Holidays, everyone! Thank you all for sharing and supporting this series this year, I love Tumblr, been posting on here for years, and you guys are all amazing! Got SO MUCH cool stuff coming up for you in 2019! Huge cheers! Lorenzo!

Albert Camus, from The Myth of Sisyphus

I've started hitting the gym again

Fanfic Masterlist

One shot fanfics

*oldest first*

MC is nervous to leave her and Zens kids with 707 and Unknown short fic

Vanderwood react to MC who is a musical actress in the musical heathers she is veronica and zen is j.d    small extra

MC throws a party and invites RFA+ minor trio and her friends

Zen and MC having their first fight short fic

You have a stalker Zen only headcanon

RFA+Saeran reacting to smol MC pretending she’s going to whisper something to them but kisses them on the cheek

Alptraum Labyrinth  fanfic with Zen

V wants to take pictures of you but you think that you are ugly

MC×Jumin go on a vacation to some random country but lose each other

Zen struggles with his new role

Rapunzel AU fic, with MC as Rapunzel

MC x Jumin fanfic the reader is rich and Jumin has no idea

Zen helps you over a bad day with cuddles

MC x Jumin au /fanfic they first meet at the party and that MC’s hidden talent is her beautiful singing

Zen reacting to MC who is training to become a secondary school teacher *HC

Zen x MC with their daughter  

ZenxMC hen night/Bachelorette Party

707xMC hen night/ Bachelorette Party

a fight between Vanderwood and Zen *don´t worry it’s not that bad*

Group vacation with the RFA

MCxJumin Jumins birthday party

Zen x MC playing just dance 2016-the one that I want  - mc is playing dirty to win

RFA + Minor trio going on a week-long ski trip for Christmas

RFA + V decide to go camping for a week in the summer

RFA goes on a beach vacation and Jumin sees MC for the first time in a Bikini

Zen reacts to a MC who really hates mornings

Fallen Angel ft. Zen  angst + trigger warning for a possible suicide

Jumin tires to confess to you part 1 I  part 2 done

Zen comes late at night home

Colorblind ft. V/Jihyun Kim

Soulkey ft 707/ Saeyoung plus bonus fanart

The RFA dealing with a loopy MC after a trip to the dentist

Zen x Reader have a drinking competition

Zen x Reader - Zen is still in the gang

Once it’s over ft Jumin

Zen meets your parents, but they recognize him from his gang days

Reader insert - MC is an undercover cop investigating RFA & Mint Eye

Ray mini fic, MC forgot their important plushy in their apartment

Blue eyes Investigations ft.Jumin

707/Saeyoung with an MC/SO breaking down whenever someone yells

Blackout ft. Jumin * there is biting in this fic*

Zen x reader  it´s  Halloween MC decides to wear some of Zen’s clothes and their is a dance off

Jumin x reader A perfect Christmas

Zenx Reader A simple Christmas dream

Mysterious messages ft 707

Saeyoung getting sick right before one of the RFA meetings *MCXSaeyoung including Saeran and Vanderwood*

1000 Miles apart Zenx Reader/MC

A Distant Dream ft 707x Reader

Multi-chapter Stories 

*newest first*

Dream chasers

part 2  I  part 3    done

Saving grace

Altering the Stars  Jumin x Reader  part 2  done

Cracked Dream Yoosung x Reader

part 1 I  part 2  I part 3  done

The ghost in the Hospital ft, the RFA  I  part 2  I part 3  done

Nights of desire ft. 707xReader I Zen x Reader  I part 2 I part 3 I part 4

The place you belong to ft Jumin x Reader I  part 2   I  part 3   done

Bittersweet Memories  ft ZenxfemReader I part 2 I  part 3

How to save a Princess MCXZen -trigger warning  I  part 2  I part 3 I  part 4    part 5   done

Cinderella on the Moon Mystic Messenger fairytale

part 2   part 3   part 4   part 5  part 6  part 7  part 8  part 9  part 10   part 11 part 12  part 13  part 14  part 15

Other things

that not fit anywhere else

Zen gives you a massage

small fanfic Jumin reacting to MC with a Marilyn Monroe type mole on her upper lip

How you get your Jumin Han to become your butler

Zen – vs the evil fluffy Rabbit of doom aka Usagichan !

Zen´s reaction to a very attractive MC who likes to wear tight clothes *HC

707 reacting to Mc’s sketchbook full of doodles of him

Zen x reader and they celebrate Halloween together pumpkin carving/domestic fluff *Hc

Zen coming home to see mc dancing, listening and lip-singing to - Sexy back

RFA all rehearsing one of Zen’s plays together *it ends in shenanigans

You build a blanket fort for Saeyoung

MC that crave for Zen’s attention

"Didn't anyone ever tell you it's not a hero's job to be happy?"

and yet the world is silent…