Self Care Is Over, We’re Doing Drugs Again

How to catch me

i am living the

best daydream and

worst nightmare

at the same time.

It's probably my fault.

Mine.

I assumed that I had that right on you.

On us.

C'mon. Get Up.

Whenever you are down and you feel like waving the white flag When the tears are heavy and leave divots in the sand beneath you When you feel as if you are truly alone

I believe in you.

When everything reminds you of her her face and presence are in every brick of this city When you feel crushed By the weight of the black and starless sky When there's nothing left to describe

I believe in you

When the panic bites hard and you can't breathe so certain you'll die When the lake is calling and you might just walk to right in When every option is the worst option

I believe in you

When all you can do is scream And push everything far away When the distractions finally stop doing what they were made for When you cry whenever your in the rain

I believe in you

When you feel that you have no place to go and things just seem to be piling upon you When depression goes untreated and the thoughts come and tell you to jump When you survive today and hope for tomorrow

I believe in you I believe in you

how inhuman of me,

to break my heart

and bones

again and again, through the night

all by myself.

my oasis ˚ʚ♡ɞ˚

Can't we just stop time for a little while? The stars have decided our fate I know because I’ve wasted years in denial But I hope mercy will keep you here with me

One moment I hold you in a tight embrace, The next you crumble to sand in my arms And I'm lost again Calling out for you and  Looking for your grains of sand In an endless desert

"It was just a dream" I whisper to myself, alone in the dark But in truth, I know you'll never be back. Not in this world,  And not even in the world of dreams

finally i had put my walls up,

after it was shattered by millions

And there you go again,

breaking them like it was nothing,

and leaving me in pieces,

again.

It's been days

weeks or months?

I don't know..

I have been drowning in blood, breathing in the ashes,

as I am left. alone.

In the silence, in the nightmare.

Why wouldn't it end ?

Why wouldn't it all end?

Can I just sleep ?

forever?

I........am so tired.

please. help me out.

Either you pull me up or you push me down.. Don't leave me like this..

hanging by a thread.

It's time.

It's time to end it all.

And i am gonna survive it all.