You Keep Burning Me.

My thoughts,

they terrify me.

Everyday,

I wake up to another nightmare

too wild but definitely real,

unable to stand up and fight

unable to be the knight in armor

unable to work hard for my dreams

unable to love, to fight.

I wish to be reborn.

right into the arms of a monster.

A monster who will tame my wildness. to an extend.

~k

Am i not family, mom ?

Why do i always feel like i am an outsider in my own home ?

Why do you assume i dont need that love ?

Why do you assume i dont need to be protected ?

Why do you insist on making me stronger ?

It hurts to watch.

To watch my family from afar.

that was my trait.

I never broke a promise.

But now

all I ever do is

break my own promises.

Why mother?

why did you tear me apart

when you should have kept me together ?

when you should have held me a bit closer ?

Why father ?

why did you pull me down

and drowned me in my tears

when you should have been my ladder ?

when you should have kept me warm under your wings ?

Why sister ?

why did you spat venom and killed me inside

when you should have been my pillar ?

when you should have hugged me tighter ?

my oasis ˚ʚ♡ɞ˚

Can't we just stop time for a little while? The stars have decided our fate I know because I’ve wasted years in denial But I hope mercy will keep you here with me

One moment I hold you in a tight embrace, The next you crumble to sand in my arms And I'm lost again Calling out for you and  Looking for your grains of sand In an endless desert

"It was just a dream" I whisper to myself, alone in the dark But in truth, I know you'll never be back. Not in this world,  And not even in the world of dreams

How can I survive ?

She shot me to death.

She.did.it.

so damn true.

Warner: Look at me straight in the eyes and tell me the truth, Kishimoto. Kenji: You can’t expect me to look into your eyes and be straight.

do i wanna add a tag?

NO BITCH

I DON'T

— Henry Dumas, Knees of a Natural Man: The Selected Poetry of Henry Dumas; "Saba"