No, Because Why Does Toga Suit Cat More?? Like Ochako Is Poor, Just Like Vi While Cat And Toga Both Came

wish they could've grown up together they would've been besties (lie)

can i change the world?

The fact I’m a child concerns me. I'm fifteen as of now. I'm impulsive and make stupid decisions with those impulses. My voice sometimes increases to the point where my throat hurts with how high-pitched I'm talking and other times it's so monotone my head starts to hurt. I'm still figuring out life while others are far beyond me with knowledge. I think I know better and the world somewhat revolves around me and, as I'm writing this, it proves I still think that. The point I'm trying to make is I can't change the world. 

I could be like Gretta Thunberg who's changing the world one speech at a time. But the problem is I'm not. Unlike her, I still feel like a child. A kid whos worried about what I'm going to wear tomorrow and spends an ungodly amount of time on her phone. I'm a Gen Z kid who relates too much with others yet not at all. A baby who hopes to be better. Better at being a kid or adult or better at just everything.

I can't make life-changing art even if I wanted to, having the power to move someone through paint or word seems too daunting. When I grow older I wish to have a stable job and even more stable relationships. And I get that will be weird to some that I don't want to be rich and famous, like many others, but the pressure of that lifestyle is not something I want to bear. I dont want to stand out, and if I can't stand out, how will I change the world? The simple fact is I won't. Won't even dent it. Not a scratch. I'm okay with this as a child you have to be. 

Knowing whatever you do now whether great or small will always be clouded with the knowledge you're a kid from others. Because I'm ‘good at that for a kid’ and ‘you'll be better when you're an adult. 

I won't make art that will change generations’ mindset and I can't fight wars or be a part of something big because I'm a child…

I feel like I'm making excuses. 

Could I change the world? 

Or fight wars?

Or sow that dress I want to?

Am I making excuses?

I won't ever know because ill lay in bed on my phone watching adults do just that.

Oh, how a gay demi-girl can dream of such a wonder. -credits to whoever this is on Pinterest-

Bully:

seek to harm, intimidate, or coerce (someone perceived as vulnerable). What really Is the definition of a bully? 

I've been taught different things throughout the years about 'bullying'. 

I've been told to stay away from them. I've been told it's only bullying if it happens more than one or twice. I've been told that they only hurt others because they are hurting. 

I understand the sentiment, but I feel like it's wrong.

The term 'bully' is used so often that I don't care anymore about who is a so-called bully and who is the victim.

I had a form to fill out about bullying today, provided by the school. 

They asked about my experience with bullying and how safe I felt in school and so on. 

Somewhere deep inside I know the school staff can't do much to help the kids that need it because of multiple reasons. Either way somewhere inside me I wish they would do something. 

Even if I dont know, because as far as I'm concerned I've never been bullied. Or have I? Do people look at me in pity? Or talk behind my back? And I purposely ignored but I've become so used to it that it's second nature to accept it.

WOOOO

babeee ill let u spin me around

Hawks: Yeah, a partner sounds nice, but a supreme enemy you can make out with in secret sometimes sounds a lot more hardcore.

Or, alternatively

Ochaco: Yeah, a partner sounds nice, but a supreme enemy you can make out with in secret sometimes sounds a lot more hardcore.

didnt even realize how hard those swirly things were to draw until i tried…. horis insane

Would like to put this out here

Nothing:

Do you sometimes want to stop fidgeting, moving, tastings, seeing, hearing, breathing... You just want everything to stop.

But you've never wanted to die. 

As they say 'suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem... But what if it's not temporary? what if it never ends? What if this craving for this sinful feeling never stops?

You know it's just your anxiety talking. It always talks. It hurts and talks. It takes and talks. It is just there and talks... But sometimes that's enough to push you off the edge. To make you want to feel Nothing. 

After years of torment and abuse from no one but yourself, you learn to live with it. Embrace the feelings of guilt that you've caused from thinking you could've made it through life unharmed. 

You would reminisce about the childhood you wish wasn't stolen through fake judgement and antagonising words. You would remember the days when you would lie underneath the stars and bask in their embrace. You would miss the dreams that you painstakingly woke up from to go to school where you were scared of being judged for nothing. 

Maybe some of the most difficult things were the 'it's all in your head' and the 'try not to think about it that roamed my head in search of any excuse, trying to sneak past the protective barriers I made to devour it.

The point is it will never change. The feeling of nothingness never changes it. You can change your sleeping, exercise and eating habits all you like, the heartache of craving something you can't reach will never stop.

Now this is canon DabiHawks 🔥

(Posting some stuff I made not long ago)