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this might be bad but i dont really feel hungry anymore its more just my brain wanting food, like its not really a physical sensation

4n4 April challenge!

Let’s do this challenge so we look UNRECOGNIZABLE by the end!

April 1 - 1000 cals

April 2 - water fast

April 3 - 500 calorie

April 4 - fruit mino

April 5 - 600 cals

April 6 - Omad

April 7th - metabolism day (for those who need it, I usually don’t do it) if you’re not doing it like me then limit is 800 cals

April 8th - water fast

April 9 - 2 meals (should be under 700 cals)

April 10 - 300 calories

April 11 - 200 calories

April 12 - 100 calorie

April 13 - 700 cals

April 14 - 300 cals

April 15 - Diet Coke mono

April 16 - tea/coffee mino

April 17 - water fast

April 18 - omad (solid food finally lol)

April 19 - 1000 cals

April 20 - 100 cals

April 21 - omad

April 22 - 500 cals

April 23 - fruit mono

April 24 - 700 cals

April 25 - 1200 cals

April 26 - 800 cals

April 27 - 400 cals

April 28 - 300 cals

April 29 - 100 cals

April 30 - liquid fast

I just said hello to one of my previous school teachers, when I saw him outside.

He didn’t recognize me and looked at me like I was bat shit crazy 😭

I just had to tell him that I know him from my school and not trying to flirt and shit

I was humiliated. Just kill me dude😫

I’m so fucking embarrassing! I fucking forgot to zip up my fucking pants. Had to zip it in the fucking station 🤦🏻‍♀️

ChatGPT tells me if I eat 500Kcal per day, I will be 45kg in four to five weeks!!! If only I could control my big back energy ^^

So real. I ate 800 calories and I want to shrink myself, hide myself inside the walls.

“its still a deficit” “its still a deficit” “its still a deficit” “its still a deficit” “its still a deficit”

I mutter to myself like a crazy person as I rock back and forth in a curled little ball.

guys take me out im gunna loose it

I don’t have a problem with people seeing my posts and I highly encourage them unfollow and block my account if one : they are getting harmed by seeing them and two : if they interpret it the wrong way ( the way it had not been intended). I was only calling myself dumb and I don’t even know you nor have I seen your scars to even want to judge you for them and since you took this so personally you may want to think more about what the real issue is that caused your reaction and feeling like you are being attacked rather than just ignoring it since it seems irrelevant for you what my post had to say.

Stop cutting yourself pls! It’s not pretty nor aesthetic -_-

You are gonna regret it later, as I myself did. Now I have to see what my dumbass teenage self did every day and I hate that.

I have to answer why I have those scars every time I meet a new person and honestly I feel ashamed.

It is not a pretty look to have those damn stupid scars as an adult. They are gonna think less about you and nothing you do is gonna change how they gonna perceive you as a person.

I just don’t want any other person feel the same way I did and I still do.

Just found out about this girl, who also has 4n4. she is 18 and 37kg.

I am so fucking jealous!