18.03.2025 (tue)

Update : Not done with stuff but f it I'm heading to bed early 🤡

11.03.2025 (Tues)

thought today was monday wth

Went to bed at 2 AM today and still couldn’t finish my chem notes or review the bio lecture (ughhhhh). Also ended up sleeping instead of studying before school, so that’s fun.

Anyways, here’s my to-do list for the day: bet ya can't tell how much I love to-do lists

Rev bio lec

Finish up chem notes (finally) and study it.

Watch lec 2

Live class

Math,chem,eng,bio hw

Manifesting productivity... or at least, survival.

Hope y'all have an amazing day ahead !

(⁠ ⁠˘⁠ ⁠³⁠˘⁠) 💗

30.04.2025 (wed)

Day (21/30) DOP COLLAB CHALLENGE

ypt hrs ≈ 1:35 hrs

💤 4:30 + 20 min power nap 💤

• Watched my live lec on organisms and ppn and did some hw. Nothin else hehe ^^

EIDD MUBARAKK YALL

تَقَبَّلَ اللهُ مِنَّا وَمِنكُم 🌙🫂✨

Hope y'all have an amazing Eid <33

21.04.2024 (mon)

DAY (13/30) OF DOP CHALLENGE

Study hrs ≈ 1:00 hr ish

I've been so inconsistent wthhh. I'm trynna do better tho (⁠˘⁠･⁠_⁠･⁠˘⁠)

Heyy y'all 👀 I'm back !! In the past couple of days, lowkey kinda crashed out and got sick for the second time (like come onnnn it's barely been a month !!) but yeah I'm back (again).

Didn't go to school yesterday so competed all of yesterday's notes (bio+phy+math) there were so much notes like wtf . Obv didn't record my note writing sessions on ypt

Chem vid on the first few topics of electrochemistry cuz I was absent yesterday and so fkrn lost in class today

Math hw (ex.1 of relations & functions)

Got some non study related things done as well :D (also, I'm a prefect now YAAAAY)

All in all, not the most productive of days but a good one :)

Dying from cramps rn lmfao fml

12.03.2025 (wed)

Just got back from school and honestly, today’s been lowkey trash. Couldn’t focus at all and zoned out for the entirety of physics—like, my brain just went NOPE. So now I have to relearn everything from scratch 😭. I’ve been trying so hard to be consistent, but it’s days like these that really test me. So yeah, gonna lock in and grind to make up for it.

Today’s To-Do List (aka the battle plan):

Chem - Revise numericals.

Chem - Study Lec 1 (it’s been haunting my to-do list for a week now) + Lec 2 & 3 (I’m not going to bed until these are DONE.)

Phy - Relearn today’s class (because clearly my brain took a day off.)

It’s me vs. my procrastination today, and I’m NOT losing.

Toodles ~~

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10.03.25

Woke up at 4 today with like 4 hours of sleep, and my first thought was hell nahhh. So after fajr, I knocked out again for 1-1.5 hours and woke up at 6:30, except I actually fell back asleep, and my mom’s loud-ass alarm had to drag me back to reality 🤡.

Slept on the way back home, was still dead tired when I got to my room, so I decided to nap for an hour… which somehow turned into 3 hours without my consent. Woke up literally 10 minutes before my class. But hey, at least I’m more awake now, I guess?

Loved today, though—understood everything in every class so easily, and that’s a rare win.

I’ll try to sleep after I’m done studying, but if I can’t, I might just keep going.

Ughhh.

Stuff to do:

Math HW

Chem: read text + review notes + hw

Review today’s lecture + read the text

Finally finish that damn solutions lecture + write notes + study it

Let’s hope I actually get through this.

Byeee for nowww (⁠ ⁠˘⁠ ⁠³⁠˘⁠)💗

13.05.2025 (tue)

ypt hrs ≈ 4:10 hrs

Lec 2 (left over 40 mins) + lec 3 of current electricity

Lec 3 + lec 4 of electrochemistry

Let me give you, the internet, and mostly myself, some executive function advice.

Sometimes, when you find yourself somehow unable to do a thing you need or want to do, one issue might be that your brain has subconsciously tacked on extra tasks, and those tasks are making the whole thing too overwhelming!

Tl;dr: don't do that!

For example, I like to track the books I read and I've been meaning to add a few books I've recently finished. But my brain has added that I should also write a review, and the exact dates I read them (which I can't even remember) and oh by the way I should finish moving my stuff over to storygraph and before I know it that 1 task has turned into 4! And my executive functioning says no.

In fact, while I was getting the idea to write this post, my brain went "wouldn't it be nice to also write a post about y and tag them all properly and go back through my posts and find all mental health posts and tag those too" and wouldn't you know it. 4 tasks.

Discard those extra tasks. Don't even write them down. They don't matter. Strip it down to the 1 task you started with and only do that.

Sure, you won't have achieved some theoretical better end result but that end result was never gonna happen anyway. It was paralysing you from getting the initial task done. And maybe once that initial task is done, you can get to one (1! not 4!) additional task. Later. Not now.

Half-assing is better than no-assing.

01.05.2025 (thu)

Day (22/30) DOP COLLAB CHALLENGE

Ypt hrs ≈ 1:10 hrs

F-ed around, attended my live class and did random shi until I had to get ready for dinner. I can't rmbr the last time we went out to eat dinner lmfao

Back from the iftar party and it's 12 already ! It was so fun and there were SOO many people. Tho it was quite overwhelming at first, I had such an amazing time. Heading straight to bed cuz ur girlie got a BUSY day tmrw 😭

07.03.2025

Didn’t post yesterday because I literally did nothing. Skipped school, joined the live class 15 minutes late because I randomly decided to shower last minute (and ofc, I don’t shower fast—especially when it's hair wash day !!!). Spent the entire class daydreaming instead of actually functioning, and now my to do list is staring at me like a disappointed parent. Ugh.

Anyways, shit happens. But also, I am so stressed about my backlogs. I feel like I’m drowning in stuff I have to do, I'm doing and will have to do— I have no idea how I’m supposed to do all this. Like, where is the pause button?? Also, I joined a Ramadan challenge group and haven’t updated in days—it’s barely been a week and I’m already flopping. I hate myself for it.

Weekend to do list:

• Complete Saturday’s notes + HW before they consume me

• Study for the bio test on Sunday (our teacher tests us on stuff we learned the previous week—I love her, but also, why)

• Rewatch yesterday’s lecture and actually process it this time

• Study all three bio lectures because apparently, I enjoy suffering (I did this to myself really)

• Iftar party later today, which means I’ll definitely miss live lectures and will have to listen to them tomorrow (future me is already panicking)

• Try to actually update in the Ramadan challenge group before I disappear completely

I am so behind, and I have no idea how I’m going to survive this, but we move.