Time For My Perfectly Normal Yogurt That I Have To Take 4 Times A Day :DD

Dam. Been a year already. Currently trying to stop myself from crying but I think it’s the right time to talk about how I found out. Ready? Ok.

On this day, one year ago, before getting drivin into work, I was reading an sbi fanfic. I saw the author had uploaded a chapter, not even a few minutes earlier and was like “wow omg! That’s so cool”. Anyway it wasn’t a chapter, it was a heartfelt message to techno, and an apology to the readers, since they weren’t sure when they were going to post again.

I was obviously like “what?.. no that can’t be true” so I came on here, and the first thing I saw when I looked up his name was a drawing of his cape crown and sword. I wanted to cry but I knew if I did, then I wouldn’t stop, and I had a job to do anyway, so I held it in. Fun fact, I was also going on holiday that weekend too and I hate crying in front of people.

I ended up watching “so long nerds” the Monday after. I sobbed my little heart out.

The Dream SMP was my first time hearing of techno, in 2020, when he first joined Wilbur and Tommy in pogtopia. I thought he was hilarious and I think since then I watched all his YouTube videos. In those two years that I got of him, he grew to mean a lot to me.

And here I am again. 365 days later, trying to stop myself from crying, because I know I won’t be able to stop and I have to go to work. I’m putting off watching a video about his death because I know it’ll make me sob and all I can bring myself to think is “fuck you for dying and fuck cancer for killing you”

Anyway, I better get ready to go to work.

Needed this, thanks.

hey if ur reading this and ur in a bad spot mentally or anything i hope u feel better soon and have a good day

Get it while you can!!! You don’t wanna miss this!!!

My guy definitely would have been lobotomised for being so silly, but that part of his charm 

Wow! Don’t I love not being obsessed with horror puppets! Couldn’t be me!!! :)

this is my first hand drawn animation (and first artpost) i have like no followers but i just wanted to show you guys what i did so far

I am roughly 30% done with something 👀

Currently obsessed with DHMIS but I haven’t posted a single thing about it

sum random sam doodlz :3

This isn’t me. Obviously, it’s a drawing I did at 1am because I wanted to draw.

She’s not me. She’s based off of me. She has my cheeks, my eyes, my ache. She has all the parts that make up my face. But she’s pretty. Somehow all of my parts made someone so much prettier then me.

It’s confusing. She does look like me. But she doesn’t at the same time?? She looks beautiful. Like people tell her she’s beautiful.

I want to look like her.

Or maybe I don’t?

Maybe, if I did look like her, I’d draw someone else and wish all over again.

To be honest with myself, I don’t think I’d love myself anymore or less if I did.

I’d still probably never take pictures of myself. Still probably feel guilty about looking the way I do. Still probably draw girls that are made up of the same features that look like me but not quite as wrong as I do.

But I’d love myself regardless. Because, yeah I have a difficult relationship with my appearance, but I can always love myself, so I’ll always choose to love myself.

Funny how all of this rambling can come from a quick 1am doodle