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Dam. Been a year already. Currently trying to stop myself from crying but I think it’s the right time to talk about how I found out. Ready? Ok.
On this day, one year ago, before getting drivin into work, I was reading an sbi fanfic. I saw the author had uploaded a chapter, not even a few minutes earlier and was like “wow omg! That’s so cool”. Anyway it wasn’t a chapter, it was a heartfelt message to techno, and an apology to the readers, since they weren’t sure when they were going to post again.
I was obviously like “what?.. no that can’t be true” so I came on here, and the first thing I saw when I looked up his name was a drawing of his cape crown and sword. I wanted to cry but I knew if I did, then I wouldn’t stop, and I had a job to do anyway, so I held it in. Fun fact, I was also going on holiday that weekend too and I hate crying in front of people.
I ended up watching “so long nerds” the Monday after. I sobbed my little heart out.
The Dream SMP was my first time hearing of techno, in 2020, when he first joined Wilbur and Tommy in pogtopia. I thought he was hilarious and I think since then I watched all his YouTube videos. In those two years that I got of him, he grew to mean a lot to me.
And here I am again. 365 days later, trying to stop myself from crying, because I know I won’t be able to stop and I have to go to work. I’m putting off watching a video about his death because I know it’ll make me sob and all I can bring myself to think is “fuck you for dying and fuck cancer for killing you”
Anyway, I better get ready to go to work.
