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Tw:child abuse/sexual abuse/trauma/laito sakamaki/assault

So I wanted to talk about Laito sakamaki in a bit more depth,specifically when he's a child/his childhood growing up

So we know that with the sakamaki brothers they all kinda grew up together,in the same house I'm pretty sure

We see this in the flashback in the anime of their childhood (I haven't played the game or read the comics)

It looks like to some extent they bonded,at least until a certain age

But in present day their relationship is strained,and I can guess it happened around their actual teenage years(before going into the hundreds)

Laito's relationship with his brothers is even more rifted when he started being molested by cordelia

Because his view of love was so tainted,mistaking lust and abuse for love he isn't exactly sure how to properly bond with his brothers now that cordelia has ruined his perception of what love is supposed to be and look like

I also read somewhere (and headcanon) that his brothers found out that he was in an incestuous relationship with their mother when they were still kids and feel guilty about

In present day its obvious the brothers don't bond and don't ever plan to,but even with all their trauma and misconceptions in life they can still feel horrified learning that cordelia was molesting and grooming their brother

As kids the rest of the brothers couldn't exactly do anything about the situation

I read that ayato found out by hearing laito sneak off to cordelias room late at night and feels tremendous guilt about it

Despite the abuse the brothers already endured I imagine it would still be extremely traumatic to acquire that information

I think that being sexually abused by his mother has (obviously) never felt truly good

In the comics,he says that love is something that feels good (referring to sleeping with cordelia,concluding that this is his perception of love)

Yet I think that it never truly felt because because it isn't natural nor okay

Of course his body responded naturally to sexual pleasure and adding on that he doesn't exactly know it's wrong,your brain still knows deep down is wrong

I think when he got older he realised it wasn't a normal thing to do but he refuses to acknowledge it because of how uncomfortable it is to think about

He isn't really in touch with his emotions

He just feels something and goes with it

But he hates being vulnerable

Which is why he chooses to make others vulnerable unstead (I'm in no way excusing this behaviour,simply bringing it to light in order to explain my thoughts on his abuse)

I also believe that cordelia physically forced sexual in counters on him multiple times,which could also explain his violent controlling,impulsive behaviour,because it was shown to him (I know he didnt have a choice as a child and was coerced,just saying that maybe he didn't comply at first so he was possibly literally dragged or hit/restrained)

He was also surrounded by adults who knew about it (karlheinz I'm convinced he knows everything that goes on at all times,richter),but didn't nothing,which was probably extremely suffocating

Knowing that you could be helped,but weren't

I don't like them (all sakamakis) though because of their history as notorious abusers,torturers,assaulters and most likely rapists,not to mention killing the brides

Remember that just because you were abused,it is not an excuse to abuse other,break the cycle

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