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using their full name?! | bakugou katsuki, sero hanta, iida tenya, kirishima eijirou, kaminari denki, todoroki shoto.

You can cry.

You're allowed to cry, you're allowed to rest, you're allowed to roll in bed and wish to stay there for a minute, you're allowed to stop being productive in some time, you're allowed to take a break from shifting and from everything.

You're allowed to allow your body to calm itself, to understand that the reality is near, nothing of those I mentioned above will tent your life, nothing at all.

Because you know it yourself, you found shifting for a reason, home is always where your heart will be, head on their shoulder, sharing earphones, walking in the rain, finally having that burden off your shoulder.

I'm proud of you ml, you've gone long enough, and let me see you truly get whatever you want, whether it's the void, manifesting or revising something, shifting or anything of sort.

You're valid, and think of how your younger self would feel to know they achieved something their little heart wanted for so long.

Xoxo. Coco

you and bakugou stride through the halls of UA, hand in hand. it’s silent, people are parting like the red sea with jaws unhinged and eyes the size of saucers and the occasional whisper is shut down by a glare from your boyfriend.

“they’re staring at us…”

“no shit.”

“shut the fuck up,” you quip, glaring at him. he just grins down at you and someone gasps at the sight of bakugou katsuki smiling at someone.

the cafeteria doors swing open and you both stand for a moment, looking to see your friends waving you both over, but they stop for a moment and stare. then they all start hitting each other to look at the both of you.

you raise a brow at bakugou, and he shrugs.

“you didn’t tell them?”

“thought they would’ve figured it out by now, but i guess not.”

a deadpan look crosses over your face, but you start tugging bakugou over to your shared friends. you catch a glimpse of monoma out of the corner of your eye… along with the middle finger bakugou’s flashes him.

“what?”

“hooligan.”

Dr.Boom Boom 💥

#Drafts Dump #WeDieLikeMen:Stupid&WithoutSpellcheck

Mean, sarcastic, genius, handsome, panty dropping Neurosurgeon Dr Bakugou Katsuki Head of the Neuroscience Department at UA hospital known as as Dr. BOOM BOOM to all the the interns and even the residents as a nasty cutthroat attending who has made more than a handful of interns drop out and a few residents cry; as well as that one time he made a fellow attending absolutely furious when she tried to hit on him and he told her to get out of his OR.

He's a complete asshole but he's the best of the best, so he gets to act like hot shit because he IS hot shit. He doesn't take shit from anyone not does he listen to the board of directors or the Executive committee when it comes to the way he treats his patients and he certainly doesn't listen to anyone when it comes to his OR.

So you can only imagine the shock of the entire medical staff, including Dr. Bakugous rival Dr. Midoriya (the number one general surgeon in the nation) when little old you the new, pretty cardiothoracic surgeon who just started last week tells Bakugou Katsuki to "shut the fuck up, I'm trying to do a Thoracic aortic dissection repair Dr. Bakugou and with all due respect no one here gives a shit about how you made a Michelin star chef cry last night for preparing your steak wrong." and he does.

He does shut the fuck up.

And everyones sure he's planning your murder when his eyes crinkle and he takes a step back from his patient on the table. But what they cant see is the predatory smirk under his surgical mask. What they dont know is he's absolutely. completely. smitten.

Deku almost passes out and if it wasn't for his scrub Nurse Ochako placing a hand on his back he might have.

Once the surgery is complete and the patient is stable you're one of the first to leave, Bakugou in his orange scrubs follows soon after having one of his residents close up.

You're taking off your scrub cap when he finds you. You know you're in for it when he makes a bee line straight for you. Not only did you disrespect him in-front of his medical staff and colleagues but you also did so in his OR.

You're about to apologize but before you can; he's towering over you at his full height 6'2 all broad shoulders as his arm shoots out to grab your forearm in gentle hold when he looks down at you. His eyes are searing, hungry and wild as he looks down at your smaller softer form and you feel like your knees might give out if it wasn't for the breath taking smile on his face and the pink dusting over his high cheekbones.

He calls you by name with a doctor attached to the front as he demands you grab coffee with him the least you can do for acting like a brat in his OR.

and you do, every morning, every late night shift and during your days off you can be found with the explosive blond.

A friendship forming between the two of you is frightening even your favorite attending Dr Shinsou comments on how the two of you are attached at the hip.

And its shocking to think that ruthless blood thirsty cutthroat Neurosurgeon Dr Bakugou Katsuki is wrapped around your dainty little fingers.

He opens every door for you.

Bring your coffee in-between consults and reminds you to drink water shoving a liquid IV in your hand and an orange hydro flask with his name engraved on it i.

Dr Kirishima head of Ortho almost screams when he sees you drinking from his officially dubbed work best friend's water bottle.

"y/n you might want to put that bottle back in the fridge before Dr Bakugou sees you with it. He threw a fit last time when one of the lab guys mistook the bottle for his own. Cleaned it with bleach and made the poor guy buy him a new one with his name engraved on it." he warns not wanting to see Katsuki blow his own chances with the new Cardio Surgeon because she drank from his water bottle.

with a confused look on your face you scrunch up your eyebrows and pout your lips, the gloss on them draws Kirishima's eyes to them and he has to tell himself not to blush at how adorable you are

"But Katsu gave it to me this morning after my transplant patient" you say taking another swig. "I don’t think it’ll be a problem but if it makes you feel better I'll return it to hi-"

But before you can finish your sentence you're cut off by warm hand wrapping over your own as you go to screw the top back on "Shut up shitty hair; Dr y/n can use my shit whenever she wants." he grunts stretching his arm over your shoulder to grab the bottle from your hand and bring it to your lips.

"drink more water shitty women or you might fall off your booster seat during your next surgery." he states eyes never leaving Dr Kirishimas a silent back off to his best friend who chuckles pretending to look at his pager.

"oh shoot gotta run" he supplies before making himself scares.

Its adorable and the head of ObyGyn Dr Momo cant help but gush about how she saw Dr.Bakugou braiding your hair in the attending lounge one early morning before some big surgery.

The Nurses begin to talk about how they notice the two of you arrive together and leave together regardless of your shifts.

Dr Ashido swears she saw Bakugou hand you your signature pink scrubs in the locker room from HIS bag.

And the rumors go on and on until the sleep specialist and your childhood friend, Dr Shinsou brings it all to a climax when he tells all the attending in the cafeteria that he saw you exiting the building with Dr Bakugous car keys one late night when the neuro surgeon got held back for an emergency surgery. Throwing in a little “they bicker like a married couple as it is”.

But what really seals the deal is one particular morning you come rushing in on your day off running toward the the OR greeting your collages with a quick "hey!" or "morning" dressed in a pair of grey sweats and an orange sweatshirt two sizes too big for you. You run right up to Bakugou screaming "Katsu! wait I got it!" as you see him reach for a plain disposable scrub cap. With a sigh of relief Bakugou turns away from his surgical Team consisting if: Dr. Todoroki, Dr Denki, Dr. Midoriya, Dr. Shinsou, Scrub Nurse Ochako, and Dr.Tsu.

"Oh thank God, I did not want to wear that shitty fucking Scrub cap" he complains bending down to your height as you reach into your pocket and pull out his signature grenade print scrub cap placing it on his head.

"I know thats why I jumped out of bed when I saw your text. Why didn't you call me!" you complain as you knot the back.

"I didn't want to wake you up on your day off, Princess." he responds with absolutely no sarcasm in his voice. Patiently waiting for you to let him know you're done before returning to his full length.

"wake me up next time. I'm taking your mom grocery shopping anyways so I needed to be up." you finish patting his shoulders twice before kissing his nose as he stand up.

"whatever shitty woman, dont let that old hag start putting silly ideas in your head now. You two together are fucking trouble." grunts Turing away from you only to be met with four pairs of bulging eyes and one pair of smug ones as Denki hands over $100 to the Dr in purple scrubs.

"what the fuck are you extras looking at!" he exclaims pulling you into him as he places a kiss on the top of your head as you laugh telling him "I'll see you at home" before making your exit.

and the next words that leaves Dr Bakugous lips do make Dr Midoriya pass out.

"Can I not fucking kiss my wife!? get back to fucking work!"

Bakugou trying to make you jealous but failing miserably😍💪✨

Bakugou grumbled, it was too early in the morning for this shit.

He looked over at you, peacefully sleeping with your lips slightly parted, your arm draped around his chest. He smirked, rubbing his calloused thumb over your lips before leaning over and kissing you.

“Love you babe,” he whispered, planting a kiss to your forehead before getting off the bed.

Today he would be having photo shoots with other pro heroes for the advertisement of the upcoming Hero Gala. Yesterday you were the one to go have multiple photo shoots, not only for the Hero Gala but also for the cover of the new Vogue magazine. Which included men, lots and lots of some of the best heroes from all around the world. Unfortunately for Bakugou, your hero costume was revealing, and with all those men clinging onto you in the photos, it made him… well, jealous.

So by the time you got home Bakugou was sulking and pouting and grumbling, something that had been happening quite often these days, so you knew, from experience, he was jealous. And the only solution to fix it, is fucking him. Reminding him that you’re his and he’s yours, while fucking him till he starts seeing stars. He wasn’t complicated, all it took to get him back to his cocky arrogant self was a few praises here, a couple touches there, and he’d be back to normal.

But Bakugou still wanted revenge, so like his bastardoues self, he made a plan to let as many girls and guys cling to him as possible during the photo shoot. You both knew the photographer personally so he always sent you and Bakugou the results for the pictures. And just for good measure, he made sure his cleavage was lower than necessary, as embarrassing as it was to do.

He didn’t even need to adjust his hero costume to have all the girls all over him, but he did anyways which resulted to probably the most scandalous photos out there if the media knew you and him were engaged. The final results went like this: the 15 top heroes of Japan all gathered together, standing around Bakugou as he was seated in the middle, a girl seated on his lower thigh/knee, his hand on her waist, and another girl behind him, resting her chin on his shoulder while further extenuating her cleavage.

But as much as Bakugou hated to admit it, it didn’t feel… good? Instead of those two girls he wanted you sitting on his thigh, he wanted to be touching your waist.

It was around 5 p.m. when the photographer sent you the photos, you stared at them for a long while with a smirk on your face. You knew what he was trying to do, you knew he was trying to make you jealous, you weren’t dumb. And you knew exactly how to counterattack.

You knew the thing Bakugou hated, absolutely hated most, was when he was trying to get your attention and you would ignore him. He absolutely hated it. So that’s exactly what you planned to do. You knew he was most likely expecting this: you immediately clinging to him and whining as to why those girls were so close to him. So you were going to do the opposite.

When Bakugou got home, opening the door, him expecting you to run up to him and hug him and not let go, and you didn’t, he knew something was up.

Instead you greeted him the way you greeted him everyday, “Hi babe,” you casually greeted, pressing a kiss to his cheek before walking back into the kitchen. Bakugou, stilled, did you not see the photos?

He walked into the kitchen, sitting down on a stool while watching you cook.

“How’d the photo shoot go?” You asked while stirring the pan of stir fry you made.

“It went good, really good actually,” he tried to emphasize, you smiled while turning around to face him, running your hands under the water of the sink, “That’s good,” you chided before turning around again and turning off the stove. You served yourself and Bakugou while feeling Bakugou staring daggers at you. You placed the bowl in front of him, “I could’ve got it myself..” he muttered but regardless started eating. You got chopsticks for yourself before standing beside Bakugou.

“I’m gonna be in my office, I have some work to do,” you informed after kissing his forehead, he frowned before looking away. “Fine. Whatever.” He grumbled, you tried your hardest not to laugh at him while you walked into your office.

After about fifteen minutes of answering applicant papers Bakugou quietly opened the door, coming into your office.

“Yes?” You asked, keeping your eyes fixated to the computer screen.

“Nothing, just wanted to be with you.” He honestly spoke, sitting down on the small but comfortable couch in the office, your back was facing him as he fidgeted with his fingers. You hummed in acknowledgment, continuing to work, this went on for about ten minutes before Bakugou decided he couldn’t take this anymore.

“Babe..” he softly tried to get your attention whilst walking up to you, you hummed in question while he turned your chair around to face him.

“I.. I wanna spend some time with you..” he quietly spoke, your heart strings tugged at him. “Just a couple more minutes baby,” you replied with a bland expression, the way he frowned and he did his goddamn puppy dog eyes made you just want to take him in your arms and start kissing him and telling him that he’s perfect. But you had more self control than that. He softly groaned, gripping onto the side of your chair, “Pleaseee,” he begged, his ruby eyes glistening.

You gently pushed him away, “I said just a couple more minutes, wait.” You sternly replied, he looked at you with sad eyes before softly nodding and walking out of your office. Your heart dropped, was he that desperate for your attention? He looked so sad when you scolded him. You decided to finish the last paper before going to make sure he was okay.

You opened the door to your guy’s shared bedroom, seeing Bakugou laying on the bed with his back to you.

“Hey.. babe… I’m sorry I didn’t mean to scold you,” you apologized, getting on your side of the bed and scooting closer to him. He stayed quiet, covering his face with the blanket. You frowned, gently grasping his shoulder and pulling him to face you, you were shocked to see his eyes red and teary, his tear stained cheeks making your heart throb.

“Aw baby… I’m sorry, I didn’t mean to make you cry..” you tried to calm him down, he sniffed, “I was trying to get your attention and you ignored me!” He yelled, the tears quickly spilling onto his cheeks, you stilled, you didn’t know ignoring him could make him this sad. You picked him up by his arms, setting him on your lap, you wrapped your arms around his waist while he tightly grasped your shirt, crying into your neck. “Babe I’m sorry, I.. I didn’t know you would be this upset by it,” you apologized, rubbing his bare hips with your hands, he softly cried.

“I’m sorry sweetie, I’m sorry..” you whispered, pressing kisses to the top of his head. He whined, rubbing his cheek against your neck. “I’m sorry baby, I love you so much,” you repeated, you felt so bad now seeing him crying, you made a mental note that whenever Bakugou was trying to make you jealous to just go along with it.

After a while the crying stopped, quiet sniffles coming from him. “Don’t do that again you idiot..”

bakugou's the kid who hates it when people touch him, but his love language is physical affection.

you come up to hug him and he dodges it like some sort of hardened professional who's been training for this moment for years.

and then a few hours later he pulls you into a rib crushing embrace to kiss you like it's his last.

WAVERING DOESN’T EXIST!!! THEY LIED!! NOTHING CAN STOP YOUR MANIFESTATIONS UNLESS YOU ASSUME IT DOES!! GET OUT THE HABIT THAT SOMETHING COULD STOP OR DELAY YOUR MANIFESTATIONS!!

You are consciousness. Everything is consciousness. Everything is you. You are the source.

That being said, when you tell yourself you have your desires, you’re not just wishing or trying to convince someone that it’s true, you are stating that fact for everyone in the YOUniverse to hear and everyone is stating that fact back to you.

”The outer world” speaks with the same voice as you. The affirmations you say are the same ones it says. When you say ”I have 10k in my bank account rn” it too says ”I have 10k in my bank account rn”. Because it is you.

What you tell yourself HAS to be true, because there’s only you. You’re the director of this movie and the author of this book, babe. Without you the story wouldn’t unfold.

Tell yourself there’s no delay. Tell yourself that you can have anything you want. It’s just as easy to conjure that reality in ”the outer world” as it is in ”imagination”. Just drop the terms and separation, they’re one and the same!

HIM AND HIS SNEK 😭😭

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The senses shift last

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Reposting because Tumblr flagged the last one

Focus on your internal experience. That is what matters. That is what shifts. Think as your DR self and no one else. If you enter the mental state of your DR self you will enter the physical state of your DRself.

It's ok if you don't feel it yet, it's ok if you hear a sound from your CR, it's ok if you can feel your old bedroom still. It's OK.

Shifting is not a physical process. Your physical body is not what's shifting between realities, your awareness is. Your sight, hearing, taste, feeling, etc, are all a part of your physical body.

What the nerves in your body are experiencing doesn't matter because you are not the nerves, you are not the body, you are the awareness. Your body isn't trying to shift, your mind is.

You are trying to become aware of another reality and therefore what you are experiencing in this one is irrelevant. It doesn't matter what this body experiences it matters what your awareness is experiencing.

Shifting is internal focus on shifting internally.

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If you still don't get it think of it this way:

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If you are sitting down and thinking to yourself about everything see, hear, feel, smell, or taste from your CR, then you are LITERALLY applying the 5 senses method to your CR.

If your method is mainly affirming, so repeating to yourself that you're there, WHAT do you think is happening when you keep telling yourself you're not there? Everything you say is an affirmation. It's not that methods aren't working it's that you are literally applying them in reverse.

It doesn't matter what your senses are telling you because you will shift before they do. It doesn't mean anything unless you tell yourself that it does.

If your senses do not match your mental state stay in the mental state until they do. Do not compromise with shit you don't want.

STAY in the mind of your DRself. That's your only job. Continue to think as if you're there. Continue to think about your life in your DR, continue to occupy the mind of your DRself.

This is what so many people get stuck on. I don't expect you to magically stop experiencing it, it is ok that you felt it. All you have to do is continue to think as if you are in your DR anyway.

Your subconscious will believe what you tell it over what your body is experiencing. Your only goal is to keep telling it that you're in your DR.

Yes you might have heard a loud noise and yes you know it's not from your DR. That doesn't matter. The goal is not to magically un-hear it but to avoid returning to the mental state of your CR self.

It is ok if you can't make yourself believe you're there, you just have to think to yourself as if you are. Think as DR you and no one else.

Essentially, you shift mentally before you feel it physically. Before you experience your desired reality externally you experience it internally.

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