Having A Traumatic Childhood Means You Cannot Talk Even Objectively About Your Basic Foundational Experiences

"this too shall pass" well can it fucking get on with it

I wish I could keep myself from dissociating and thinking of everything that's happened and then obsessing. I didn't think I'd end up this way. It's hard to deal with and let go.

From drawing on Twitch for an hour a day ago or so.

It's all my fault in the end isn't it.

it sucks because for a minute i was happy, for a minute i was getting better, for a minute i had hope, but in a minute i lost it all again

“Never trust your tongue when your heart is bitter.”

— Samuel J. Hurwitt

When you accuse loved ones of not caring about you, you may not realize it, but it’s hurtful.

I say this as someone who has been on both sides of this. I get the insecurity. I really do. But having now been on the other side of it, it is hurtful to be told that I don’t care about someone when I’ve been exerting energy to be there for them. I understand it’s from their own insecurity but it still hurts.

If you’re feeling insecure, it’s valid but this isn’t an okay way to deal with it. And it can actively damage your relationships and create self-fulfilling prophecies. Try to self-soothe. And if you can’t, it’s okay, but please seek out reassurance in a healthy way.

If you are fighting battles every day that others don't see or understand, I see you and I'm rooting for you 💕