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Dilemmas:the silent killer of your mind

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It's gonna be subjective though I want to tell about this word in short. Dilemmas are the most dangerous pills which may be the reason for ruining mental heath. I have the exhausting experience of deciding among thoisands of options. But I had no specific knowledge for accessing the answers.

Still, I don't have. Notwithstanding this, I learnt to deal with the unknown decisions. Most of the time, I got stuck in the unending loop and I myself used to stop the door of getting out of this. When you dont know which interests you, which defines you, you tend to have more options to you.

This life is full of decisions. Every moment, you are prioritizing one over another. But that time, when you constrain yourself finding abstract answers which you sub-consciously tell yourself that you can not get it. Stop there. Shine.

Believe me it's hard. But I am telling myself,

Rasha, wake up, do something and choose!

Fav quote

"People's perceptions and feelings may change, but the underlying values, and the metrics by which those values are assessed, stay the same."

I think we, human being,are too much serious about everything. We aren’t habituated to the environments which are not beside us. We want the things to be perfect, to be in our side. We are serious about what people say about us,what people think about us. In summary, we want to be right to us, to our friends and family. But i think if something seems right, correct, that's wrong somewhere. Really, everything does not need to be correct anyway. We also need to do mistakes. We also have to learn from them. We need to be SILLY. For these extra fear of being correct and perfect, our creative thinking is getting ruined. We don't want to think newly, we don't want to create new things because of the fear of being wrong. I am not saying don't care people. But don't place yourself at the top or at the down of all. You also have power to think from different perspective. Why will you accept all things encountered in your life? If you accept things,you have to know reasons. It can be happened that the laws you are reading now will be changed in near future as like Einstein showed over Newton. I think this life is silly. We are gonna die. So, extra tensions of being wrong are meaningless. Keep your senses on, New things are happening in the world. GRASP THEM!

Healing is a continuous process.

Myself 1: I got all the maths of conics wrong when i was given to do. I am right now crying.

Myself 2: Remember the day when you did the maths.

Myself 1: Ummm....

Myself 2: Then how do u expect u will do correct maths? Did u memorise the maths? Or..

Myself 1: 😡 i diddd not memorise.

Myself 2: thenwhat? You wanted to solve the maths at Once?

Myself 1:ya.

Myself 2: Ok, then i think for problem solving you didn’t get sufficient time. Remember, HSC is not a place for problem solving. Ahhh, you have to memorise the maths repeatedly! Otherwise you can't get the maths correct.

Myself 1: i thought i could solve maths correctly. I believed myself. Now how will I cover all those things?!?

Myself 2. Wanna get 95+/100 in HSC.

Myself 1: ya.

Myself 2. Stop arguing, and memorise MATHS😠 Right now!

Language is really very hard things to learn. In these 17 years after birth, I could not learn neither Bangla nor English well. Even in these days, I struggle with the meaning of every words. English is a foreign language. So, it's natural we will be weak (though we were learning it for 13 years. I mourn for the energy to learn English i gave in the wrong way). But in case of Bangla too, i always stuck in the meanings. Firstly, words have different meaning in different areas. Ok, this problem can be solved in some extent by defining a standard meaning. But later the most struggling factor comes, how the people are taking the words and definitions from their perspective. Maybe I am using a word which I am using from my perspective but whom I am telling, he/she is getting the meaning from his/her perspective. This results in misunderstanding. Oh! How to deal with it! And this modern era has made it more critical because of virtual medias. In face to face talking, we can get some hints by seeing expressions, eye movement and face recognitions. But in social media, chatting platform, the problem become worse. Most of the people don't want to change their prospective. They always think from their way. Yeah, maybe they learnt to see the word from another vision. To cope with this world, i think it's more important to try to understand what is going on and then to react. Then it comes what does 'understanding' mean? I think it means to change own perspective. Understanding an idea means to think the idea from different dimensions, to question the idea from different dimensions and it's a continuous process. I know i will not be effective in my communication overnight. I don't want to do so. Just what I want is people will not react suddenly after hearing or seeing something, it's necessary to change the way to see and then to react. If it is possible, then it's important to try to think what others are saying, why they are saying and how will you take that in. I wish I could understand the world better.

There was a time when my average time spent on tumblr was 5 hours a day. Now, while deleting apps ,I saw it in your most unused app and remembered oh! I had tumblr!

I didn’t roar, I will

I didn’t say anything. That doesn’t mean I will not. I respected you.

I didn’t argue last time that does not mean I am a coward. I didn’t think it was necessary to do that.

Sometimes being silent is a rigorous way to challenge.

I didn’t try to do something that does not mean I will not be able to do.

To judge persons easily is a trait of human being. But maybe i did not have any wishes, i did not have enough information, i did not have enough reasons to fight. That’s why I lagged. I needed some time to recover that's why i lagged. But the recovery time can't eat the big picture of life.

I promise you will see - I CAN ROAR.