People Are Too Much Mysterious. Though I Was Simple, Sometimes It Is Needed To Make Previous Myself Complex

তোমার ঘরে বাস করে কারা (ও মন জানো না)

তোমার ঘরে বসত করে কয় জনা (মন জানো না)

এক জনে ছবি আঁকে এক মনে (ও মন)

আরেকজনে বসে বসে রঙ মাখে (ও মন)

আবার সেই ছবিখান নষ্ট করে কোন জনা

একজনে সুর তোলে একতানে (ও মন)

আরেকজনে মন্দিরাতে তাল তোলে (ও মন)

আবার বেসুরা সুর ধরে দেখ কোন জনা

তোমার ঘরে বসত করে কয় জনা

রস খাইয়া হইয়া মাতাল

ওইদেখ হাতফস্কে যায় ঘোড়ার লাগাম

সেই লাগামখানা ধরে দেখ কোন জনা।

I have no friends ----> friends do not need to be mentioned always.

My realization need to be changed, it's normal. But sometimes we learn many things suddenly. I can't express my feelings in a sudden though i want to keep a memory of my sudden feeling. From childhood, I never felt the necessity of friends and I was too unsocial to make friends. It's like friends were burden. I was unlucky to get someone who could explain the significance of friendship to me. Even though I tried from my side to be a friend,I felt one day that I am an incapable to be a friend. So, later I thought I have no friends. But the definition differs. Now I think It's not need to mention in front of all that I have a friend that "You are my friend". I realised that friends are not for showing off, friends are not for passing time. Friends are those who tell you that you can. Friends are those who knows your faults but don't leave you. Friends are those who respect your philosophy, don't want to divert you. Friends are those who laugh silently in your success in spite of their hardship. Friends are those who are sent to this world for being your friends. It's not needed to think when friendship grows. Friendship is friendship for its own reason. A friendship can never be fade, never be broken. It can only be strengthened and last long forever.

Hi! I am Sulagna Saha. Instead of this looong name, you may call me just “Rasha”. I love this name tbh.

About:

💪 oh! I hardly write about myself. After a hard push to my neurons, I thought let's write an about. Umm... I am really a void entity when I am supposed to write on myself. Okay, I got some words!

📐 I am a philomath who sees her surroundings from a positive point of view ( but herself as a negative→ self-critic lol).

☹️ 18 y.o. I will join university soon (dunno which one)

😭 Since childhood, I only liked television and space😌. In ninth grade, I felt I had a tremendous passion for physics (xd)........... I like to do math and physics. Yesterday, I would have been cherishing to be a philosopher. Now....... my focus shifted to a programming career 😝

📚 I never had a habit of reading books. Believe me, I can never focus on novel or fiction. Some months ago, I picked up non-fictions. Now, I feel I love them 💔

🎆 I had little experience of singing in my life. As I have respiratory problems, I had to leave singing in 5th grade. Since then, I am in Dancing.

🧘🏻‍♀️ My favorite past time is meditation. Thinking is my passion.

💤 I spend 55% of my day in sleeping.

🙌 I love talking with people face to face. I bear some grudges to virtual talking. I am virtually introvert, in real ambivert. But if I start talking, I will not stop.............so.

🐸 I hardly have any close friend.

🧳 I love to travel tho I have experience to travel in India and Bangladesh only :>

🚘 I can drive in faka road, I have a 🎸 but I am not a guitarist

Often, I possess the feeling that I am not trying my best.

My family's objection : I am not serious in anything.

and lastly,,,,

🏏 I do love sports.

When you are reading these, maybe I am an another person. I hate assumption. Let’s have a talk someday.  Thanks btw for reading this line.

You can see my another dead blog @ssrasha​

Look, when your focus changes, your view of perceiving beauty also changes!

Memories consume like opening the wound

I'm picking me apart again

You all assume

I'm safe here in my room

Unless I try to start again

I don't want to be the one the battles always choose

'Cause inside I realize that I'm the one confused

I don't know what's worth fighting for

Or why I have to scream

I don't know why I instigate

And say what I don't mean

I don't know how I got this way

I know it's not alright

So I'm breaking the habit

I'm breaking the habit tonight

Clutching my cure

I tightly lock the door

I try to catch my breath again

I hurt much more than any time before

I have no options left again

I don't want to be the one the battles always choose

'Cause inside I realize that I'm the one confused

I don't know what's worth fighting for

Or why I have to…

Source: LyricFind

No way !

I am just tired of the overloaded information in this technological era.

Our nervous system has two modes of operation and it is easy to activate the relaxation mode.

Presence by Amy cuddy

I don't know how much of a change is consistent. However, we learn to adapt to it unknowingly. Today is April 1. I was waiting for this day thinking "How do I write seven creatives in Bangla exam that day?" And ya I am writing now at 4 am!

  It feels quite thrilling to face a strange challenge, but it is difficult for me to imagine the dire consequences. When people feel a lot of pain, they feel it later. Today, life may seem easy in the face of such a big change, but waiting for the feeling when it itself will seem helpless.

To me, quarantine is not something uncomfortable. I'm accustomed to stay home. So ,maybe I don't understand the change. This time in the house is used in many ways by effective people . I am already inefficient in this regard. So I am more inclined to waste this time. Maybe I'll try but fail.but I do not fear failure.rather I'm afraid of change. I did not think it was so difficult to take responsibility for my life as a follower of the eighteen. I thought the taste of freedom is not too bitter. But alas, living in a house and capturing a strange liberty, I never dreamed it would be so difficult. I don't like the digital age, I'm not that smart. So I do not know if everything becomes normal, can I be normal.I do not know where my world will stand. Those who can still keep themselves normal at this time may be superhuman. However, I do not know why the change always seems awful to only me.

Give me time. I know how to adapt. :)