Felt✨

Workout Routine 💫

Warm-up

💢2min running in place

💢50 jumping jacks

Stomache

🌹30 second plank

🌹20 second side plank

🌹30 bycicle crunches

🌹25 side scrunches

🌹25 hip raises

🌹30 pushups

Booty/Legs

💧20 squats

💧20 leg raises

💧50 tippy toes

💧20 squats

💧20 leg raises

💧50 hip raises

💧50 squats

💧1min wall sit

Cardio

🔥100 jumping jacks

🔥2min running in place

🔥100 jumping jacks

(do that every night)

Daily Stuff

Each morning: 20 squats

20 jumping jacks

20 crunches

Before weightin: 30 tippy toes

Using the bathroom: 20 squats

Before eating: 10 situps (repeat after meal) 30 crunches

Before going out: 20 squats

20 jumping jacks

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eventually you realize you don’t want to die. you just don’t want to live the life you’re living. and slowly you try to create a life you want to live. just gotta start there.

Felt✨

I genuinely don’t know how to go to people for help or support when I am upset or depressed or going through whatever. I don’t want to bother them but when I’m visibly upset and depressed and openly stating that I think I’d be better off dead, ignoring those changes should not be an option especially when it’s something that serious. I guess it doesn’t matter because I “got over” what I imagined was the “worst of it” for now and not one of my closest friends asked me if I needed to talk. I had 2 people reach out to me. One I haven’t spoken to in years and the other has backstabbed me more times than I can count and yet these were the people reaching out to see if I was okay, telling me they were worried and that they’re proud of me. They reached out but my friend who’ve I’ve been there for again and again to listen and try to give advice and support and love, there wasn’t a word about it. I don’t want to hold it against her because she’s dealing with a lot right now but for my close friends i could not imagine holding my own problems above theirs. Maybe I’ve conditioned them unconsciously to not ask because I’ll be fine if you give me a week. I just want someone I trust to listen and hold me and tell me everything is going to be okay and tell me good things.

My life is spiraling out of control BUT I can control what I’m eating so ig that’s something

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