Saveperfect - Redemtion

Winona Ryder, 1990.

now I’m just getting super hungry. I can’t even go 12 hrs with out eating a meal. At this point I’m considering sleeping through the hunger.

tried to fast today. 16 hours in, the room started spinning and i felt extremely nauseous and weak. when i tried to eat, my body rejected it. i cant fast like i used to, in fact I cant fast at all anymore. i’ve gotten to a point where every time that i try to, it feels like i’m dying.

listen to your body. be careful with your body. nourish your body.

i miss being skinny

Scott Bergey

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Debbie Harry (Blondie), Viv Albertine (The Slits), Siouxsie Sioux (Siouxsie and the Banshees), Chrissie Hynde (The Pretenders), Poly Styrene (X-Ray Spex) and Pauline Black (The Selecter).

I almost just fainted while taking a shower. I deadass I fell on the floor. I don’t know if it’s because of my lack of iron or not eating for 10+hrs. I actually thought I was dying.

Holy shit.

I have to finish my shower though.

Back in I go.

Honestly, I’m at my best when my ed is at it’s worst. My room is clean, I dress nice, I wash my face more, I whiten my teeth, I wear makeup, I do my hair. For some reason the only thing that pulls my out of my depression spiral is my ed and the only thing that pulls me out of my ed is my depression. Idk if anyone else feels like that? Idk I just always feel better when I’m losing weight and excersizing and not eating. Idk maybe it’s my body thinks I’m finally being healthy? But I’m not? So… idk, it’s just really weird.

well....😔😔😔

Dude, you know I’m doing bad when I escape to tumblr.

felt✨

honestly the feeling of fullness is so much worse than hunger pains