😔 Mayu Suzukaze Literally Being Every Aspect Of Kenshin Is Just Iconic, The Inflections, The Delicacy

on this blog we do not condone rk’s katsura kogoro :) thank you. and he will never, ever, ever get a tag. i looked up katagai and it led me to kogoro and i was like uh..........................’benevolent to kenshin’ ? in a wiki page. i am open to different intrepretations but no matter how much katsura ‘regrets’ ruining kenshin’s life even if kenshin did bring this on himself? katsura still had a hand in him bringing it down, a big, big hand. it didn’t stop him from making a 14-15 year old up until he was 19 and then retiring from the choshu-satsuma alliance as their ultimate soldier any....less...horrifying?

anyway raise your hand if you feel katsura kogoro personally hurt our rurouni.

how is someone who literally point blank says ‘i inspire his passions and make him kill’ that benevolent uhm.. . to be honest the ‘three heroes’ i’m most fond of is okubo due to how badly history treats him but honestly....rk paints him in this really sympathetic light that i don’t have to agree with all of history to be like oh.......

but katsura makes me actually feel...i think what you call disgust. and i’m a really calm and gentle person but this is just a very foreign sensation i always pick up when i think of him oops.

「剣心」/「風李たゆ」

Wakes up insanely early but also free day so. Honestly don’t know about you but I’m suffering from brain rot but and this blog’s beginning and continuation of having Tumblr completely ..... not make things work right. Will that stop me? Probably not but it’s a bit frustrating! It’s just one of those things that it inevitably when you think it never will, will probably sort itself out. 

Honestly my first meta will be about Kenshin’s red gi but I also just want to talk about one of my favorite fights / that one time Kenshin roasted someone so bad they were almost Shishio 2.0 aka the second battle with Shinomori Aoshi and just how Kenshin gives so much wisdom and inner, unshakable strength of will against empty physical strength and how he calls him out on it as using it to do awful things. 

It’s a great example that while Kenshin is the strongest warrior of the Bakumatsu / Revolution in this canon, that’s literally stated in the opening pages starting our story,  and just how I feel again, Kenshin hones in on what matters. Is it cool that you can single-handedly deal from 14-19 against adult men of the Shinsengumi on your own at once without breaking a sweat greats like Okita Souji and Saito Hajime and make them consider if it’s smart to touch you? Much less be the very person to make them break back or break their stance, again, at once? Yes, it’s very impressive and quite scary and very telling that at that young he’s so strong, in that way.

Is it perhaps even more compelling to me that such a legendary swordsman has a soul, even when it’s ultimately tested and broken, restores itself at the end of the story simply by listening to an innocent girl weeping for his protection to save an innocent life and finds even when he wants to give up, his own will won’t let him? In a way, yes. Both aren’t exclusive. But it gives Kenshin’s title of strongest in battle new meaning when you realize that out of every character in Ruroken, Kenshin’s willpower  / will to live is the highest and  “off the charts “ , canonly in one of the many info books that...I don’t have my hands on.

Me: And most of the series he didn’t even care if he lived or died! GROWTH.

Also me: That is chapters and volumes away / a season away. One thing at a time!

Sometimes suffering is just suffering. It doesn’t make you stronger. It doesn’t build character. It only hurts.

Kate Jacobs (via quotemadness)

I’ve been cold, I’ve been merciless. But the blood on my hands scares me to death, maybe I’m waking up today

Jaymes Young - I’ll be good. (via stringimipiuchepuoi)

me softly: kenshin in k.ny as a pillar / hashira using ‘dragon-breathing’ incorporating  hiten mitusurugi-ryu, literally with the name ‘heavenly’ in it because he’d undoubtedly be on par with anyone and also a mentor among them as well as being one of the oldest members besides himejima if not older, and being known as the dragon pillar / dragon hashira with quite a background / reputation of excellence and if not for his kindly nature outside war, intimidating.   also me: kenshin being a mixture of his younger self and present self in order to fit the setting and also because he’s at literal war with the demons alongside his other fellow pillars, while being shrouded in mystery because no one knows who is his master / trainer, only whispers, and every time a demon is felled by his blade it’s very, very quick they forget how devastating the attack was. but also having a really open and accepting opinion of demons who are fighting their natures like tamayo and showing their human hearts, suffering from intense empathy despite killing them, possibly knowing the fifth water breathing form of  ‘blessed rain after the drought’ which he physically humbled himself to know the form from quite possibly urokodaki or giyuu if only to know a technique that puts them peaceably out of their misery out of sheer agony of the heart despite not erring in his path.  also me: he kind of scares the other ( smart ) pillars because no one knows what’s behind that smile unless they actually really know him. that and how is someone so short that insanely powerful and the smart ones really know better than to see him turn that might on them, which he’d never. i think he wouldn’t approve of all of oyakata-sama’s actions especially the last bit, and actually be quite angered and for this reason it’s likely he isn’t made aware because who wants to anger a dragon, right? me again: kenshin actually willing to take on a tsuguko. someone naturally has to have some level of god-speed, maybe not on par with kenshin’s or hiko’s terrifying levels but enough to match the beauty, raw power, colossal speed and terror of his style, a speed shared by wind pillars or at least a close margin. i mean we have a snake pillar i don’t see why a dragon isn’t possible! if not a tsuguko, him just imparting some wisdom that is just life oriented. me: kenshin surviving but at what cost :) by the time the infinity fortress arc is completed kenshin has completed the cross shaped scar. 

[bottles up feelings and lets them age for 10 years like a fine wine]

are we all just picking the wrong quizzes or is there a deeper message here.

I’ve written tons of characters, but as this is my original fandom, my first fandom I got into when I was younger, the first anime / manga and story I ever truly indulged in, I can say even with all the new stories, and new characters I’ve come to love, that after watching Tsuioku-hen / Trust and Betrayal once again, and knowing I will once again, glean it apart, that Kenshin Himura will always, always, be that one character (TM). 

Personal and fond musing under the cut.

I have so much to say, and each time I watch I have feelings and emotions and the ability to relate to him and understand him in a way I just...even eight months hasn’t dulled. I really don’t want to go without someone I deeply, fictional or not, empathize and relate with so personally ever again. I think his story and his character so similar to mine in personality to an eerie degree, the fact that we both are pacifists, achingly gentle people, and always strive to shield others has always resonated with me. His tragic life has resonated with me, and he has always given me hope that /my/ life that has had no small tragedies will be better because good things come to him.

This is a deeply personal post, but basically I don’t mind being compared to other characters, I always will humbly as possible find similarities in others and thank you!, that is our nature, but some characters are just that one character, that one story, that one you always thinks, ‘man we’re alike’.

And Rurouni Kenshin and Kenshin Himura are that. He will always be my favorite character. He will again, always to me, be unprecedented. The things he stands for, the things he wants to be, the countless lives he’s impacted and that innate aching kindness that he cannot let go of no matter what stage of his life...this isn’t even me being dorky, this is me completely serious that Kenshin will always be my favorite character in anything of all time. Not only that but we resonate deeply with one another. That’s something I wouldn’t trade, and honestly his story gives me hope for myself. That people like me can find peace and healing and purpose and always protect others.

This post doesn’t mean I don’t write other muses who have a different, but in their own way, equally special place in my heart, like Lucina, etc. But as I slowly invite friends once again to this place, this very, special, safe, sacred place, both in my heart and mind, engraved in me forever, I only hope that you even a little bit, cherish him as I do so wholly and utterly.

But yes, if you wanted to know Lily’s 20+ year favorite character going on into forever or as long as she’s alive, the character she arguably at the end of the day would  say she’s most like, most on keel with, can never let go of, will always carry those engraved messages inside her, then it’s Kenshin Himura, hands down.

Some stories and characters you come home to. And for me I guess every time I come here, I almost imagine someone telling me ‘welcome home’ just like in the story.

For those who write, those who empathize and resonate spiritually with a fictional story and character, I too, hope you find someone who is this for you. There is nothing wrong with finding yourself in stories. It’s natural and I encourage you. I hope that once more, I glean even further and more deeply into Kenshin than ever before. If you read this, thank you very much, I think those who know me know what this man means to me.