Write  a  letter  to  your  inner  child  &  i’ll  tell  you  what  flower  you’ve  blossomed

I’ve written tons of characters, but as this is my original fandom, my first fandom I got into when I was younger, the first anime / manga and story I ever truly indulged in, I can say even with all the new stories, and new characters I’ve come to love, that after watching Tsuioku-hen / Trust and Betrayal once again, and knowing I will once again, glean it apart, that Kenshin Himura will always, always, be that one character (TM). 

Personal and fond musing under the cut.

I have so much to say, and each time I watch I have feelings and emotions and the ability to relate to him and understand him in a way I just...even eight months hasn’t dulled. I really don’t want to go without someone I deeply, fictional or not, empathize and relate with so personally ever again. I think his story and his character so similar to mine in personality to an eerie degree, the fact that we both are pacifists, achingly gentle people, and always strive to shield others has always resonated with me. His tragic life has resonated with me, and he has always given me hope that /my/ life that has had no small tragedies will be better because good things come to him.

This is a deeply personal post, but basically I don’t mind being compared to other characters, I always will humbly as possible find similarities in others and thank you!, that is our nature, but some characters are just that one character, that one story, that one you always thinks, ‘man we’re alike’.

And Rurouni Kenshin and Kenshin Himura are that. He will always be my favorite character. He will again, always to me, be unprecedented. The things he stands for, the things he wants to be, the countless lives he’s impacted and that innate aching kindness that he cannot let go of no matter what stage of his life...this isn’t even me being dorky, this is me completely serious that Kenshin will always be my favorite character in anything of all time. Not only that but we resonate deeply with one another. That’s something I wouldn’t trade, and honestly his story gives me hope for myself. That people like me can find peace and healing and purpose and always protect others.

This post doesn’t mean I don’t write other muses who have a different, but in their own way, equally special place in my heart, like Lucina, etc. But as I slowly invite friends once again to this place, this very, special, safe, sacred place, both in my heart and mind, engraved in me forever, I only hope that you even a little bit, cherish him as I do so wholly and utterly.

But yes, if you wanted to know Lily’s 20+ year favorite character going on into forever or as long as she’s alive, the character she arguably at the end of the day would  say she’s most like, most on keel with, can never let go of, will always carry those engraved messages inside her, then it’s Kenshin Himura, hands down.

Some stories and characters you come home to. And for me I guess every time I come here, I almost imagine someone telling me ‘welcome home’ just like in the story.

For those who write, those who empathize and resonate spiritually with a fictional story and character, I too, hope you find someone who is this for you. There is nothing wrong with finding yourself in stories. It’s natural and I encourage you. I hope that once more, I glean even further and more deeply into Kenshin than ever before. If you read this, thank you very much, I think those who know me know what this man means to me.

KENSHIN GRAPHIC EDITS 5 / ??? | DEATH MATCH UNDER THE MOON. kenshin during the fight with udō jin-e and the legendary battōjutsu . 

are we all just picking the wrong quizzes or is there a deeper message here.

Sometimes suffering is just suffering. It doesn’t make you stronger. It doesn’t build character. It only hurts.

Kate Jacobs (via quotemadness)

Darling, you were never meant to be Atlas; Lay down the world for a moment. I promise you, it will not fall.

heavy is the head that does not rest // p.s. (via gallixie)

Kenshin & Kaoru [insp]

rur-owo-ni kenshin uwu

this one is himwura kenswhin de gozaru yo . . . . a wuwoni who means no harm that he does !!! how could a murder be my fauwlt with a bwade like this? 

someone make this stop.

the lily discord guide *

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my discord for anyone who would like it ! limited time onl — well, maybe not. i thought i’d use an icon that had actual lilies in it so i used my first video game fave! please let me know who you are, and if you’d rather just im me, that is most welcome also. really, my goal is to be a safe place and a mutual that looks out for you / does right by you, as much as you may allow or even in subtle little things like comments ! i know it’s hard to earn trust, but i’m up for trying and not be someone disingenuous or fake. you won’t get that. ever. i am many things but not that.

details of being lily’s mutual and possible friend. - protector  mutual / friend. no if’s and’s or but’s. lily-types will protect with their life. - gentle conversations! no time limits to when you reply! space respect! - honesty and the ‘nothing leaves this chat’ policy, our place is sacred! - me up at weird hours because i can never sleep properly earning a look. - always available to talk about whatever you’d like to share, be it in the physical world or just our roleplays, and always always gratitude that you opened up or invested!  - plots, plots and more plots. i may be slow, but that’s okay because i believe quality is as much as quantity. judgment free zone on replies / responses, i can’t stress enough. - hopefully, a calm, warm, gentle, protective place where you can feel at ease telling me what you’d like, knowing that i will never ask for more than you feel you can give. as kaoru says, ‘we all have things we don’t want to talk about!’ 

as ever, there is no pressure to add me on dms, i’m very easy going! you can always, always just im me. but if you want a place i’m always on when i get online, that is also a spot as well because we all need dash breaks. i want to be respectful of what makes you comfortable and i want to make sure your experiences with me are nothing short of calm and gentle and quietly warm! i want you to feel safe so please, do what is best for you, but just know that this is an open ticket that will never expire. thank you kindly if you read this, thank you either way, and know there is no pressure to add me, just do what you feel is best for you. 

sincerely, lily.  ps: please drink your water!

😔 mayu suzukaze literally being every aspect of kenshin is just iconic, the inflections, the delicacy turning to fierceness, the shift between every aspect of kenshin’s facades and inner turmoils to true core emotions is just  😔 😔  and it really fits how seemingly ‘delicate’ in physique outside (beneath his gi he’s quite muscled without being bulky (which lends itself to his shinsoku / godspeed )  kenshin appears despite having incredible arm strength / leg strength for his height of 5′2 and really no one that practices hiten mitsurugui-ryu is going to be able to uphold it without having it - and also paying for it like any human being in the most realistic sense.

the first live action film demonstrates and confirms that kenshin doesn’t need to use his sakabato to be able to pulverize and curb-stomp you and then take you to the doctor in less than a minute ! !!! but seriously props to mayu for voicing someone who’s such a fictional legend / icon and doing it insanely well when i imagine the role would feel intimidating due to kenshin’s considerable fame as a character and protagonist / hero.

frankly i also am vastly impressed in general by sato takeru, who i think the pressure would especially be intimidating if it he wasn’t so joyful about kenshin as a whole embodying all my expectations and wishes of kenshin’s mannerisms and my own headcanons confirmed / perspectives, so i also like his voice as well as much as hers. but there is a nostalgia in mayu, and always will be, so i think it’s a blend of both in a sense? 

i love how even his voice is complex and a thing in itself. it dips from soft and dulcet to low and fearsome, to formal to going ‘yup!’ in the most unexpected moments or ‘huh’? i watched some episodes today since tumblr i read was really glitched this month so it will take a while likely for me to get some of my images up when you hover over my url for me, lily, to see so i’ll be slow here since it’s mildly irksome, but not unbearable! 

my first headcanon since...eight months will be about the red gi . i honestly don’t think it’s realistic that he could afford such a fine red gi when it’s heavily implied and outright stated he can’t afford an inn so i’ll take some liberties from the films.