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T Journey Journal #8

Days since start: 97

God it’s been almost 100 days since I’ve started T. I can hardly belive it half the time if I’m being honest, but it’s gotten to the part where everyone can hear my voice getting lower and my happy trail is visible in low light and there’s hair on my upper legs and arms and I have a little puberty stache and- I could cry man I actually look like Sean now, I look like myself. I’m so unbelievably happy and my T dosege was upped last week so I’m doing two pumps of T instead of one and I cannot wait to see what happens. Guys I don’t think I’ve ever been this happy about my body, or my voice or anything.

Speaking of being happy, things are just going good I general:D A friend of mine and I got an apartment and we’ve had it for about two almost three weeks now:D If you’ve read my past entries you know living with Mamá was A Struggle (TM) but I’m ok now!! And like!! I can hang out with friends!! And lovers!! Whenever I want to (and we can bc work and schedules)!!! Like damn this is nice, stuffs going pretty nice, I like this:))

I’ll try to be more consistent with blogging now that I’m moved and all that jazz, and maybe even start posting photos along with these journals:D I know for a FACT I want my happy trail on the internet, it just needs to be seen by as many people as possible (can you tell I’m proud of it?:))))) But until then, stay safe, stay queer:DD

Everytime I refresh my feed, the number of Palestinians massacred by Israel today rises.

I’m not here to get tumblr famous I’m here to chatty chat ab stuff I can’t say anywhere else

T Journey Journal Entry #3

Time Since Start: 5 days

Oily. I am nothing but oily. Like at this point I better be careful before the US tries to invaide me for “freedom”((: Usually if my mental health gets bad I know I can go one day without a shower and my hair and skin will feel fine. But now? I’m not sure that’s possible. There’s so much oil on my skin and face and hair that I’m sure later down the line I’ll have to shower twice a day. Not in the sense that I’m complaining by any means, I knew this was gonna happen I just didn’t know it would be the first thing to happen on T. Haven’t noticed much else besides continuing to feel more awake and all that. Although, have been waaaaay hungrier as of late, much to the detriment of the ingridient house Mamá and Mr. Tennessee have cultivated((:

Speaking of, hopefully talking about Mamá won’t be a part of every entry, but it does remind me of a comment she made at Christmas. Mamá being herself means Christmas is usually filled with more practical gifts, socks, chones, so on so forth, and one of those gifts were shampoo and conditioner. It’s a brand that works well for my hair but she threw in a comment about how my younger sister (who got the same type of shampoo/conditioner) and I had “gross oily hair”. Kinda threw me for a loop bc I’ve never heard her talk ab any of us like that. She meant it as a joke or throwaway comment but that was just, uncalled for.

Quietly losing my mind over the fact that Elon Musk has straight up orchestrated a coup of our executive branch and like....I don't even know what, if any, system we have in place to fix this. Like... He's just taken control of the money and locked out the actual appointed officials. What the fuck.

reminder that being against ai also means being against character.ai and not using character.ai and not interacting with character.ai

i've never talked to chatgpt i've never talked to character.ai i have no interest in talking to a chatbot even if it's fun or based on my comfort character. if we want companies to stop using ai we need to tell them we aren't going to interact with it - so don't.

don't talk to robots. full stop.

reminders for today:

if you or someone you know might need it in the next few years, purchase plan b. the shelf life of plan b is 4 years, and we might not be able to access it as easily as we can now in the days ahead.

if you are larger/plus size: go online and purchase ella instead of plan b. plan b is less effective if you aren’t under 160 pounds.

if you can, purchase books that project 2025 is looking to ban.

mass deportations are starting. if you see ice vehicles or agents, yell ice raid and la migra as loud as you can.

if someone asks who you voted for, keep your mouth shut. they’re fishing for traitors.

if anyone, anyone at all asks about your neighbors or their legal status in the us, you know nothing. don’t be the reason that their family is separated.

if anyone asks about your religion or lack thereof, keep it vague. this administration will look for any excuse to persecute you.

your friends are trans or queer? for the next four years they’re not. don’t expose anyone’s status as a trans or queer person to anyone else, even if you think you can trust them.

did someone you know get an abortion? no, they didn’t. they were never pregnant.

in short, don’t be a snitch, and keep to yourself these next four years. we’ll make it through this even if it seems hopeless at times.

we can survive this. we’ve survived before, and we’ll survive again.

bat at hornets nest maybe but "there is no ethical consumption under capitalism" refers to low income communities needing to choose between survival vs being eco friendly. not you continuing to watch the harry potter movies

shut up and look at this photo of Marsha P. Johnson smiling and holding a Snoopy plush.

RIP to the tights I’m wearing under my jeans for the sleepover with my transfem butch girlfriend, your sacrifice is highly respected