Intimidation Moment

MONDO MY BELOVED!!

"you're autism have nothing to do with your Asexuality and Aromantism"

Well maybe not for you, and that's valid, but for me it is.

Disclamer:this is MY personal exprience, i'm obviously not talking for all aroace and not everyone who's autistic is aro or/and ace, saying otherwise would be incredebly harmfull.

As an autistic person, my aromanticism and Asexuality are strongly linked to it. I however knew i was aroace before knowing i was autistic. The lack of attractions, romantic and sexual was the first indicator, but also the fact that i always felt better alone, being with people for too long is really draining to me. I hate being touched for too long, sleeping with someone in my bed is a pure nightmare, and living with someone constantly in my space is just unbearable for me. So in many way i'm not made to live with someone (romanticaly) for the rest of my days. Plus i also have ADHD and i have an organised mess that i love and hate when people tell me to clean up. I don't know if it's my autism or my aromanticism but it seem impossible for me to see real people as romantic partners, i don't really spot the difference btw Friends and Lovers.

I had a girlfriend for a whole year, we were long distance and i didn't know we were together before she called me her girlfriend to her dad...and idk since i wasn't seeing her IRL i just felt like i was playing a game yk? Like a virtual girlfriend or something, i didn't feel like i was with someone. I broke up when it started feeling too Real. I know it can sound really mean but it was genuinely how i felt, i couldn't help it , and i felt so bad, like i wasn't enought.

She was however aware of my asexuality and i think she was okay with it even if she did some sex jokes that made me sometimes uncomfy. My lack of sexual attractions started by "how could someone ever want to touche someone else like that in Real life?" For me it was something made up, that people weren't really doing but yeah.. it was Real and i was just ace. I'm not a touchy person, i hate being hugged for too long and it's even worst with people i don't really know. I hate the Idea of kissing someone, putting my lips against something else's lips? I would rather die. I hate not being in control and knowing that someone will have power over me, i hate knowing that someone could see me as a potential sexual partner, it always make me so fucking uncomfy, that's why it's hard for me to be friends with someone who have flirted with me.

I always thought i wasn't valid in my asexuality or aromanticism because i enjoy reading smut and romance but i learned (with the help of a big community) that it didn't mean anything and i was still valid asf, and so are everyone on the spectrum (asd&aroace).

I understand were people are coming from when saying that a disorder can't define a sexuality, because obviously not every autistic person is aro or/and ace, but personaly it definitly played a role in it. I would still be aroace without my autism but i would definitly see it differently. Everyone is unique and has their way of feeling their identity and telling them they're wrong because of personal belief would be stupid, if you're not causing any harm to a community or someone personnally then were is the issue?

Thank you for reading<3

goofin :3

A stands for Arson

not a request but it made us chuckle

hmm, assorted world building bits

the Void is the in-between of all Worlds. it is an infinite stretch of nothingness, and escaping it is borderline impossible

worlds without an Admin rely entirely on the Ender Dragon to keep itself stabilised, and safe from the Void

killing an Ender Dragon in an Adminless world almost always dooms the entire place to the Void

tournaments have become so widely popular, that Enchanters had to figure out a way to make temporary bed marks. it's literally just a temporary tattoo

bed marks is just the name for the mark that ties one to a bed respawn

the DSMP is like that with its respawns because of Dream messing with the world code; generally, ghosts do not actually exist

if you die in a Hardcore world, you generally die for good. few people are an exception to this

modded worlds are just places where an Admin has gone completely mental on the code. it's generally frowned upon, but there do exist circles out there that consider it 'the norm'

Hypixel is one of, if not, the biggest and most well-known world

Admins are borderline Gods; not everyone can handle the strain of being one, and it's a 'special' gift that few people have

Hybrids are people with mob traits, while shapeshifters can completely shift between the forms; some shapeshifters never realise their ability to shift, since a lot of younger ones get stuck between the two stages, and the numbers of shifters is rapidly dwindling

some worlds, when having been without an Admin for long enough, goes Wrong.

world spawn is a natural part of the universe, and while some people have figured out a way to 'force' it, it's generally considered preferable to let one spawn naturally, and then claim it

fresh, newly spawned worlds, are rare, and widely sought after by the elite. unless you are rich as fuck, or extremely lucky, you will not be able to find one

Hardcore worlds are an anomaly, and should be treated with great caution

it's a widely held belief that, should one be able to figure out how, they can take the powers of an Ender Dragon for themselves

words cannot describe my sheer & desperate NEED for next year to be boring. PLEASE i need a boring year i will do anything

Thinking about Pokemon,,,

I have so many thoughts to share 👀

What a mood...Got a new art print available!

You can get it here!: 🌳🌲🌱🌲🌳

Here is what they don’t tell you:

Icarus laughed as he fell. Threw his head back and yelled into the winds, arms spread wide, teeth bared to the world.

(There is a bitter triumph in crashing when you should be soaring.)

The wax scorched his skin, ran blazing trails down his back, his thighs, his ankles, his feet. Feathers floated like prayers past his fingers, close enough to snatch back. Death breathed burning kisses against his shoulders, where the wings joined the harness. The sun painted everything in shades of gold.

(There is a certain beauty in setting the world on fire and watching from the centre of the flames.)

that concludes the meeting! <3

i dont think i will never tire of drawing c!tubbo,, hes just a funny guy :] (also i forgot his scars and wedding ring oops)