Its Early O Clock, I'm Here Unable To Sleep After 4 Hours Like A Crazy Person. I Made 2 Videos Last Night

Its early o clock, I'm here unable to sleep after 4 hours like a crazy person. I made 2 videos last night for my channel but I'm not sure why. I think it's mostly because I'm trying not to think of depression quest type shit my husband put me on. He brought up that he'd be crushed if we can't have a child, on top of bringing up the ages of both of our cats.

He has autism, so he kind of gets to bring up the stuff that I don't want to think or talk about it. I dont bring up a lot of my thoughts that bother me because I got some trauma, and only a few people are on my white list. You'd think a husband would be on it, but he's very emotionally sensitive, and I can't put his feelings first when I'm having my own. I'll deal with the negativity first of my feels, and then I'm in a better place to talk to him.

I dont and do mind it. I'm just in a weird place. I don't like to bring up the PTSD thing, but it adds like a coat or filter onto everything.

He's done some things that are shitty, not terrible or traumatizing, but I can't talk about my feels to save his.

Off-topic, I love helping artists see news that effects them when it comes to the AI thing, but now I need to post things that aren't that on my other channel. I shouldn't need validation, though , but I do, and it's annoying.

Fml lol also..morning. the upside is hearing my cats makes the waking up noises.