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Day 4: divine beings

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Dazai NO

the scrunkles... the blorbos...

there’s something very wrong with me, it’s called ‘I don’t want to do anything, ever’ and they said it’s chronic

atsushi is actually the most relatable character in bsd because i, too, have a dazai osamu in my brain who speaks to me when things get bad

lazy tuesday drawing

i just finished the story uuhghghh she's so pretty

For those of you who may not be too familiar with the manga, during ch39: Portrait of a Father, Akutagawa shows up, as Dazai's informant, to give Atsushi documents about who the orphanage headmaster was and what happened to him.

At that moment, Akutagawa shows an uncharacteristic clemency towards Atsushi, saying that "Atsushi's master died today", and compares this to his own relationship with Dazai.

This was a long time ago now, and a lot has happened since. The Cannibalism arc is right after this, where they are very antagonistic towards each other, and includes this scene:

Akutagawa, despite his bitterness towards Atsushi for who he is to Dazai, has seen how similar they are in this sense. Atsushi hasn't, because his gratefulness towards Dazai prevents him from seeing that Akutagawa's experience was completely different with this same person. (he's also not given any time by the narrative to wonder about it)

but then just came along chapter 122!!!

Atsushi gets to see, 1:1, the relationship between Akutagawa and Dazai. For the first time, Akutagawa is relatable to him.

And of course, at the end, Atsushi calls out the illusion as being the headmaster wearing Dazai's face because we are closing this loop! We are forcing Atsushi to see Akutagawa the same way Akutagawa has been seeing him!

Really treading the line of what’s art and not, huh?

Today's Sigma is: throwing up from anxiety

atsushi is someone who chooses kindness because he doesn't want to be the kind of person the headmaster raised him to be

except, of course, if you piss him off enough and suddenly he's like if the mean girl bully from your high school becomes your therapist