Irls And Fictionkins And Fictives Deserve Love And Happiness And The Entire World Tbh

i spent so much fucking time on this

sorry i dont have anywhere else to post this. tw for threats of violence.. and me venting

mom wonders why i dont tell her things. i mention intrusive thoughts and she thinks its from YouTube when i dont watch things like that. or how i have poor memory. now she is wanting to get an electric pattle and or taser so she can sap me everytime "i forgot"..

ive been diagnosed with adhd and several other things but she thinks its bullshit because of an issue she caused. aka too much internet at a young age. but its not. ive experienced these symptoms for my whole life but ive masked because dispite my mom being physically disabled she is abliest. its ok for her to forget and lash out, feel worthless and shit but when i, a 17 year old who has tried multiple times to kms, had multiple panic attacks and memories i know happened but always gets met with a "i never said that" or "that never happened.".. so know i cant tell what really happened 5 minutes ago or not.

i mentioned i have intrusive thoughts and she snapped at me "no you dont this is bullshit"....

i so badly wanted to say "oh, so you've never one thought of stabbing yourself well holding a knife? or someone else. oh or turning the car into the other lane?". why doesn't she understand that intrusive thoughts are a part of the illnesses i have, that she cant read my fucking mind and that I'm the one that has to live with my thoughts. not her.

i hate her and i want to move out but i can't because i just cant live alone, i cant go out alone for two long without having a panic attack. god i just wish i took the chances to leave when i could. but NO i was too worried, dwelling on what she said years ago. that being "if you leave ill kill myself".

i just want out. i want to be useful. i want to be like everyone else and be able to function...

facts about age swap frisk, chara and monster kid! also explaining about the player....

also tw for parental death.

frisk!-

they are 14. they were 10 when the fell down.

frisk was born a girl but is non-binary. they use they/them pronouns but are ok with any other the she/her.

they did start and nearly finshed a genocide run but broke down when sans showed them genuine kindness. (yes toriel and papyrus did but it didnt feel like it to frisk at the time).

frisk isnt actually controlled by the player. the player's puppet falls down when frisk is 15 and is controling a character they name.

frisk wasnt abused physically by their parents but extremely bullied at school and felt like the black sheep out of their cousins. if only they knew what happened to their parents after then fell down mout ebott.

frisk is actually distantly related to chara.

frisk fell down in 2110.

they primarily live with sans and papyrus well toriel and asgore sort out their problems.

frisk can use magic and is able to pick up on it easily. including uncommon things like sans' short cuts and papyrus' gravity defining magic.

they have dyslexia so chara, the ghost of a 6 year old, had to read and translate signs for them.. lets just say toriel was able to actually meet frisk at the leaf puzzle and help them through the rest... on the pacifist route. on genocide chara refused to help....

frisk is smart, just with more hands on things.

they take pride in being independent. that being said they struggling with asking for help and accepting they can't do everything by themselves.

they are best friends with monster kid, who is slowly helping frisk with letting loose.

frisk is doing better in monster school then they did in human school.

frisk sometimes steels sans' smokes and booze to use. if they dont they go to to grillbys.

chara!-

chara is intelligent for a 6 year old.

when chara notices someone is upset they will leave a flower were the person can see it. do not ask how.

chara can now leave frisk's side again and float around the underground but chara can still feel what frisk feels and tastes what frisk tastes.

that being said when chara feels upset, mad or angry flowers and flower petals appear around both of theirs location.

chara's birth sex as been long forgotten.

chara was a daddy's kid, clingy to asgore's well they were alive. they love toriel its just asriel wasn't really close with asgore and chara felt bad so they vowed to themselves they would be asgore's little one.

chara can posses frisk's body but doesn't do it often.

chara has a purple cape with a gold emblem.

chara makes themselves known to everyone by doing harmless pranks..

monster kid!-

monster kid goes by MK for short.

monster kid is an orphan in this au, however no one knows as he never reported them falling down or dying.

monster kid was never given a proper name.

monster kid is the same age as frisk. 14 years old..

monster kid is street smart. yes he is book smart but he its not his strongest point.

MK is frisk's best friend, the one to talk them down from something stupid or help them relax well also bring them smiles and laughter.... and pranks wars. lost of prank wars...

MK had wings but they got crushed by bolders after he took a nap on a water fall... there was no way to repair them so they had to be amputated... now he keeps them on his wall above his bed.

MK is always optimistic....

he doesn't remember resets but he does get dajv. when frisk killed him on the genocide run and yes they killed him as undyne didnt get their in time, he cried saying "mom? dad? is that you?" before turning to dust.

he isn't the most magical gifted in most feilds of it.

MK can breath fire tho! and has two little nubs were horns will grow..

MK uses He/they/it/zem.

MK is a stoner. it started off only at night to help them sleep but now its a all day thing.

same here.

Lustfell Sans, aka Jam

Like his classic counterpart, Lustfell Sans is lazy, gross, and a pretty weird guy. He is considered ‘unattractive’ by most monsters, because he doesn’t put any effort into his appearance or mannerisms. He’s just himself. But he still fucks a lot. He’s very talented and surprisingly active in bed, often surprising his partners by his enthusiasm.

  He mainly uses sex as a tool for comfort and distraction. He is usually anxious and in his own head a lot, so the distraction of getting his dick sucked or making someone else repeatedly cum is very welcome. He’s a switch and he greatly enjoys teasing others, to the point of making them cry and beg.

Like most monsters in Lustfell, Sans is a sadomasochist. He doesn’t seek power, but he enjoys it when he has it. He will always have Papyrus’s back and will not hesitate in protecting him, even if that means murder. But he’s so lazy and perpetually exhausted that he rarely gets into physical altercations. He’d rather sass someone off and teleport the fuck outta there.

He enjoys making dirty jokes, especially knock knock jokes. He’s always too hot and wears fur-lined boots to keep his socks dry as he marches around in the snow, trying to cool off. He doesn’t cook often, but he does enjoy baking, especially fruit pies. He plays the saxophone, which always annoys his brother, even if he’s playing well. He drinks hot sauce, his favorites being Tabasco and sriracha. He dumps it on all of Pap’s meals, which also annoys him.

Sans is aware that he is in a shitty smut AU that I created, and he fucking hates me for it. This has caused him to have existential crises on the reg and to occasionally break the 4th wall. He knows you’re reading this and he absolutely wants to fuck you (if, y’know, you’re into that). he is especially attracted to humans and he’s a chubby chaser. he jokes that they’re ‘easier to catch.’

pouded orgy mummy butt.

i sure hope not!

ok bud this one seems accurate

Reblog if you’re polyamorous, support polyamorous people, or think polyamorous people and relationships are valid

"i picked them up at your mom's house after screwing your dad. now are you going to take it and give me my money or revenge on someone i hate or what?"

“Look,” said the demon. “This is the 13th time you’ve summoned me to sell your soul. My boss wants to know where you’re getting all these souls.”

Blue, after learning that Ink also speaks French: Do you think Ink thinks in English or French?

Dream: Bold of you to assume Ink thinks.

some more facts about age swap papyrus.(comment if you can read yhe picture writing and ill type that out)

ive chaged his age since the original video. he is 26 years old.

he does his first patrol at 6am, his second at 12pm and his last one 6pm unless stated or requested otherwise by a snowdin resident,fellow guard member, undyne or asgore. however he will not go on patrols at 7-8am, 2 pm or 5pm as those are spent having meals and making sure sans eats something.

he is more of a father figure to frisk, orphaned monster children or monster children without good father figure in their life.

he is actually a pretty good cook, he just doesn't havethe energy to cook every night... unless he notices frisk or sans hasn't been eating/avoiding food. then its homecooked meals every night (catering to the preferences as he isnt an asshole).

he is actually friends with mettaton and knows who he was before becoming mettaton.

papyrus knows about the amalgats only because sans broke down and told him a week later.

he will only take a fight with you seriously on a genocide run. and if thats the case think of the difficulty of sans and undyne the undying fights mixed with heart breaking and guilt dill dialogue. he'll say things like "if only i could have protect them."

"their kids, parents, spouses... they never got to say goodbye.."

then near the end when he realizes he is going to lose he start tearing up, still giving his all. but things would be more personally to him and sans. with mentions of their dad, gaster.

"im sorry i cant protect him like i promised you."

"his first steps, his first use of magic.. his first word.."

"do you want to know what it was?.. he was trying to say MY Name. not dada.. papy.. he tried to say papyrus!..."

" im sorry we couldn't see the stars, sans.. maybe in another timeline, another life.."

"he is the only reason im still holding you back! for a chance of him surviving!"..

then his final words can be a range of things, including what classic papyrus says.. but it all depends on how many genocide runs you've done.

the first one is classic papyrus' line "i still believe in you, even if you don't think you can change."

second- "please human, i know you can still be good."

third- "do you enjoy this?... playing god?..."

fourth- "please dont hurt my brother...."

fifth- "if you think id give up after all of these runs, your wrong"..

sixth- "see you next run."

seventh- "seven.. seven times you have done this all.. is it because i keep saying new lines?".

then it repets that line but countint up until the twentieth time..

twentieth- "nope.. it wasn't that... "

twenty first- "my poor brother..."

twenty second- (he just sobs...)

the rest is up to your imagination. it could be the dusttale for age swap or not...

papyrus, if drained of energy, he will shower with clothes on.

he still collect sexy robot action figures.

after multiple genocide runs you have to gain his trust back. that doesn't mean he won't help you, but you wont be allowed in their house.

So like my video says, toriel and asgore would be uneffected.

If your wondering why chara and frisk swap ages and not chara and asriel, that is because i thonk chara and asriel are too close in age to actaul be diffrent.

Since i can only post one video per post the next two post will be about chara and frisk.