Rlly Need Someone To Motivate Me In A Toxic Way. Like Borderline Toxic Telling Me To Stop Thinking About

say no to food

say no so your clothes will finally fit the way you want them to

say no so you become prettier

say no so everyone around you who thought you couldn’t lose weight is proven wrong

say no so your posts are flooded with compliments

say no so people no longer subtly look down on you for being fat

163. :D How did you do?

Day 2 of liquid fast. Got woke up a bunch last night by weather alarms but didnt have a tornado. Im so tired. Busy day yesterday, busier day today. Should keep my mind off food. @fluxusesque how's yours going?

Didnt lose as much as i hoped from being sick. i need some motivation, i guess.

Hello there

I'm looking for moots! Reblog if you're an active account as of December 2024 💓 it's a little bit lonely on here 🥺

Minors DNI!!

Tree roots following the pattern of concrete footpaths

Where are all my adult anas?

It's a different world stepping into Eds shoes again half way through life.

I don't have to worry about my parents getting mad at me

I don't have to worry about my school teachers getting mad at me

I don't have the typical teenage drama that spurred this mentality shift

I remember Ed being a call a shout for help just to be seen and cared for as a teenager. But now no one sees me, I have no watchful eyes on me. No one whispering under their breath, no parents staring at me across the dinner table as I play with a half eaten plate, no boy trouble or pubescent drama fueled by hormonal rage and indifference. I'm not doing this to impress the boy I like or try to fit in with the popular kids.

I am invisible

Except from myself.

I'm in a strange state of visible translucency. I tell people I'm fasting and they believe me, I tell people I'm too tired to come meet them for dinner they believe me.

Fuck, even my live out partner whose been here for the last 3 days who I have said the words 4norexi4 to and who has watched me consume nothing but tea for 3 days doesn't question my choices.

How different a world it is when you're seen but not seen. I am validated but I remain a shadow.

Shout out to the 4n4 girlies (and guys) who ARENT anywhere close to societally presentable as 4n4.

The ones who go to the doctor and get told to keep losing weight

The ones whose family hasn’t gotten worried yet

The ones who feel like they can’t mention 4n4 without being disbelieved/told they should starve more.

I see you and I hear you and you’re valid.