Using Men's Inability To Love To Satisfy My Own Death Fantasy

Have I gone round the bend?

Someone posted this in my discord chat the other day and I’ve been thinking about it nonstop bc this girl is the most correct girl I’ve seen in far too long and she’s right!

~becoming productive ~

set your goals-

what do you want to achieve?

what are your goals?

look at your life- what can you improve?

look at yourself- how can you improve?

start organizing your life-

look at your goals and establish habits to achieve them

clean your room and environment

delete old apps

remove toxic people

unfollow accounts that make you feel negative

turn off electronics to clear your mind

consistency over intensity-

stick with the habits you’ve decided on

make little changes to your life everyday- something easy, like reading 10 minutes a day

find ways to attain your goals and your new healthy habits

stay motivated-

remember WHY you started

review your goals

surround yourself with positivity- positive quotes, positive people, positive accounts

I cry when it's dark out, I cry because I am overwhelmed. I cry because it's not fair. I cry never ending tears. I want to curl up and never leave my bed, it's all a bit much. I know nothing and everything all at once and I feel completely unravelled by it. Vulnerability and intimacy are meant to make you softer more pliable, instead my insides feel like lead and my head is bursting with water. I keep saying the affirmations, I go and work my body ragged but still so violently bad at life. I cry because it's supposed to make me feel better but all I feel is insane and guilty because I do not think I deserve to cry. I am at a better place than most people in the world and yet I feel completely in the shutter. God please unburden me, fix me, fix me, fix me

Do you ever feel like SHIT? Like life is moving so fast, and you’re stuck, tired, or completely drained? cuz same 🙋🏻‍♀️. That’s why I started looking into Japanese and Chinese habits—because I'm searching for slow down type of lifestyle, finding balance, and creating small moments of peace in the dawm chaos. Now, I know some of y’all will say, 'It’s overrated, you’re just obsessed with China or Japan,' but hear me out these habits aren’t about trends—they’re rooted in centuries and they’ve genuinely helped me improve both physically and mentally. If you’re ready to stop just surviving and start thriving, keep reading. These little changes might just change your life too.

Little Habits, Big Glow: Japanese & Chinese Traditions That Changed My Life

First off, warm water in the MORNING. I used to roll out of bed and go straight for coffee or cold ass water cuz my throat is DRYYYY , and honestly, my body hated me for it fr. But then I read about how in Chinese medicine, drinking warm water first thing in the morning is seen as a way to wake up your body gently. And let me tell you, IT WORK. No bloating, no sluggishness—just a simple, calming way to start the day. Sometimes I add a slice of lemon, and it feels like I’m doing something kind for my body before I even check my phone

Two Ikigai.( I talked Abt Ikigai and how to achieve this concept click here!) Japanese concept changed the way I see my day-to-day life. It’s basically finding purpose in the little things—like, not waiting for some huge life-changing moment to feel fulfilled. I used to put so much pressure on myself, thinking I needed to achieve these massive goals to be happy. But Ikigai taught me to slow down and find joy in small things, like enjoying my morning tea or journaling. It’s a game-changer for anyone who feels like they’re always chasing something bigger.

Another thing I’ve started doing is Tai Chi or qing gong. I know I know—it looks slow and kind of boring, but hear me out. It’s like moving meditation, and if you’re someone who struggles with anxiety (like meeey), this will center you like nothing else. It’s not about burning calories or anything like that; it’s about connecting your body and mind in the most peaceful way. Even just 10 minutes a day leaves me feeling lighter and more focused. (Click here to watch a video of it) When I first started, I thought, 'This is way too slow for me.' But then something clicked. The slowness is the point. It forces you to focus on your breathing, your posture, and every little movement. It’s like a moving meditation that clears your mind while strengthening your body.

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I agree 100 percent, they need to pay because all she did was give them exactly what they wanted and it's still not enough. They literally just want to consume her whole and it's getting on my nerves.

jiwon is literally innocent in all of this...

her dad is the only good person in her life and he died

her best friend... has been plotting her downfall from the jump. a true OP... like she was TAKING A NAP ON THE BUS nd sis sat down next to her... stole her wallet and then pretended to find it and come to her rescue.

jiwon needs to hook up with my girl from the glory cus the revenge needs to be even more dramatic. we gotta stop pulling punches. put them hoes in the ground

Suddenly awake and super aware of my reality

I'm laughing but ain't shit funny

I said some possibly hurtful things to my bff. I don't know, after years of living her life elsewhere I feel used when she wants to be with me now that I am conveniently there. I just don't understand friendships, they are so weird.

Opening up to someone and being vulnerable seems great on paper but looking into their eyes and opening that door to that dark room in your mind. It feels like labor pains.