RUGGIES CHAPTER 7 CARD!!

im so mentally ill BUT I PROMISE I WONT RANT ONLY ABOUT THE SCARABIA DUO'S TRAUMA IN HERE..

... that being said... (god i'm awful)

Seeing that we see Jamil's childhood and all his memories of being told to be subordinate, it's safe to say that Jamil is less affected by dissociative amnesia, aka traumatic-memory-repressing.

However, does this mean that even though he probably has some repressed memories about his childhood and traumatic experiences, he also remembers some of them?

What if he's the only one who really knows what Kalim has been through? But because of their tragic relationship, he's unable to admit that he feels sorry for Kalim, because in some sense (THAT HE'S TECHNICALLY RIGHT ABOUT), Kalim is the reason for his trauma too.

Both him and Kalim were never able to have normal childhoods, but beyond normalizing this idea, they both struggle to accept the fact that they didn't have it worse than the other.

Kalim deals with this struggle more easily, as you see him developing these realizations through out the main story line, like in book 5 - 30. In fact, he almost immediately forgoes this idea after Jamil stops overblotting, offering Jamil a choice that takes his traumatic past into consideration, while allowing them to still continue a relationship of some sorts. Meanwhile, Jamil has had less/little development on this. He did have a really nice moment in book 5-10 talking to Azul, but other than that, I really haven't seen more moments of his development, which I find rather disappointing on twst's part. I'd really like a nice moment, whether between Jamil and someone else (like the MC), or maybe even between him and Kalim, where he does atleast acknowledge this idea (Kalim having trauma) without compromising the truth that he has also been wronged.

In the end, I doubt this will ever happen, but a girl can dream.. I atleast wish that the fans wouldn't make their relationship in the fandom competitive in regards to "who's-more-traumatized". This isn't a debate, there doesn't need to be a right answer.

BRO.. 💀

I REITERATE MY POINT DAWG 😭 MF'S LITERALLY THAT MEME THAT'S LIKE "my eyebags are specifically designed to carry the weight of my existence" 💀💀

y'all.. what is going on in leona's dream.. 💀

are you telling me that he's SO DEPRESSED, THAT EVEN IN HIS DREAM HE ISN'T HAPPY?? WHAT THE FU- THAT'S SO SAD TWST STOP MAKING OUR BOYS SAD 😭 (i feel like the story's explanation of the situation makes a little sense, but not enough, and as a cynical/jaded leona kin, this is so avidly depressing-)

MAKING WHAT IS A DEAD CHEKA REANIMATED (a puppet controlled by ruggie's um) IN ORDER TO WAKE UP LEONA IS ACTUALLY CRAZY.. 💀💀 i feel like they took the first situation of leona's dream and his whole family being dead way too lightly, even if it isn't real- 😭

i don't understand how the kifaji in his dream gained consciousness or whatever, but it actually made me tear up a little bit seeing leona send him off after defeating his overblot form 😭 😭

I also think that his rather lackluster reaction to Malleus doing all of this makes sense, not only is he probably (internally) trying to process everything that's going on right now (me too cause this is some crazy matrix level stuff-), but he probably understands Malleus at least a little bit, when it comes to going to unimaginable lengths for the things you desire *COUGH* spelldrive tournament *COUGH* I MEAN WHO SAID THAT 💀💀

Edit: I saw this great animation of Leona and Malleus where Malleus had revealed himself to Leona in his dream and I had to share, IT'S ALSO ANIMATED TO RULER OF MY HEART SO ALIEN STAGE LOVERS??.. it's by luziia, who's art style is really nice, here's the link and a little preview! ^^ https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fMnS5suKfmo

NEW BIRTHDAY CARDS!!1!!

JADE MY BELOVED 😍😍😍 HES SO FINE RAUGHHHH SILK PAJAMAS ONLY FOR MY KING 🙏🙏 /j

Floyd wearing a hoodie is lowkey not what I expected but a tank top and some sweatpants? Absolutely Floyd's style.

YOU KNOW WHO THIS MF LOOK LIKE LOWKEY !? !?

LOOK 💀💀💀

.... IUASDJGSHJGADHJGAESDJHSD????

OHHHH MY GOD IM SO EXCITED WERE BACK WERE SO FUCKING BACK BRO FINALLY I WAITED SO LONG FOR A LIMITED EVENT JADE SSR THAT WAS ONE OF THOSE SMALL GROUP OF CHARACTERS EVENT AND FINALLY??? AND ITS CORAL SEA ANOTHER EVENT IE WANTED FOR SO LONG???? AM I ANGRY IT DOESNT SEEM TO BE UNDERWATER/MERMAID EVENT?? KINDA BUT WHO THE FUCK CARES BRO ALL MY DREAMS HAVE COME TRUE AJHSEBDDFHBABJAHDSFJBHADFS 😭😭😭😭😭

MY MAN MY MAN MY MANNNNN MY HUSBAND LOOKS SO DAMN GOOD IN HIS SUIT AND TURTLE NECK AND THE BROOCH?? IDK WHOS DAMN WEDDDING IT IS BUT IM HOPING ITS OURS BC 😭😭😭 AUGHHHHH I CANT DO THIIS ANYMORE HE LOOKS SO GOOD *cries ugly tears* RAGHHHHHHHHHH

PLEASE TWST PLEASE LET US HAVE A MERMAID CARD OR SEOMTHING PLEASE LET US SEE THE TWEELS PARENTS GOD IM BEGGING YOU AND PLEASEEEEE MAKE JADE THE MAIN CHARACTER. PUTTING CHARACTERS LIKE MALLEUS AND RIDDLE IN HERE BRO- HE NEEDS THIS HE NEEEEDS THIS HES WAITED SO DAMN LONG LET HIM HAVE HIS MOMENT AND HIS SPOTLIGHT

IM LEGTI SHAKING BRO HE LOOKS SO GOOD AND IM SO HYPE FOR THIS EVENT AND THE NEW CARD STYLE IS SO ETHEREAL ON HIM I SWEAR THEIR ART ONLY GETS BETTER AND BETTER BRO THE LIGHTING AND THE BACKGROUND ITNERACTION??? THE SHEER CURTAIN???? HE LOOKS SO GOOD GOD PLEASEEEE

the disparity between idia's new card and sprite goes crazy- 💀💀

no bc in here he just looks like ur regular otaku with the messy room n stuff- 😭😭

and then there's..

BRO LOOK AT HIM HE IS NOT OKAY 💀💀 THOSE EYEBAGS ARE ACTUALLY CRAZY BRO HE'S GOTTA HAVE THAT TOP TIER VIL BRAND MAKEUP IN ORDER TO COVER THOSE UP 💀 BC WHAT IS THIS

oh honey.. 😭😭

someone call vil cause this is a fashion emergency 😭🚨‼️ WHY DID TWST PUT NO EFFORT INTO THIS BC I COULD LITERALLY RECREATE IT ON IBIS PAINT IN 30 SECONDS- AND HE DOESNT EVEN LOOK GOOD BRO IM ACTUALLY CRYING 💀💀 ITS PISS YELLOW

twst has actually been flopping with the dreams bc what is this?? why is he a gangster again, i thought he wouldnt want to be? i thought his dream would be his dad coming back so he wouldn't have to step up as the man of the family, or just him not having violent tendencies and being liked by everyone in his home town- 😭 between this, jade, and kind of leona, twst is not eating down rn.. (i haven't seen a translation for cater's yet so it BETTER be good or im gonna flip out-)

So.. about Jamil's dream..

(spoilers for chapter 7 scarabia stuff under the cut!!)

Everyone's been talking about how much it would hurt to be punched by Kalim with his bangles and jewelry on, but can we talk about the SOUND? like im just realizing that their fight during book 7 probably sounded an awful lot like this 💀:

"YOU A**HOLE, I HATE HOW TWO FACED YOU ARE!!"

*jingle jingle* 

"YOU JUST REALIZED IT NOW HUH, YOU INSENSITIVE B*STARD?!!"

*jingle jingle jingle*

"DONT WORRY ABOUT THAT YOU SARCASTIC IDIOT!!"

*the sound of jingling intensifying*

I get between the shouting and all, you wouldn't be able to hear it all that well, but I would be trying so hard not to laugh if I heard the the equivalent of "keys! keys!! *aggressive keychain shaking*" play out while i watched somebody deck their best friend in the face 😭

lowkey was really lazy and forgot to post about this but lilia deserves all the love 🖤

Ngl there were MULTIPLE routes for twst to go down for his sleeping wear, and while i am a little disappointed that he doesn't wear a onesie, i do think this is very funny for him to be wearing a modern gamer fit (IT REMINDS ME OF THE CREEPER HOODIE THOSE 5TH GRADERS USED TO WEAR DO YALL SEE THE VISION)

lilia living up to his title as both a gamer and (long overdue) a vampire (that one meme about him being dracula's bi cousin iarchmybacula 😭)

AHHH the bow headband AND his messy hair are so cute fr (I CANT UNSEE THAT DAMN CREEPER HOODIE)