Spectrespeaks - 🥀

We mostly joke around on this blog but can someone unironically mail me prescription amphetamines

why the fuck are you all i think about it's been over a year since we've been together and were still best friends but god all i fucking want is you and i fucked it all up and it's all my fault that we're not even together anymore because i couldn't love you in the way you needed to be loved and it fills my heart so impossibly full to see you happy with him but fuck it makes me the most miserable ive ever felt because i know i'll always be alone i'll never have what i had with you again and i don't think im ever gonna forgive myself for giving you up but you deserved better than me for a lover goodnight tumblr

No babe, ur knife collection is totally cool I just think it’d be hotter with my blood on it

If soulmates exist at all, I pity mine because I'm definitely not worth waiting for.

im doing it again. i can feel it.

i'm much too excited anytime i get a notification. and then hit with a disappointment so intense that it's crippling when i realize it's not you.

i'm starting to think that the void in my chest of wanting to be understood is never going to be actually properly filled in. just sort of painted over in an attempt to conceal the big gaping wound of a hole in the wall like how landlords do to shitty apartments.

i don't know why i choose to spend my time here. waiting for others who aren't waiting for me. hoping that in every stranger i meet, there is someone who will really get me and understand the things that go on inside my brain.

when tumblr dies i'll live under your bed and you can say out loud what you would post and i will say LIKE or REBLOG it'll be just like we're still here

Tell you what, being constantly misunderstood your whoooole life really makes it hard not to just be the awful, angry person they already assume you are.

yeah no it's totally cool that you left me on read for 6+ hours after i finally reached out to you after an of entire week not speaking im totally not frothing at the mouth or anything

No ones responding therefore I should die