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Latest Posts by spenciil - Page 3
Don't be rude.
The sketch looked so much better........
final night
im new at tumblr and im also not sure how it works so its my first post here ever hiiiii
The emotional breakdown later in the chapter will get most of the attention, but for my money, this is the most revealing moment in this week's chapter. A teenager so disconnected from his real emotions that he desperately rationalizes his hypersexuality not as a coping mechanism, but as 'this is what guys are like.'
It's easy to make fun of men for burying their emotions and then asking, 'why doesn't anyone know who I really am' - hell, Denji literally does that during the Bomb Girl arc - but Denji is a pretty direct criticism of both the way boys can get forced into unhealthy gender roles, and the way men self-regulate themselves and others into them.
The other boys Denji is with don't have the problem of being horny at inappropriate times. They have WAY bigger problems.
But Denji can't think properly when someone dangles the idea of sex in front of him. It's like a switch flips and he becomes a completely different person.
He shuts down and reverts to trying to embody masculine stereotypes he's been ingrained with, both through the social conditioning of growing up male in the 90s and the psychological conditioning Makima put him through to strengthen 'Chainsaw Man' - itself a hyper-masculine ideal that a human being physically cannot measure up to - and emotionally cripple Denji.
Denji is at his happiest when he's at rest with the people he loves. Power and Aki were not always easy to be around, but they loved him back and they wanted him to be happy. Nayuta is a child who doesn't understand her place in the world - how could she - but she earnestly wants to help her big brother as best as she can.
He isn't some cock-swinging alpha badass constantly on the prowl to crush puss, but for a lot of people - especially a teenager who was groomed to be an expendable child soldier - this unhealthy masculine 'ideal' isn't just something to live up to, it's the expected norm for men to be.
Being Chainsaw Man doesn't make Denji mentally stronger. As shown in the Falling Devil fight, he literally chops up his brain with his chainsaws to avoid confronting his trauma. Whenever he has to think about what he's lost and what's still left to lose, he runs toward something he isn't and away from a 'normal,' healthy response to the issues at hand.
"You stupid boy."
You'll notice that Katana Man, a perfect embodiment of an overly masculine dickhead, a misogynistic moron who refuses to grow in character or even basic combat skills, is totally on board for throwing Denji in a brothel and letting what happens happens. Katana Man perfectly represents the bad ending where 'traditional masculinity' wins the war for Denji's soul.
Denji needs help. Not some quick gratification. Not a meal and a nut and a nap. He needs genuine help, and a better male role model than the ones he's got. Even Kishibe, the only adult in his life other than Aki who actually did more good than harm, is an alcoholic recluse.
God help the boy.
one of the greatest tragedies in life is that you will always be loved more than you will ever know. someone in class finds your presence inviting and warm, even if you’ve only ever exchanged a few words with them—maybe none at all. someone on the street loves your smile and it gets them down the next few streets. someone you used to be friends with still wishes to fondly call your name. someone you used to be friends with five years ago would give anything to be in the same room as you today. someone who regularly comes into work is disappointed when you aren’t there to brighten their day. someone missed you today. someone noticed you were gone. someone loves you when you’re there; someone loves you when you’re nowhere to be found at all. you think you have always disappeared when you’re no longer in the picture, but you’ve never left the frame.
Spinner having a crisis, not even able to speak or understaning what people are saying. But he still remembers who he is fighting for, for who's sake. His leader, his friend, the person who played video games with him even with a different appearence. That's who he remembers and fights for, a friend.
What i'm saying is, Spinner didn't flashback to when Shigaraki was destroying everything or when he was powerful as a leader, no. Spinner specificly flashback to when they talked about video games together, he prefers to remember back then when AFO wasn't around, when Twice was, when they were all peaceful and together. That's why he's fighting. For a friend, not a leader.
Once every month I open this app and post something then leave forever
cactiflower doodling? cactiflower doodling
Aye yo horikoshi, don't be a coward, make Rody Soul an official constant character in mha 😤😤😤😤
but how do you talk about togachako, write about them, this incredible queer love story,,, without talking about rejection and acceptance, about society's sins and the violence it spurns, about the love it takes to save everyone from that, about the unique and deviant ways to express love, about beauty not in spite of but because of the oddities??? how do you even begin to talk about togachako without talking about what it really means to love in a way society deems weird and wrong??
Shadow, one and the same Wonder, did you ever see my face? Shied away the pain But you coulda never known my name But you coulda never known my name But you coulda
tgck sketchbook doodles 😼