I Am T R A S H !!!!!!

I get that they think they are bringing me up by saying that, I do. But all I can feel is them dismissing the fact that I have ADHD and I cannot work the way I’m apparently supposed to. By saying this, they’re saying that I just have to keep pushing onwards the same way I always had to because I was able to do it before.

Going back to that car engine analogy thing…

My car engine is not working as is standard. It randomly shuts off. Trying to get it to turn back on is a pain. Sometimes, it manages to stay on for a while and I can get the car to move for a few miles, or kilometres or metres. But sometimes, it keeps shutting off as soon as I manage to turn it on. Or sometimes, it wouldn’t turn on at all, no matter what I try.

But I have to get to my destination. No matter what I have to get there. So I keep trying. I keep worrying about if I’m even going to make it there on time. Or at all.

Okay, I don’t know where I’m going with this but I feel like I have to write this for some reason

I remember when I was a teenager and kept insisting to my parents that there was something wrong with me because I couldn’t make myself study or do homework when I should and I was so stressed and anxious because I kept procrastinating, they kept telling me that I just need to train myself.

They compared it to a car engine for some reason, saying that when a car hasn’t been driven for a long time and you try to drive it, there are issues with the engine running, but if you drive it everyday then it runs smoothly. And that it was the same way with motivation and productivity, apparently.

Then I finally got diagnosed with ADHD

And somehow they have either forgotten or brushed aside all the times they’ve scolded me and argued with me, and now they are saying, “But you were able to do it! You should be proud!”

Mello: Haha, look at this loser. He wears the same clothes every day. Near: Wow, I didn't realize that you were so into me that you paid attention to my outfit every day. Mello: What? No. I'm not into you. Near: With my eyes closed, I can't even remember what I saw you wearing three seconds ago, because I don't care. Mello: Well, ah, no, I, I don't care either. Near: Then why would you remember what I wear every day? Are you obsessed with me? Can you not stop thinking about me? Are you in love with me? Mello: Stop bullying me. I feel bullied. (Source: 16 Personalities Getting BULLIED, School Bully Instantly Regrets It - Frank James)

After leaving the task force, Aizawa wouldn't stop complaining about L to Ide, to the point that Ide would know when he would start his rant and would try to leave the office as quickly as possible, maybe to get some coffee or something.

He couldn't believe it. It was like Tak all over again...

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