Every Time I Start To Feel Cringe For Being Too Deep In The Hyperfixation I Remember The Intense Depression

Hi Neil, I apologise in advance if this doesn't remotely make sense since I've had a few glasses of wine but I am Sad (big S). My best friend (who precedes me by 35 years) is dying, and is in a hospice as of today. I grew up without a dad but he's given me the chance to know what it's like to have one. I've told him as such, but I'm afraid of all the grief I'll feel once he's gone. All that love that I won't be able to put anywhere, what do I do with it??? I love him so much, and I'm putting on my bravest face for him, but I'm so scared.

Love (like all energy) cannot be destroyed. It simply changes into a different kind of love. Grief is real and love is real and missing people is real and none of your love for your friend will ever be wasted.

<3<3<3

REBLOG THIS IF YOU THINK THAT YOUR INTERNET FRIENDS DESERVE THE WORLD AND EVERYTHING BEYOND THAT.

Diagram of a fungal cell, the building block of all fungi and yeast :)

thinking about Good Omens 2. and stories, and the shape of them, and Terry Pratchett and his themes. and something clicked.

Aziraphale is cackling.

it's not just the ball. he spends the entire season trying to force the story into a shape it's not, and everyone suffers for it.

i've seen some less than charitable takes on Crowley's actions and they all ignore how much Crowley did try to talk to Aziraphale, did try to ask Aziraphale questions, did try to help, only to be ignored or brushed off. because his questions, his offers, they didn’t fit with the story Aziraphale was telling himself.

quiet, gentle, and romantic. it was, if you're our favorite Angel - right up until the end, at least. because he decided that's the story he was in. from the very beginning, he's off in la-la land, living out this romcom with a cute little mystery wrapped up in it, completely ignoring what's actually going on around him. i'll set Nina and Maggie up! (completely ignoring that Nina tells him she has a partner, and at that point, he has no reason to think she's anything less than happy.) i'll take ~our~ car to go do investigate this silly little mystery (he's not taking it even a little bit seriously!) while you stay here and run the bookshop and it will be so quaint and domestic! soon we'll dance and confess our feelings that we obviously share because we're already so clearly a couple we just need to finally say it!

Crowley knows the entire time that they're in a horror story but Aziraphale ignores every attempt he makes to point that out because it doesn't fit the story he decided he's in the middle of.

he brushes off Crowley's concerns and questions - his QUESTIONS! - like they're nothing. he doesn't want to see it, so he doesn't. and Crowley should have told him more?

why would he?

when you are CLEARLY in distress and it's being BLATANTLY AND WILLFULLY IGNORED, what the fuck are you supposed to do? "Crowley didn't comminicate" well okay if I were having a panic attack about something and my husband completely ignored it, chattering on about our dinner plans or whatever, that wouldn’t exactly make me want to open up about what was wrong! that would send the very fucking clear signal that he didn't want to know!

words aren't the only way we communicate and Crowley's body language, the entire season, is that of someone who is living in a horror story, knows he's living in a horror story, and is fucking terrified. if Aziraphale were paying any attention to Crowley instead of focusing all his energy trying to set things up just so for the big climax of his love story, he would know something major was wrong.

why would Crowley have told him how cruel Gabriel was about the execution when Aziraphale's already so thoroughly convinced that heaven is pure and good and has shown over and over through the millennia that he's not really open to considering that it can be cruel!

just look at them at the dance. Crowley freaking out because there's a horde of demons out there and Aziraphale giggling as they go to dance. that's the whole season!

you know who Crowley reminds me of this season?

he's watching helplessly and with increasing levels of distress as Aziraphale shoves every plot point into the romcom hole even though it's obviously not remotely romcom shaped! and i'm sick of people saying he was abusive because he raises his voice about it a few times!

Updated version of yesterday’s piece

Might make a Misa and Light to match, we’ll see

me on my day off: I've got a whole list of tasks and I'm gonna-

adhd: hey! over here 🪤

Favorite Tumblr stories

All of the "humans are space orcs/space Australians"

But Especially the one that ends with "we're the Doctors Without Borders and we're here to help"

"can I ask you a question? ...what was your favorite thing to learn about as a kid?" Tiktok, in which I am both of them

Stabby the Roomba

Todd, the Demon Grandson and his myopic grandmother, and their seven season story arc

The God of Arepo (and the comic that was made from it)

New one: "may you have a life of safety and peace" said the witch, to the warrior, with his dying breath

And the SEQUEL

Concept: Pirates slay a monster mermaid to steal its treasure chest. Pirates open chest, finds a sleepy baby mermaid within. Monster mermaid was using the treasure chest as a cradle. Pirates: 😳😳😳

Cinderella and her face-blind prince

The comic, There Are No Nazis in Valhalla

Beau FUCKING Brummell and modern men's fashion

"I give regular Coke to skinny bitches who order diet hahahaha" DON'T DO THIS

This Irish hard-shoe dancer, Elizabeth Bullock

Big joy and small joy are the same

The bees will know: inkskinned honey jars

If fantasy creatures had Tumblr discourse

Ballerina Spiderman Miles Morales: "don't YEET the ballerina"

Steve Rogers wakes up "in the hospital"

The "Miette post" & its spiritual successors

Batman + Bruce Wayne "the butts match"

What if Bruce Wayne met Zuko? And Iroh met Alfred, and...

Venus of Willendorf and other paleolithic goddess/fertility figures sculpted by women using their own body as model

Living in a city with superheroes. (3 parts so far!

The A-ha Take On Me dancers tik tok

Chickens will sit on any egg if broody enough. Even an orphaned dragon egg (how DID that get in the brood box?)

Dragon stories from @microsff

Gonna pin this one and start adding links and updates.

🎁 Happy Birthday @madamsugarskull! 🎁

If it didn’t before it does now. This is how I see it going:

Light and Sayu are not just close siblings, they are best friends.

Sayu adores her brother, she is his number one fan and will cheer him on no matter what. He is someone she would never have to worry about bothering because she knows she can come to him for anything. She can’t find it in herself to be jealous of her older brother for being smarter than her when he’s the one person who sees her as anything special.

Light adores his sister, but more than that, she is someone he can open up to. She is someone that he trusts enough and is comfortable enough with to show the parts of himself that he doesn’t let anybody else see, and know that she wouldn’t think any less of him for it.

So when he finds the death note and is struck by the realisation that he killed two people, he immediately goes to Sayu. She is there for him as he spirals into feeling like he has to use the notebook to get rid of all evil. She comforts him and sympathises with him, she knows her brother and why he feels like he has to twist the narrative. But she also talks him out of it.

Her brother is the best person in the world in her eyes, but unlike everyone else seems to, she knows he isn’t perfect and it’s her job to talk him out of crazy ideas that wouldn’t lead to anything good.

I’ve seen Sayu Is Kira AU and Sayu Helps Light Be Kira AU but what about Sayu Stops Light Before He Becomes Kira AU??

My OC NaRi 

She’s in my one shot ‘Gold Digger?’ (and technically mentioned in ‘I thought you were my friend...’) :D