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i've come to realize there are only two kinds of tragedies: preventable and inevitable. preventable tragedies are the kind where everything could have maybe worked out if only. if only romeo had gotten the second letter. if only juliet had woken up earlier. if only creon had changed his mind about antigone sooner. if only orpheus hadn't turned around.

inevitable tragedies are the kind where everything was always going to end terribly. of course macbeth gets deposed, he murdered his way to the throne. of course oedipus goes mad, he married his own mother. of course achilles dies in the war, he had to fulfill the prophecy in order to avenge his lover.

both kinds have their merits. the first is more emotionally impactful, letting the audience cling to hope until the very end, when it's snatched away all at once leaving nothing but a void. the second is more thematically resonant, tracking an inherent fatal flaw in its hero to a natural and understandable conclusion, making it abundantly clear why everything has to happen the way it does.

A Burst of Light, Audre Lorde

Hello and welcome!

Replacing my pinned with a list of the stuff I've written for anyone checking my account out. Heh. Everything is sorted by fandom, and then word count! (And if there's something I should add to the tagging, please feel free to send me a message about it so I can make the edits.) Enjoy... hopefully!

RWRB

some part of me came alive - 10,979 words [college-ish AU, 5+1]

"Bye David." David's head snaps back to Alex's direction, eyebrows furrowed ever so slightly you'd think it wasn't even there. Alex, having just removed his glasses again as he yawns once more, doesn't see it. David takes a couple seconds before slightly shaking his head, like he's just imagining something and is now actively wiping the thought away. He opens the door before he responds. "Bye Alex."

(Or: The five times Alex unintentionally calls Henry by his dog’s name, and the one time he does it on purpose.)

Francesca - 10,189 words [graphic depictions and references of violence/abuse/injuries]

Once, in a much worse place before all of this; Alex had worked for someone with one side of his office overflowing with books. He'd read all sorts of things there: Anatomy, selected works in philosophy, Oliver Twist, war hero accounts, law. Anything he could get a hold of in the dark, really. Among those books were a bible. There's a passage there that stuck— something he'd only read past but had barraged into the walls of Alex's mind three years ago, Book of Jeremiah, chapter 17, verse 9: The heart is more deceitful than anything else and is desperate. Who can know it?

Love Songs in the Key of Liam - 8,152 words [Liam POV/centric, 5+1]

It's fucked. He's fucked — Liam, that is. There was no way this was going to work. Ever. What's the next worst thing to growing up closeted in a typically close-minded neighbourhood? Probably developing a crush on your best friend who lives in said neighbourhood. (Or: The five times love songs reminded Liam of his now estranged best friend, and the one time it reminded him of someone else.)

Terrible Things - 4,038 words [Hanahaki AU, hurt/no comfort]

"How long?" That, he can answer. "A year or so." He croaks out, not really wanting to strain himself any further.

water in my hands - 3,521 words [sickfic(?), has references to illness, hurt/no comfort]

It takes Alex a good amount of time to realise; sometimes love just isn't enough to keep the world going, even if he desperately wanted it to.

no question (he'll hold your heart if you let him) - 2,837 words [June POV/outsider POV, post-canon]

June doesn't think much about it at first, putting the box along the pile, but she belatedly realises what it is and gets an idea. A satisfied grin makes its way onto her lips when she finally finds it, an edition of Astrotalk that detailed star sign compatibilities. June doesn't open the magazine all the way to the Libra section, stopping short at someone else's instead. (Or: June finds a box that contained one of her teenage fixations and goes through it for old time's sake.)

Smoke Slow - 2,026 words [shotgun kissing oneshot basically]

“Hey.” Alex says, just for the sake of saying something, the silence between them wasn’t stifling but he didn’t want to risk their interaction coming to an end just because he’s not engaging enough. Henry gives him a sideways glance. “Teach me how to do that.”

“Do what?”

“That. The shotgun.” For a moment, Alex briefly considers how idiotic that probably sounded to Henry. It wasn’t a hard task to mimic, but Alex had long thrown out his composure out the fences of Pez’s house when Henry put the goddamn stick into his mouth. 

i'll be happy (just to have known you) - 1,855 words [hurt/no comfort]

Henry resigns himself to the reality that Alex—albeit distant and unattainable—still managed to break through his dismal world and grant him a light he never imagined was still possible to exist. This was enough. This was more than he'd ever expected for himself. It was the universe's way of extending an olive branch in response to the cards he'd been dealt with. He'd be stupid not to take it.

dreamy little you - 1,666 words [crack-ish AU, post-canon]

"Of course, love, but would you love yourself if you were a worm?" This visibly stumps Alex. If the way his mouth just opened for a rebuttal and coming up empty is anything to go by.

only got a hundred - currently at 4,008 words

An ongoing collection of 100-word drabbles written according to the Brownstone server's prompts.

Haikyuu

Ceilings (he thinks it's not real, it is) - 6,009 words [light angst and pining with a happy? ending]

“Yo, you sleepy?” Takahiro meant to say that no, he isn't. That Issei looks stupid with his hair messed up like that. That he should be asking Issei that, with the bags under his eyes speaking for themselves. Instead, what comes out is, “I miss you.” It would be so easy to take the opportunity now. But still, Takahiro is terrified of ruining things. Or: Takahiro has graduation blues, and Issei makes him feel better, but things don't just end there.

Bloom - 1,444 words [two-dialogue challenge oneshot, retrospective? angst/no comfort]

Matsukawa Issei is not much of a sentimental person, save for special occasions where he has no choice but to reminisce.

Cruel (what your mind can do for no reason) - 1,012 words [light angst/comfort, implications of dissociation]

Issei struggles through a bad mental health night, Takahiro breezes him through the tail end of it.

Shameless (US)

big guns out, shoot now - 3,257 words [first kiss oneshot]

It's kind of out of character for Ian, really, he's always careful about not blurting out or doing shit that tapped into his feelings on the brunette, around the very subject of his affections. Has been, in fact, for the last two years and counting. Not that it got any easier to maintain, there are always slip ups (Exhibit A: right here, right now), but that's solely his problem.

On the Off Chance - 5,780 words [soulmate AU, ongoing]

To say Ian was relieved when he hears Mickey confirm how he did not, in fact, get his soulmate mark just a couple days after coming of age would be a huge understatement. (Or: Soulmate marks only show up when the younger of the pair turns nineteen– which isn’t uncommon, to say the least.)

also, something something, ed telling those kids that he and stede aren't pirates but that actually they run an inn together was ed voicing his fantasy aloud bc he could write it off as a joke but when it came down to it he was too afraid of rejection to actually ask stede to run away with him because it went so ass-backwards last time so he just, ON A WHIM, decides to be a fisherman because it hurts less to assume that stede won't want to leave piracy for him than to ask and be rejected again, something about safe spaces and trauma and needing the space to heal and how they're both still acting on whims, something something

Oh Christmas, my Christmas.

Thaaank you for all the tags! @inexplicablymine @hgejfmw-hgejhsf @kiwiana-writes @blairwaldcrf @littlemisskittentoes @firenati0n @read-and-write- @happiness-of-the-pursuit @user-anakin, and @14carrotghoul!

I'm currently going through all of your trees and thought why don't I join in while I'm at it. 🫶 Here's my tree!

decomytree.com

🎄DECO MY TREE🎄

Decorate Friend's Tree for Christmas🎅

Tagging @44whispers @affectionatelyrs @later-2-dae @matherines @clottedcreamfudge @rockyroadkylers @cricketnationrise @movetoheavens @mudbloodpotter05 @dragonflylady77 @absolute-audacity @the-marathon-continues-nip @girlboybaklatomboy @gayrootvegetable if you guys haven't done this yet! It's so cute.

some sketches of matsuhana family because i said so

It's (almost) the season! And, because I want a Christmas project (don't look at my WIP list, don't look at it, don't do it), I have decided to invent one:

CCF'S ADVENT JUKEBOX 2023

My terms, should you choose to accept them:

Submit a song you want me to use as First Prince writing inspiration via Tumblr (no anons, sorry, I like to live a peaceful life)

If you want, you can add in a little something about why you've submitted it - e.g. what the song makes you think of in relation to the characters, how many times it's made you cry, whether or not you sing it in the car with seat-based dance moves, etc.

If you have an AO3 username, let me know what it is so that I can tag you excessively upon posting

I will then attempt to either a) write a short fic inspired by your chosen song, or b) write a chapter of a longer fic, all the chapters of which will somehow mesh together through the power of love and caffeinated beverages

Step 5: Profit???

I've decided to assume that I won't get too many of these to do, so I have absolutely no contingency plan for getting more than I bargained for. Isn't that fun! No, I don't think this will be a problem, why?

Posting will occur from the 1st of December - happy submitting! Nearly said 'happy submission' but I feel like that's a very different sign-off.

Last Line Tag!

I got tagged by @read-and-write- and @littlemisskittentoes. 🫶🫶🫶

Rules: post the last sentence you wrote and tag as many people as there are words.

Reinforcing how he's never good at saying things — Takahiro opts for the quickest answer, simultaneously hugging his knees and lowering his head into it. "It's stupid."

With absolutely no pressure, what's the last line you guys wrote? @blairwaldcrf @44whispers @inexplicablymine @user-anakin (the rest is via open tag for whoever stumbles upon this until I gain enough friends to complete things like this)

Last Line Tag

thank you SO much to my lovelies @rockyroadkylers @hgejfmw-hgejhsf and @suseagull04 for the tags!!

introducing the first of a few new ✨kittentoes aesthetic✨ banners!

anywho, this little snippet is from threesgiving, finally live and ready for consumption!!

But, for now, it’s just Alex and Henry, and this simple sliver of elysium.

a no pressure tag for some go-to’s and a few “out on a limb” tags to some folx i admire! @read-and-write- @happiness-of-the-pursuit @ssmtskw @wordsofhoneydew @inexplicablymine @kiwiana-writes @14carrotghoul @orchidscript @anincompletelist

"What about me?" Henry says. "Christ, Alex. The whole bloody time."