On December

[Text ID: December. This heart full of tears and of night. /End ID]
On December
[Text ID: December drips through my nerves. /End ID]
[Text ID: December’s language is imprecise grief and drunkenness. /End ID]
[Text ID: "December starts on Sunday, next Sunday / Won't you feel happier then?" /End ID]
[Text ID: It is December and we must be brave. /End ID]
[Text ID: December reigns. A smell of bread. A smell of pain. And now what will become of me? /End ID]

on december

albert camus notebooks \\ oliver herford i heard a bird sing (via @soracities) \\ charles wright the world of the ten thousand things: poems 1980-1990: "december journal" \\ nelly sachs the enigmas of night \\ regina spektor soviet kitsch: "december" \\ natalie diaz manhattan is a lenape word (via @metamorphesque) \\ renée brock streets, a song (tr. linkhorn & judy cochran)

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Last Line Tag

Last Line Tag

big thank you to my beloveds @happiness-of-the-pursuit and @hgejfmw-hgejhsf for the tag!

Threesgiving is starting to give! ignore the fact i totally dissected it and rewrote parts and still have multiple vignettes. it’s fine, everything’s fine

And this has been new too, that lethargic frenzy of want and utter give Henry falls under when Alex finds the right string of vowels on his tongue, or the perfect tiptoe between sweetness and sting to balance Henry on.

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1 year ago

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1 year ago
I'll take a quiet life
A handshake of carbon monoxide

And no alarms and no surprises
No alarms and no surprises
A shot from Safe (1995) of Carol White, played by Julianne Moore, in her suburban living room, holding a glass of milk. She is centered in frame, and stares blankly into camera
THE SUBURBS DREAM of violence. Asleep in their drowsy
villas, sheltered by benevolent shopping malls, they wait
patiently for the nightmares that will wake them into a
more passionate world.
A shot from Blue Velvet. A man lays, collapsed, on his lawn. His hose is still running; a dog has climbed on him to drink from it. A child with a lollypop wanders through the gate
And you may ask yourself, "How do I work this?"
And you may ask yourself,
"Where is that large automobile?"
And you may tell yourself,
"This is not my beautiful house"
And you may tell yourself, "This is not my beautiful wife"
A shot from Little Shop of Horrors of a house on a white lawn against a blue sky. The scene has a sense of artificiality about it - the lighting is all wrong, the sky like a painted backdrop. Seymour and Audrey, in a suit and wedding dress respectively, stand in the doorframe.
I think the traditional preoccupations of cosmic horror are ultimately
charming and quaint in comparison to that endless atrophy
wouldn't it be a relief to gaze into the maw of an eldritch god once,
confirm the truth of existence, and lose your mind entirely?
At least that'd have a sense of resolution to it. At least then you
could stop pretending that everything was fine.
A shot from Vivarium. Rows and rows of identical green houses. On the roof the center one, arranged sheets spell out "HELP"
So we were lying in bed afterwards
And she asked me
What made me frightened
And I said...
I'm frightened of Belgian Chocolates
I'm frightened of potpourri
I'm frightened of James Dean posters
I'm, I'm frightened of 26" screens
I'm frightened of, of remote control
I'm frightened of endowment plans
I'm, I'm frightened of figurines
Ow!
I'm frightened of evenings in the Brincliffe Oaks
Searching for the...
Conversations
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Murray and I extended the range of our contemplative
walks. In town one day he went into small embarrassed
raptures over diagonal parking. There was a charm and a
native sense to the rows of slanted vehicles. This form of
parking was an indispensable part of the American
townscape, even when the cars were foreign-made. The
arrangement was not only practical but avoided
confrontation, the sexual assault motif of front-to-back
parking in teeming city streets.
Murray says it is possible to be homesick for a place
even when you are there.
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The first panel shows a dove flying above a home. 

The second, the dove crashing into the dome of the sky, revealed to be artificial. bubbles read: AN UNDERGROUND
AMERICAN SMALL-TOWN HEAVEN. THE KIND OF
PLACE AN ALL-AMERICAN DEADMAN WOULD HOPE AND PRAY TO FETCH UP IN.

The third panel, a white, middle-aged man stands in a pilot's uniform, drinking a beer. Bubbles read: I LIKE TO IMAGINE HIM THERE BY HIS LITTLE PICKET FENCE IN FRONT OF HIS LITTLE HOUSE, BREATHING IN THE AIR- CONDITIONING OF HIS LITTLE HEAVEN. NEVER QUESTIONING HIS EXISTING WITHOUT EATING, DRINKING OR SLEEPING, BECAUSE HE THINKS HE'S DEAD. PERHAPS HE THINKS OF THE DAY HE VISITED EARTH.
But I don't think so. But I think about it. And I think, well, I can't be. Because I'm like
you, I kinda look at the big long life ahead of me that stretches out forever and
disappears. And I get scared. And I think, "this can't be Heaven if I'm getting scared,
right?"
And then I think, "maybe I am in Heaven, and Heaven is scary."
A photograph of a 70s underground Cold War bunker in Las Vegas. It features an imitation of an outdoor suburban home, complete with painted backdrop and fake trees, cut off by the ceiling.
Ask yourself: is there something sinister in moralism?
And then answer: no. God is in his heaven. Everything is
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suburbia; or the sad, quiet horror of getting everything you ever wanted

"No Surprises," Radiohead // Safe (1995) // Kingdom Come, J.G. Ballard // Blue Velvet (1986) // "Once in a Lifetime," Talking Heads // Little Shop of Horrors (1986) // Jon Ware on I Am In Eskew // Vivarium (2019) // "His 'n' Hers," Pulp // The Truman Show (1998) // White Noise, Don DeLillo // Supergod, Warren Ellis and Garrie Gastonny // 17776, Jon Bois // photograph of 1970s Las Vegas underground Cold War bunker // Disco Elysium, ZA/UM

1 year ago
Last Line Tag

Last Line Tag

thank you SO much to my lovelies @rockyroadkylers @hgejfmw-hgejhsf and @suseagull04 for the tags!!

introducing the first of a few new ✨kittentoes aesthetic✨ banners!

anywho, this little snippet is from threesgiving, finally live and ready for consumption!!

But, for now, it’s just Alex and Henry, and this simple sliver of elysium.

a no pressure tag for some go-to’s and a few “out on a limb” tags to some folx i admire! @read-and-write- @happiness-of-the-pursuit @ssmtskw @wordsofhoneydew @inexplicablymine @kiwiana-writes @14carrotghoul @orchidscript @anincompletelist

1 year ago
"What About Me?" Henry Says. "Christ, Alex. The Whole Bloody Time."
"What About Me?" Henry Says. "Christ, Alex. The Whole Bloody Time."
"What About Me?" Henry Says. "Christ, Alex. The Whole Bloody Time."
"What About Me?" Henry Says. "Christ, Alex. The Whole Bloody Time."
"What About Me?" Henry Says. "Christ, Alex. The Whole Bloody Time."

"What about me?" Henry says. "Christ, Alex. The whole bloody time."


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1 year ago

Reading things like this always takes me back to when Ludwig said, "I think it's a constant war when someone dies, to keep them as much as you can in your life, and you can't because you lose to time, every time." (timestamp is 23:49 onwards)

The way it hits every time will always be that strong, I think.

“I miss you more than I remember you” is always the core of grieving a parent who died when you were a kid


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1 year ago
You Call The Shots Babe (i Just Wanna Be Yours)

you call the shots babe (i just wanna be yours)

E || 9.9k || Dub-Con (due to intoxication)

“I wish David were here.” The sigh from his lips rustles one of Alex’s curls loosened away from under the cap. Alex’s eyebrows scrunch together and there’s a new mask edging his features. One Henry can’t quite place in his filmy headspace. “Oh. I thought… Pez said you didn’t have a boyfriend?”

The bark of laughter pulled from Henry’s throat is loud and unfettered. The kind of laugh he usually keeps hidden away or stifled behind the guard of a hand against his mouth.

“No, no. I mean yes, Pez’s right. But David isn’t–” Another giggle breaks into the words. “David’s a beagle, Alex.”

___

or, Henry gets high, and Alex is everything he's ever wanted.


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1 year ago
A tumblr post, edited blackout-poetry style to read, "transwomen are women a woman is a woman".

transwomen are women a woman is a woman

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1 year ago

WIP Wednesday

WIP Wednesday

Happy Wednesday! :) Thank you to @kiwiana-writes @ssmtskw @sherryvalli @littlemisskittentoes @leaves-of-laurelin @ships-to-sail @rockyroadkylers @inexplicablymine and @anincompletelist for the tags (so many of y'all this week omg mwah)

I posted this in the Brownstone already but I want to share it here too - it may be a while but... gymnast AU anyone?

Henry fucking Fox. Alex hates the man on principle. He garnered his fame through conducting an illegal move — in an infuriating flawless manner, Alex hates to admit — all sharp turns that could cut the pregnant silence that lasted the four seconds he was airborne. Fox’s precision was devastating. An admission of his perfection is one that you couldn’t pry out of Alex’s cold, chalked-up hands. Because, for lack of less petulant terms, it’s not fucking fair. If Alex had tried a move like that, he wouldn’t have gotten praise. There would be no standing ovation. No acclimation or praise in the media. No exasperation over the bravery he must inhabit to even dare such a thing. No, Alex would’ve been called a disgrace — would’ve been called out on his gall, the impudence he must have. He can imagine the headlines, the string of words that would appear next to Claremont-Diaz in bold font. Risky. Unkempt. Brash. Unprofessional.

Tagging those who hyped me up (THANK U) and everyone else I would love to see work from (no pressure and open to everyone as always) @read-and-write- @happiness-of-the-pursuit @everwitch-magiks @welcometololaland @rmd-writes @hgejfmw-hgejhsf @whimsymanaged @myheartalivewrites @cricketnationrise and @daisymae-12


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