What Do You Do When You're Lonely?

Hundred episodes later and it’s still cool seeing it. (2012 / 2019 / 2021)

i'm never gonna emotionally recover from this

Seeing CP finally get what she deserves after being constantly fucked over by the NWSL and USSF treating her like trash. Now she’s one of the highest paid bitches 💯 ready to thrive on her home pitch 💅

"homosexuality is unnatural! there's only two genders! it's a sin-"

I'm sorry, have you seen NATURE???

and there's so many more species than this that exhibit homosexuality, varying genders, etc. SO! MANY!

it's very much a natural thing. it always has been. unfortunately, while homosexuality is found in many species, homophobia is only found in one

ALSO THE ARTIST IS HUMON, FIND THEM AT HUMONCOMICS.COM!! was so sure I had included that but apparently I forgot, so sorry!

He is literally driving the best team in the world into the fucking ground

Well he just came right out and said huh?

Our goalkeeper saved three (3) PKs today. Never forget.

We need to talk about Vlatko…

i get players taking personal responsibility for the loss and being expected to be good enough to adapt to a coach and bring their a game…but i really feel like a lot of this tournament was a huge failure on vlatko’s part to adapt to the team and bring out the best in them and what they were capable of at the time. it’s the coach’s JOB to understand their team and understand how to bring out the best in them and adapt. to understand what their weakness are and to play to their strengths instead. asking an entire team to adapt to your vision and ideas is WAY harder than choosing to step back as a coach and being willing to put your own ego and ideas aside in order to adapt to the team and how the players are actually capable of playing. and i do believe him being so data driven and not allowing players to build chemistry with more consistent line ups again was on HIM and a big reason why players didn’t feel joy.

you don’t create magic and joy out of data and ignoring your team’s capabilities and strengths, or their weaknesses.

A compilation of my magical ocean-themed illustrations - all of these and more are available as prints until Nov 26th in my store here!

there are just so many clever little details that alice wu puts in this movie and it's all just made so much stronger by the filming of every. single. frame.

the little detail with the train lights and how ellie's dad didn't trust the train light to work— but because he loves his daughter so much, he realizes that he needs to let her go and so the camera briefly pans to the lights working again

paul continuing to listen and feeling sad for ellie's dad despite not understanding mandarin because he recognizes that sometimes we just want someone to listen to us

aster saying "deep down, i probably knew the truth... it's not like it's never crossed my mind" just brings so much more IMPACT to the hot springs scene. was it intentional? did aster bring ellie there to keep her all to herself, even if it was just for a few moments?

the way aster sinks into ellie as they kiss, and how her hand moves down to hold her arm like she's not ready to let go yet, but ellie cuts it off because well, she's a nervous disaster gay. the way aster smiles right afterwards and laughs. she hadn't felt that way after kissing ANYONE (at least in the movie) — we can presume that she's never really been interested in trip, and that her being with him was her trying to conform within the norms of the society she's been placed in; she'd never felt that ecstatic or excited. she had no reason to.

and then there was ellie. the girl that challenges her intellectually. and in that moment, despite feeling dazed and confused over these new feelings, aster was SURE of one thing: she FELT something in that kiss. unlike any other kisses shown in the movie, she FELT something.

and when paul was googling "how to know if you are gay"— a lot was left out in that scene. the viewer fills in the blanks after he says "there are SO many ways to love someone" which leaves us to imply he probably went on a deep dive and tried to educate himself on other types of sexualities because he truly cares about ellie. his friend.

"you could never be different," she says, mockingly. "what would God say?" oh the ISOLATION ellie feels in this small, predominantly white, conservative town where literally the only people of colour we see in the movie are her, her father, aster, and her family. aster and ellie's layers slowly being peeled off as the movie progresses and they bond through their shared differences.

this movie isn't a love story, as prefaced in the beginning. it's a coming of age movie that features young people slowly becoming more self-aware; it just happens to feature a lesbian protagonist. we need more stories like this, where being gay isn't the sole focal point of a plot.

god, i love this movie and all its nuances.

and i know alice wu wants the audience to fill-in-the-blanks, but i'd give ANYTHING to have a fun, stupid rom-com with these characters. a sequel set in the future where ellie and aster are confident in their identities.

if the straights can have their fun, stupid, mediocre rom-coms, the gays should too!!! i want fun, stupid, mediocre disaster gay rom-coms!!!

The Crain Kids + smiles