Hey You. You Know You Should Be Doing The Thing. I Don't Want To Do The Thing, Either. But We Can Sit

You didn't love her. You just didn't want to be alone. Or maybe she was good for your ego. Or maybe she made you feel better about your miserable life. But you didn't love her. Because you don’t destroy people you love.

Grey’s Anatomy

northern downpour | pretty odd

all these unfunny jokes about how german is such a hard and awful language >:(

well, can your language do this?

Starry starry night 💫

an incomplete list of unsettling short stories I read in textbooks

the scarlet ibis

marigolds

the diamond necklace

the monkey’s paw

the open boat

the lady and the tiger

the minister’s black veil

an occurrence at owl creek bridge

a rose for emily

(I found that one by googling “short story corpse in the house,” first result)

the cask of amontillado

the yellow wallpaper

the most dangerous game

a good man is hard to find

some are well-known, some obscure, some I enjoy as an adult, all made me uncomfortable between the ages of 11-15

add your own weird shit, I wanna be literary and disturbed

stardew valley flora 🌻

i've been wanting to try one of these botanical posters in my style, and the 1.6 update was the perfect excuse✨

that image that goes i want to do this. do it. but im scared. do it scared. changed my life

~✧°+* 42/100 days of doing better*+°✧~

14.09.2023

After having finally finished Swimming in the Dark a started a whopping two (2) books today! Kind of on accident, actually...

I've had Ariadne sitting on my shelf at my parents' for forever now and since I wasn't feeling in the mood for the spooky classics I had set out for September I decided to start that one instead. I love studying religious history, especially ancient Greek and Roman cults and religious practices. The way religion was so intricately woven into all parts of daily life is extremely fascinating to me, and the myths (and mythology retellings in turn) really reflect that! I haven't made much progress on Ariadne yet, but I'm excited to read on.

After having started book number one in the morning I promptly forgot it at home once I headed out to pick up my siblings from school. So I did the only logical thing to do and bought a new book to read during the wait :) The cover of Where the Crawdads Sing has been speaking to me for a while now. The plot isn't really in line with what I usually read but, hey, it got a map in the front and my fantasy loving brain is wired to that stuff. In the end I ended up not having much time to read, so I only got through the Prologue, but I like the writing style so far.

Positive things I did that day:

ran errands

got paperwork done

visited family

read

Hours slept: ~ 8hrs 30mins Screentime: ~7hrs 30mins Steps taken: ~5.700

~✧°+* 4/100 days of doing better*+°✧~

30.07.2023

Not the greatest day, which becomes evident when you take a look at my screen time. But that's alright, because sadness is temporary and there are a thousand things that make life beautiful.

I cheered up a bit in the evening and started watching Peaky Blinders with a friend. Needless to say, Oppenheimer has impacted us in a certain way.

Positive things I did today:

kept the Duolingo Spanish streak going

finished history of witch hunts revision

did the dishes

Hours slept: ~8hrs Screentime: 11hrs (actually mortified at this) Steps taken: ~220