Child Of The Moon

i am so serious when i say we as young adults are so starved and deprived of community

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what studying literature feels like

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~✧°+* 19/100 days of doing better*+°✧~

18.08.2023

Do you also have those friends that you love dearly and have fun hanging out with, but who you simply can't talk about work with? I have a very strict (and borderline toxic) work ethic in which I have very high expectations towards myself and hold myself to a certain standard I feel like I have to meet in order to be worth something (which is crazy, I realize that). I don't hold other people to those standards, but when I do have conversations about work and academia with people who are a bit more relaxed about it I get incredibly anxious. And something like that happened today, which kind of forced me to take a break from the Hamilton essay because I was freaking out, thinking I wasn't doing enough and too much at the same time. I'm pretty sure I'm on the right track but I still doubt myself a lot when it comes to those things, especially when I am talking to people who are older or in higher semesters.

I tried to drown out the buzzing sound of anxiety with Sims and it honestly worked quite well.

Positive things I did today:

organized my Hamilton sources

took a break when I was feeling stressed

took a walk

continued reading Swimming in the Dark

Had a couble of drinks with friends

Hours slept: ~7hrs Screentime: ~7hrs 30mins Steps taken: ~9.100

“To live is the rarest thing in the world. Most people exist, that is all.”

— Oscar Wilde

I want to exist in a world without timed schedules. Just desire to wake up, simply get dressed and walk out the door with my readings.

~✧°+* 21 & 22/100 days of doing better*+°✧~

20. & 21.8.2023

It's been all chores, chores, chores, andxiety and poor attempts at trying to cope with the heat.

Very excited for things to be a bit more normal again (and cooler, too) next week.

Positive Things I did these days:

lots of chores

played sims

worked on the hamilton essay

went on a walk

Hours slept: ~9hrs & ~6hrs 45mins Screentime: ~3hrs 30mins & ~ 6hrs Steps taken: ~8.100 & ~800