My Version Of Self Care Is A Wendy's Baconator

Do you ever feel like a starving carnivore?

What do you mean?

Well, sometimes, very rarely mind you, but once in a blue moon I get into this mood where I like, feel like I wanna eat organs or some shit. Not a random person though, I'm not Jeffery Dahmer! It's like I wanna eat myself? Like I get a rage and my head gets filled with violent gore and screaming and I wanna tear flesh from bone like I'm a wild animal or a monster or something, but in a weird way at the same time I always wanna be torn apart myself, feel the pain, I desire it. I tend to eat gas station meats when I feel like that, viciously rip it with my teeth, sometimes I get cheetos or takis too and it's like I'm breaking through bones, and in a weird way, I'm not me anymore. I'm a monster tearing myself apart. I'm a ravenous creature feasting on fresh meat and chewing through bones and drinking in the viscous blood. I'm me and I'm the monster I run from, I'm the monster and the meat.

When it ends it helps, I feel better, I'm not mad anymore, the monster is fed and it can go back to it's cage for a long time before it inevitably begins to starve again.

I don't know how to get rid of the monster that desires so desperately sometimes to eat me and begs for a visceral mess of carnage. I don't think I could deny it forever no matter how hard I tried. I can delay it, I don't open that cage until I am home, but the monster won't let me rest if I don't feed it eventually, fake meat, fake blood, fake bones, for the imaginary monster. I don't know how to get rid of the desire to be torn apart by it.

Like I said, it doesn't happen often, and I never hurt anyone in reality, I don't even hurt anyone in my head, the monster eats me, I am the monster, I only eat myself. I don't know what that means though.

The best way I can describe it is feeling like a starving carnivore.

I HAVE COSPLAYED (poorly cause I ran out of time real fast)

Do with this what you will

I'VE FALLEN DOWN A HOLE!

AGAIN!

WHY DOES THIS ALWAYS HAPPEN!?

Some of these cowards didn't have internet access in the mid-2010s and it shows

Think I'll od on quill?

This is so cool

Pls give this notes it took me so long

Audio

"How you vibing?"

I don't answer with words. Instead my entire body starts to vibrate at high speeds, making me blurry and disorienting to look at.

Your world begins to crumble around you and you turn to dust at my feet.

"Do you need anything?" Uh, yeah, I need 5 bags of Cocaine and a wiffle bat painted like a shark

not to be gay but gay