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I hate noticing how being aware that I have a woman's voice limits how I use it and limits my ability to talk back to people because I know it's not perceived the same as a man's - commanding, believable, threatening.

Living in Finland, the apartment building I live in has a common sauna (you need to book your shift). Several times when I have been in there, I have heard someone aggressively trying to open the door. I assume it's just someone trying to go to the sauna for free, testing if it's vacant. I hate that I find myself thinking, I want to yell fuck off, but then that person will hear there is a woman in here, alone. So I do nothing and swallow my frustration.

I have a neighbour who has an animal that makes quite a bit of noise. What annoys me more than the noise is him shouting "quiet!" at the animal whenever it makes a peep. I want to yell "you shut up!" at him, but I don't, because I remember my voice doesn't boom like his. Would he even hear it through the walls like I hear him? Would he give a shit hearing a woman nagging at him? So I do nothing and swallow my frustration.

This happens in public spaces, too. I'm afraid to speak up because I'm too aware that as a woman, I'm perceived as weak, vulnerable, shrill, and easy to dismiss. A man taking a stand with his voice evokes a completely different response in people, at least that's how I feel. I hate noticing that in situations like this, I ask my male partner to speak up for me if he is there, knowing that his voice will lend my thoughts more credibility than my own.

trying to make my way through drawing my favourite georges...

the beautiful 15 year old boy billy pilgrim saw in the snow was just early 90s thom yorke

can you imagine being graham and you have a hot bandmate singer and a hot cartoonist friend and they don't like each other and you're like nooo... be friends... and then you get addicted to alcohol and your hot bandmate singer LEAVES YOU for your hot cartoonist and youre like okay. Okay. Okay is this all i deserve.

"What do you think about Hector Berlioz?"

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if yoko Ono had been a man they would sing his praises as the yaoi king that destroyed those infidel Beatles

drawing docket

going to put ugly sticky notes on my laptop to motivate me to draw. here is the starting list

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this one is kinda cute.

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