my non feminine demeanor makes being nice to feminine girls feel so creepy. i'm like *deadpan stare* *no inflection* i think you look like. really pretty today. your makeup... suits you. i like your.. hair. it's pretty. do you want to... uh. do you want my number? just because. we could do something. i mean. for fun. just fun. *plays with my hair awkwardly* haha. be my friend.
drawing docket
going to put ugly sticky notes on my laptop to motivate me to draw. here is the starting list
14 april 2025
18 april 2025
18 april 2025
this one is kinda cute.
19 april 2025
25 april 2025
If we could start a movement like this, it could really change things. I wish people thought about the power of boycotts, especially in a society that runs on profit and consumption. I think if people quit American-hosted social media it would be powerful too, as they run on ad-revenue. The more you scroll and view adds, the more profitable it is.
it was all napoleon xiv stuff
i’m 9 years old and i have a hemorrhoid stan .
she needs peaceful and loving and quiet internet spaces where she can be encouraged to be a gentler and kinder person
no! good vibes liberalism will kill the patient!
she needs pointlessly contrarian bitter haterism to live.
guys turn me off but girls make me wanna kill myself
there is only one person i trust won't abandon me. everyone else must go through trials before following me like youre psyche or heracles
if you so desire you can buy me a redbull
here is the (rough) drawing agenda
I hate noticing how being aware that I have a woman's voice limits how I use it and limits my ability to talk back to people because I know it's not perceived the same as a man's - commanding, believable, threatening.
Living in Finland, the apartment building I live in has a common sauna (you need to book your shift). Several times when I have been in there, I have heard someone aggressively trying to open the door. I assume it's just someone trying to go to the sauna for free, testing if it's vacant. I hate that I find myself thinking, I want to yell fuck off, but then that person will hear there is a woman in here, alone. So I do nothing and swallow my frustration.
I have a neighbour who has an animal that makes quite a bit of noise. What annoys me more than the noise is him shouting "quiet!" at the animal whenever it makes a peep. I want to yell "you shut up!" at him, but I don't, because I remember my voice doesn't boom like his. Would he even hear it through the walls like I hear him? Would he give a shit hearing a woman nagging at him? So I do nothing and swallow my frustration.
This happens in public spaces, too. I'm afraid to speak up because I'm too aware that as a woman, I'm perceived as weak, vulnerable, shrill, and easy to dismiss. A man taking a stand with his voice evokes a completely different response in people, at least that's how I feel. I hate noticing that in situations like this, I ask my male partner to speak up for me if he is there, knowing that his voice will lend my thoughts more credibility than my own.