That Feeling When Your Nephew Calls You Gay Because You Are Wearing Maroon.

ok well I finished I saw the tv glow … for me I think what this movie depicts so well is the deadness you feel before you realise you’re trans. like I kind of thought I was a sociopath before I realised I was transgender because I didn’t really feel like I loved my parents that much and I didn’t really feel joy or happiness. I remember someone asked me once what the best day of my life was and I was terrified because I didn’t have an answer, not because my life was miserable but because I could not think of any moment in my life where joy made any sort of lasting impression on me. I didn’t have many friends or cared that much about the ones I had, I forced myself to be in relationships with men I didn’t like, everything was just pure social obligation. there was this membrane between me and reality at all times and I just thought I was insane for most of my life. I keep thinking about Isabel saying, completely deadpan “I even got a family now. I love them more than anything” and you know how fraudulent and horrifying that statement is. and what threads that needle is her revisiting the old tapes and thinking it all just looked cheap and cheesy, she says “I just felt embarrassed” because she’s so thoroughly suppressed her dysphoria that even the thing that led her to recognising it had no colour or feeling in it anymore. the movie is horrifying and idk if I have anything like coherent to say about it but for me the thing that connected with me the most is how monotone so much of Isabel’s life is. Once Maddy/Tara leaves there’s no colour in it anymore

the treatment of black trans women on this site from the shithead racist transmisogynistic harassment campaigns to the erasure of black women's literal existence in transmisogynists' condemnations of transfeminism & transfemininity as inherently white to the overtly and proudly fucking bigoted staff siding with mass reporters and erasing the presence and archives of women who have done Nothing Whatsoever to violate TOS is completely unforgivable

just watched i saw the tv glow

shut up about how "bad" she did at a sport, a woman is being told she can't do something because of the way she was born, she just happens to be trans so yall think misogyny and bioessentialism is suddenly ok

did you know you could stay up all night with your girlfriend cuddling naked and watching ManlyBadassHero letsplays did you know that did you did you

did you know lesbians are awesome and cuddly and love you and will hear you out on almost any stupid idea did you know that did you did you did you

did you know when you yawn and its late at night your girlfriend will say "awwh, well someone sounds tired" and you can go "nyouu im nyot tireeeedd :<" and then they'll pet you did you know that

did you know she'll stay up all night with you while you slowly drift asleep and take cute selfies of the two of you while you struggle to keep your little eyes open did you know that did you know??????

have a mental disease where a voice in my head uncontrollably defends itself against any bad take that we know is wrong and contorts itself to figure out what it would take to convince the argueur and she is really bad at it and i dont like it i hit my head to try and shut her up but it makes everything go quiet and spinny instead. our castle does not need defending please stop it

(in the voice of a guy that will defy fate to save you) i don't care

Drew this so fast oh my god

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