Struggles

Struggles

TW: talk of self starvation

This year I've even struggled with my body image, I know I'm a beautiful girl and I've always been told as such but even then it's hard to feel happy in my own body because social media portrays women as very skinny even though it's not healthy or safe and I fell victim to it's trap, I didn't like how my stomach looked and so I would sleep when I felt hungry.

I would deflect it when my mum brought it up and I craved that feeling of starvation, it was amazing even though it wasn't healthy, I didn't even like my body when I was underweight, it felt like I would never be happy with myself, and being honest with myself, the company I had made it worse... I had a 'friend' who would constantly talk about how she hated her body, we looked very similar and so I learned to hate my body from her and the media, if you know me in real life you would know that I am a very bubbly person and I used that as a shield to hide behind, nobody would ever think I doing anything bad to myself if I seemed always happy and it worked like a charm.

I hated every imperfection, I hated my stomach, my skin, my stretch marks that you can barely even see but I would always find something to hate about myself, I have really only brushed on the topic of this with one friend, my mother doesn't even know I felt like this, I would like to keep it that way as she has enough on her plate. I have learned to love myself and it's been a long journey, it's still not over, I have learnt that the body I have is beautiful and perfect the way it is and I feel like others should too, it's a long journey but it's so worth it and I hope that anyone who's read this is able to love themselves for who they are, yourself worth is not how you look, its how you act, behave and interact with others, if anyone is judging you for your appearance then that's a tell tale of what kinda person they are and let me tell you one thing, their not a person you want to be around!

Remember you always come first.

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10 months ago

I am fucking livid

I am livid with the way that people will only take things 'seriously' if it's a trend.

I am livid with the way that people will only care about some thing if it's popular.

I am livid with the way the horrors people live with are only ever given 24 hours of attention before the next thing trends.

I am livid that people will only care about the victims when they are gone or when the trouble has passed.

I am livid by the fact that no one knows about the Indian untouchables.

I am livid that people are silent about Syria.

I am livid about the silence that surrounds slums being bombed.

How many more hits must they take? How much more blood must they lose? How many more must die? How many more must suffer? How many more children need to die?

Tell me honestly... when was the last time you took the time out of your day too give them recognition?

When was the last time you listened too them?

Their voice matters but it is being drowned out with waves of hate and trends that flood your mind?

Did you even know that Afghanistan was taken over again?

Did you lend your ear to any of them then?

I am livid by the fact that people care more about what 'core' they are.

Does 'fairycore' matter more then lives?

Does brain rot matter more than the children in the sex slave industry?

Their homes look like the buildings you see in dystopian movies...

I am livid... and I am disappointed, you talk of the human spirit, you boast and brag about the human spirit, about humanity... but when was the last time you demonstrated it?

I see humans but I don't fucking see humanity

I see humans who wear masks and tape over their mouth that they can so easily take off.

I see monsters who crudely wear human skin as they bomb another village, another town, another city... another family.

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10 months ago
the-tired-adventurer - Siren song
Keep The Flame Going For Those We Have Lost To Suicide. 

Keep the flame going for those we have lost to suicide. 

Having no menstrual products and no toilet paper, the big ass spiders are chill tho also the bandits are scary, like imagine being in a small town that gets raided

If you were teleported to tamriel right now what would be the worst part about living there? And why is it the giant fucking spiders?

I do want to know the answer for real tho so let me know uwu

7 months ago

Blood countess - Rex - Dog days

Fuck it. Reblog this post with one to three songs you associate your WIP. Character themes, setting inspiration, just Vibes, whatever, go nuts

"She Who Last Saw The Stars

"She Who Last Saw The Stars

"She who first saw the stars"

The main and only actual goddess in my dnd.

Backstory:

Long ago before time, before the stars even existed two races existed in the never ending abyss, one who only ever knew peace and magic and the other swallowed in hate, the Corrupts as they are now known as wanted to be the only one and so they devised a plan. The corrupts would kill their other half, the Jxulx (translates to peace) had not been prepared and where almost instantly wiped out in the first wave, only few still stood and even less had been unharmed. The peace they once had was shattered, the once quite abyss was now filled with the wails of destroyed family's and the crunching of broken bodies, the once happy and joyful home of the Jxulx was smeared in their blood.

The Jxulx gathered anything that they could use as a weapon and tried to rebel against the Corrupts, the Jxulx now blinded by rage and sorrow for their dead, went to attack the Corrupts but it went horribly, they had only been able to take down a few of the Corrupts (The corrupts took up a tradition of killing the weak among them so there was only a few of them that was left.) as they had expected this and stood ready, annihilating the Jxulx, only one had been left standing, scared and traumatised she stood in the flames of her dead in, her mind raced with what she had just witnessed, her life flashed before her, looking, searching for something to save her and only one thing stood out, a taboo ritual, she gathered her remaining strength and let the chant spew out her mouth as she made her kins bones into a staff, she held the staff above her head and start to desperately scream the chant, the Corrupts had laughed at first before they screamed.

She turned the dead bodies of her kin into what we now know as stars, the light was blinding and it burned the Corrupts, seven of them lashed out and attempted to attack her but the heat of the stars only grew, the seven Corrupts slashed and clawed at her but it was no use as she kept dodging and running, they chased her all across the universe till the had ended up in an area far from the stars and other Corrupts, the last Jxulx desperately did all she could and came out victorious in the process she had gouged ones eye out and turned it into the sun and had made the other planets on accident (she pointed the staff in the wrong direction). Once the battle was done she looked at all the stars and was horrified to see, she was the last of her kind, she may have pushed the remaining Corrupts back but at what cost?

She spent many cycles regaining her strength and looked at the 7 Corrupts bodies that she had clumped into a ball, out of sheer loneliness she took her staff once again and purified the corpses as best as she could, she turned their bones into the stone of the Earth, their flesh the ground and their blood into water, she made creatures out of the things she use to draw as a child and soon this new home of hers became liveable.

The air was sweet and there was no longer the deafening silence... but she was still lonely, she had no one to talk to, no one to share her home with and so she slumped back into her depression, the creatures she created grew more and more concerned about her as the days went by, eventually one of the creatures she had named birds came to her carrying her staff of bones, once again did her eyes have that bright sheen that they missed, the woman picked up her staff for the very last time and created the races, elves came first, she had made them look as close to her people whilst still letting them be different in their own ways, she had created sea elves, light elves, wood elves (multiple sub-types of wood elves) and dark elves, she had created the other races after that over the time-span of many days - filling the world with unique individuals sadly this came at a cost, taking lives was easy but making them meant she had to sacrifice pieces of her own soul to make them but she could careless she had filled the world and her creations loved her, they knew her as the Mother, eventually she became to weak to continue to exist and so she had 'passed away' (she didn't actually she only fell into a coma under the Earth), her children mourned her but life carried on, they built civilisations, made bibles that got muddled and caught in mistranslation over time.

Eventually over time the Corrupts baneful energy risen once more, creating monsters out of her sweet creatures and children, this is why the guilds where made, too keep her hard work forever safe, so that she may live in our hearts forever more.

(I wrote this very, very late, no caffeine at all and I will not bother to edit it, get out of my cooch)

(https://meiker.io/play/15623/online.html this is what I used to make her)


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2 years ago
@kiir-do-faal-rahhe here She Is, I Tried To Get Her As Close Looking As Possible In Game
@kiir-do-faal-rahhe here She Is, I Tried To Get Her As Close Looking As Possible In Game

@kiir-do-faal-rahhe here she is, I tried to get her as close looking as possible in game

9 months ago

If Viggo, you go

She Grim On My Born 'til I Viggo

She grim on my born 'til I viggo

2 years ago

If you don’t agree leave my page and don’t ever come back.

Just an experiment. Reblog if you actually give a fuck about male victims of domestic violence and rape.

Of fucking course

What sick bastard doesn’t

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