nobody is irrelevant. nobody is invisible. your neighbors know your name and see you set off to school or work or the backyard everyday, sometimes with a spring in your step and sometimes with hunched over shoulders. there was this one time some stranger pointed you out to their friends and said “that’s the haircut I want” or “I have that shirt, too” or “they go to my school”. someone has admired the way you carry yourself or gave a presentation or even the way you’re so polite when you first meet a person. you’ve made comments or jokes that have stuck in minds of overhearers and eavesdroppers. when old classmates of yours think back to kindergarten or fourth grade or sophomore year they remember you and have an opinion of you. you’ve made recommendations of songs and restaurants and even cookie brands and actually introduced people to their all-time favorites. the cashier at the grocery store knows exactly what laundry detergent your household uses, or even if you don’t do your laundry at all.
you can never be irrelevant. there’s pieces of you everywhere, in a dozen lives, in a hundred dreams, in a million memories. maybe it’s true that you don’t have any friends, and you have a sucky relationship with your family or no family at all and no-one ever checks up on you, and you’re really very lonely, but that doesn’t determine your worth. you do. and so do the billions of small attributions you’ve already made to the world, both long-term and short-term. so thank you.
I feel okay today, a little empty inside. I just want to know what I want, I want to make sure I have a plan. I’m taking my meds, I missed my appointment with my therapist because I was stupid and misplaced my wallet. Thankfully she was able to reschedule with this same week. I’m probably going to cry when I talk to her, though I feel the catharsis by itself will be beneficial. I just want to not worry.
can someone recommend some beginner normal behaviors for someone looking to become normal
can you drive pleaes
I'm very good at driving because I hyperfocus on it but that means whenever and wherever i park I have to sit in my car and sleep for an hour because I used too much brain for too long
contrary to popular belief black cats are good luck actually because they are baby
Me: I love being out at night, I’m not scared of the dark!
tree: *exists, looking very vaguely like a person*
Me:
Discovery Park. Seattle, Washington
It's my 10 year anniversary on Tumblr 🥳
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