My Dearest L...

Relationships are like glass. Sometimes it’s better to leave them broken than try to hurt yourself putting it back together.

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Dear, Elisa Lam...

I have watched and read your story over and over again and I am yet to believe that you did this to yourself, there is no way they can make it sound like you have done this to yourself. There were so many people in that hotel that could have done this to you. and the fact that none helped you in the hotel while you were in your bipolar ep. Makes me so angry, what did they say again when they said you were screaming in the lobby, oh yes that’s right! they said, “It’s just another day at the Cecil hotel”...

May you rest in peace now Elisa Lam....🖤⛓️

My Dearest L…

Well, today went to shit, I had a long car ride and then I got home and found out that my best friend stole my credit card and used it to buy someone that's 172$ I know that doesn't sound like a lot but when you broke asf and only have about 100$ to your name and your credit card is already at 400$ from trying to pay it off for 8 months after losing your job. it's alot of fucking money... so now I'm 900$ in the whole and I am just still a broke as bitch YAAAY ME!!!!

I may think of you softly from time to time, but I swear I'll cut my hands off if they ever reach out for you again.

The rain, it falls as if it's lifeless. So beautiful, so soft, so loved...

言の葉の庭 / The Garden Of Words  dir. Makoto Shinkai

My Dearest L...

Dose anyone else listen to sad love music on V-day??

MY DEAREST L…

So last night I was laying with L in bed after we shared an intimate night together moments before and I felt discussed with myself, is this normal to feel that way? but like things got a little messy when we were having our moment together and I have OCD maybe it was just my OCD bec after that I had to shower and clean myself, I then got out of the shower and my manic episode started I had to clean my room and I had to move around I also when feeling so many emotions at once I'm not sure if that had anything to do with it. but I was just weird that those feelings came up the way they did but I've felt it before. when I was hooking up with people but I'm not doing that as much anymore bec I don't want to do that with him, so I stopped doing it except for the rare moments when I do but it's so rare now, what I was getting at is that when I was done doing it and I came home from them I would have to shower bec I felt so nasty and gross and I felt that way last night so that's why I'm asking is it normal to feel that way sometimes when I'm with him? it's the first time I've ever felt that way with him. I honestly do think it was just my OCD and that I wasn't taking my meds right I was a bit not sleeping and not doing what I'm supposed to on them and do I like tell him about this or do I keep it to myself? like is there a limit to what you are supposed to talk about with your other half? or are you supposed to be fully transparent with them? I would really like some feedback on this post bec I honestly don't know what to think about it...

My Dearest L...

How can I miss someone I’ve never met? I miss those soft eyes glancing up at me as the morning sun comes beaming through the window, I miss the feeling of your hands brushing over my delicate skin during the midnight hours in bed, I miss how you would keep the sheets warm at night when I’m cold. How can I miss these things when I haven’t even laid my eyes on you yet???