My Dearest L...

All I want is to stop being so depressed....

The Broken Tree

The trees lead me through the pain I once held within my lightning struck bark, set flames to the burning heart within.

Dear, Elisa Lam...

I have watched and read your story over and over again and I am yet to believe that you did this to yourself, there is no way they can make it sound like you have done this to yourself. There were so many people in that hotel that could have done this to you. and the fact that none helped you in the hotel while you were in your bipolar ep. Makes me so angry, what did they say again when they said you were screaming in the lobby, oh yes that’s right! they said, “It’s just another day at the Cecil hotel”...

May you rest in peace now Elisa Lam....🖤⛓️

Work is nothing but a never ending chain till death.

Eytukan, The Plant.

I've had Eytukan for about 2 or 3 months now and it's been quite a beautiful experience he already had a few leaves when I get him but today I noticed it was time for him to get his first leaf cut off. plants grow too fast for me :( I wish they could stay small and cute but watching them grow up is an amazing experience honestly. he is so healthy and strong he loves his new pot I had to report him bec he wasn't doing so well in the training pot which I found kinda weird but once I got him in this Terracotta pot he just jumped back to life. I have also been misting him every few days and he always looks so perky the next day >.< it's so cute to see, oh and he's not the only plant I own, like 40 plant's but this on is just soo cute i had to blog about him XD

My Dearest L…

I’m sorry, it’s been so long. since i last wrote to you but i had to take time to myself and just focuse on the me in the now. but now i’m back and i’m off to walmart, to get some food. i’m also going to see my bestfriend today!!!! cuz she got me a gift for me and my sisiter. i wounder what it is, cuz lastnight she sent me a pic of a penis cookie. as funny as it would be i hope that’s not the gift XD cuz i want more of a superise you know. well till tonight. gtg byeeee....

My Dearest L...

I FUCKING HATE YOU for bringing him over that night and letting him talk to me, you knew I was vulnerable and I wasn't in the right state of mind and you still let him slip into my feelings, my thoughts, my heart... he dug and dug down into my heart and laid his bed and made himself at home, he walked around talking to her and you knew for so damn FUCKING long and told me to damn late you knew how much I put into him.. I did things for him I would of never of did for ANYONE in my life. but he was dif and you saw it in my eye's and you still let him break me in the end. you let him slip away tbh we all you, me and J......

My Dearest L...

Have you ever felt as if time wasn’t real? Sometimes I wish I knew why I was put on this earth at this point. Was there ever a real reason why I am here. Bec I would like to know why I have had to go through so much fucking pain in my life. Was there ever a reason for every time I have broken my heart and cried myself to sleep every night for weeks at a time...

Man do I have a story to tell you guys 🫣 I'll be working on it tonight, it should be posted soon.