My Dearest L...

My Dearest L...

I'm spending V-day with my friends online watching a show but something about, still being alone in my room is just so sad...

I wish I could hold "Mexico" in my arms I miss him so much:..(

sometimes I wonder if he's moved on without me in Mexico but just doesn't have the balls to tell me. And he's kinda just stringing me along. But and the same time I'd rather just not know... since his b-day and his scop sign is the same as mine. I know how he acts cuz we are the same person, but then if I were him all alone for so long I don't know if I could hold on to someone for so long without being with them in person but then if I look at it this way and wait it out till the day we do see each other we will be soo damn happy :) just thinking of that day makes me want to cry...

My Dearest L...

It’s time to driffed on into a dark slumber...

It will be time for bed when the cigarette hits the floor

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My Dearest L…

I started my day with my mom waking me up like every other day with her whimpering "are up getting up today" and like always I said, "yes just give me a sec" but today I feel a bit better than yesterday. I started this new movie on Netflix not long ago, it's like 2h long. I'll let you guys know how it is, haha. I say that like people actually read this blog..... anyways uhh the movie is called Space Sweepers it's this Korean sci-fi movie. it looks pretty good and I love a good sci-fi movie, I'm really into the whole cyberpunk style tbh I love it so much the city's in those kinds of movies are fucking AMAZING tbh I wish I could live there honestly!!! but I don't know if the world will ever get to that when I'm living but till then I guess I'll just have to wait and see...

My Dearest L...

Will i ever find the one that will make me happy to be alive??

My Dearest L...

Today, was a easy day so far. i got to go to the store today. it was not what i ecxpected, it was pretty boring....

My Dearest L...

The past few days have not felt real to me I've been feeling as if my world around me is nothing but a dream-like nothing is what it seems, I've been sticking into a dark place again but I seem to be slowly crawling out of my hole. I'm starting to snap back to reality, I started watching downtown abbey it seems to be trading right now so I thought I'd give it a try idk how I really feel about it yet, I'll have an updated post about it but for now, I'll just use it to distract myself from the world around me bec if I don't have anything to keep my mind busy that's when I start to over think and things tend to become bad for me. My OCD seems to be getting worse I'm starting to count things now like I have to run my fingers throw my curtains 4-6 times before I open or close the door or after I wash my hands I have to flick the water off my hands 4-6 times before I dry them.

My Dearest L...

I miss the day’s drinking with my bestfriend...